On Edge

The Date

"How in the world am I late, I said 6:00"

"Didn't hear the bell untill 6:01" I looked at him as if to scold him for being late.

"Cheeks come on" as if he was pleading with me, that was a name I hadn't heard in forever cheeks, he use to call me that when we were best friends and there it was.

"Whatever" I said.

"Are u excited" he looked like a child asking if there mother loved them.

"Who knows"

"You know Morggie, so tell me" he demanded.

"naa I'm good" I looked up at him for the first time since we left, like really looked at him he was in a navy blue shirt coincidentally and Blue jeans and some dark blue sneakers. His shirt grip his body highlighting just how nice his body is and his face, let's just say his can make a girl happy even when they don't wanna be.

"Wanna know where we going" he asked.

"Yesss actually" I responded.

"naa I'm good" as if to mock me.

"Please Nelson, please tell me" I looked him right in the eyes and I knew I could get it out of him with that, I always could've.

"We are going to get icecream Morggie" he said in defeat. With that single phrase I got so happy I started skipping.I love icecream so much, it's like heaven on a cone.

We arrived at the icecream parlor and I looked at him and he ordered a double scoop of strawberry cheesecake, he remembered my favorite icecream flavour. He said he didn't want any so that was it I got my icecream and we sat and talk. It felt good to have him all to myself but then I talked too soon. My thoughts were interrupted by his cellphone, someone was calling.

"Hey" I heard him answer.

"O uh-ill be on my way" and with that he ended the call.

He looked at me and said "How's your icecream". He double booked, I couldn't believe that he had arrangements somewhere else. I couldn't even, I thought it was just me and him and here he was- ding ding ding. His phone is ringing again, what else does he have to do.

"It's Brianna, I'm supposed to be at church for some youth practice" as if he thought he'd take it off my mind. Brianna—church, Is this what Richard meant by getting hurt. Ding, ding, ding everytime. This time I took the phone up myself, I said

"Hello how may I help you" I said.

"Where's Robert?"

"Robert is busy at the moment, don't worry he'll be with you shortly" and with that I hung up the phone and handed it back to him. We were silent untill I said

" I think it's time for me to go home" he tried to come close to me but I couldn't I felt like I was something he picked up to kill time. I wanted to just scream. I didn't even let him drop me home it was 9:30 and I told him I had something to do. I'd walk home. I stopped at Richard's house and I rang the doorbell.

"Hey mom" I said, yes we call each other's mom's mom.

"Hey Morggie, he's upstairs" she said as she hugged me. Mrs Brian was the same hight as my mom but she was thicker, they were of the same complexion but unlike my mom Mrs Brian had black hair.

"Okay mom" I ran up the stairs, straight to Richard's room. I pushed his door and closed it behind me, Richard was there shirtless playing Call of Duty, his headset was on so he couldn't hear me. I sat on his bed untill he realized I was present and he took his headset off and came towards me. I'm crying, I can't stop.

"Hey, hey, what's wrong Morggie".

"Did he hurt you Morggie".

"Morggie talk to me".

"Am I ever gonna be enough, am I ever gonna be someone's main focus, will the pain ever stop" I said in between sobs.

With that he grabbed me and we played there in his bed, he put his arm around me and I felt a little better. Untill I started crying even harder. My back was turned to him and he was cuddling me but he turned me around and grabbede my face.

"Morggie , you are enough, you are more than enough, you are beautiful, smart, charismatic, you have the ability to make anyone smile and anyone that doesn't see that you are absolutely perfect is dumb. I couldn't look at him, here I was being overdramatic when real stuff actually happening out there. We layed there for awhile, it was now 11:30.

"Pass my phone". he said.

I took it up off the bed side table and gave it to him.

"Hey Mom, night, Morgan is at my house and its pretty late so I was wondering if she could just spend the night" .

"Yes, I know she should've called but when she stopped here she was pretty tired and I told her to lay down and I forgot to call".

"okay mom, I'll drop her home tomorrow after school".

To be honest I live 25 minutes away from Richard so it wasn't a big deal for him to just get up and drop me off. I think he just wants to make sure I don't go home in this depressing state. He got up off the bed and left the room, untill I saw him come into the room with two cartons of pistachio icecream and I remembered when Robert handed me the cone. I decided to just forget it and enjoy this moment. It was infact a carton of Ben and Jerry's. We ate icecream untill I changed into one of his T-shirts bc I like stealing his clothes, I have in his closet but that's not what I want. He put on Attack of Titans and we layed there in bed untill we fell asleep