In The End

chapter 2

I gave lex a sad smile and told him the truth " me too I hope to see her again someday". Before he could say anything else we walked up to the nurses desk and he walked up to a very beautiful red headed woman who kept looking over at me while they talked. I heard her call out to lex with " let me know if you need more time or anything else" then her eyes landed on me with pity in them. That look is the whole reason I wouldn't call my family between that and I would be swarmed with their guilt and the questions, where is Micheal, why did he abandon you, why did you do it, and why didn't you call me. I just couldn't handle them or anyone for that matter. I looked sick a small in clothes swallowed me when before I wouldn't have dreamed of fitting it. I am a broken shell of who I was and I don't know how to fix me or at least glue me back together so I can resemble who I was before I lost her. Micheal leaving was never a issue I'm starting to believe I never loved him just the idea of someone to be with. I was lonely and just wanted someone to call mine and I settled for liking someone. My internal thoughts were interrupted by the clearing of someone's throat when my eyes came back into focus lex was just staring at me with unreadable expression. I gave him my best attempt at a smile and started with " sorry I got lost in my head". He just stated simply " I figured just didn't want you to spiral because Jessica had pity written all over her face, I know you hate that". We started walking back down the hall and got on the elevator headed to the first floor. Lex lead the way to his car and stopped by a black Chevy Malibu and let us in got buckled and took off. We pulled up in the parking lot of a apartment complex, not to fancy but not run down either.