The weeks leading up to the wedding are a complete blur… I wish that I could say they were filled with excitement, but as I get close to the day, I am filled with more and more dread… The knowledge of the impending mating continues to stand in my way. I know what the other blesset told me, and I understand it… I am pretty sure that I do feel the emptiness without Viktor… But my brain does not understand my heart and there is a constant fear that I will lose myself in this process… The weekend before the wedding comes and the entire territory is a buzz with energy. I am shocked how excited every single person on the territory is. An elderly woman at the store stopped me and Liza to let me know she dreamed of living old enough to see Vice be wed. I always seem to forget what
