Prologue
I was trying my best to escape this darkness and the monster above me, no matter how much I try It isn’t enough, it’s never enough, he was just above me trying to enter me again and then I felt him inside me moving in and out of me faster, I felt dirty and I was scared no matter how much I tried I couldn’t move, I knew I won’t be able to do anything not until he is done with me, I was crying, shouting for help but I knew it useless, no one was coming to get me, to save me, I was tired I wanted to just close my eyes and never wake up again, never to go through all of this again but I knew it wasn’t possible. I was in my personal hell from past one month and no one had come to save me, I have lost all the hopes for a normal life. I knew when I saw his face with blurry eyes, when I heard his grunts, I knew he was done with me at least for now, but I knew that he’ll come back.
I tried escaping many times but every time he catches me, every time he is there, no one was coming to save me from him. No one was coming ever to this place and I’ll have to go through this and bear everything, I don’t know what have I done, why this is happening to me, I don’t know why no one has come to get me, now a days I even doubt if people even care for me, if they are looking for me or have they forgotten all about me, do they think I am dead, have they lost all the hopes of finding me just like I have of getting found.
I got up, went to the small bathroom that I have attached to my room and took bath to rub all his dirt from me, no matter how much I try I still feel dirty, I want to peel all the skin from my body just to get rid of anything that’s left but I can’t even do that.
I make my way to my room and see that there a plate with food, in the starting I used to eat a little bit in the hopes of getting found one day and then everything would be normal again at least as normal as it could be after all of this, but I have just stopped eating, what’s the point if no one was coming for me, I don’t want to go through all of this any longer than I have. If I starve myself to death then maybe just maybe I will be free of him, of all the torture, all the beating, of all the times that he has and will force himself on me, of everything, just maybe I’ll be free.
Sun was starting to rise and I couldn’t even bear the thought of getting up, I was so tired but I knew I had to or else I’ll have to go through more beating than usual. My stomach growled; I was hungry but I am not gonna eat. One way or other I am getting out of here, and if it isn’t alive, I’ll make f*****g sure that it's dead, I don’t wanna be with that son of a bi*** and if I had to die to get out of this hell then be it.
Just as I was getting up to wash my face I heard the creak of the door and I suddenly sat again, he had a plate of breakfast in his hand. “Aren’t you looking good this morning” he said. I was a total image of mess, once my silky smooth hair were now rough and damaged and were coming out from different directions, I had a split lip, I haven’t changed my clothes since this weekend, I bath but had the same clothes on because I didn’t have much of a choice in that department and I was getting pale day by day because of my new habit of not eating and he- “ uhmm darling this food isn’t going to eat itself, hurry up, I’ll be back in a few hours I have to make some bastards stay in there place, never mind, eat and when I am back we are going to play our game again.” I shuddered and with that he left the room.
I threw the food again and sat back up and drank some water. I sat there for few hours just praying to god for someone to find me, for some miracle, crying my eyes out, I didn’t have any hope left but I prayed daily just in case. After a few more hours he was back with a whip in his hand, without any warning he just came in and started beating me, my eyes were teary and I wanted to scream out of pain but I didn’t, I have stopped screaming a long time back, I didn’t want to give this bastard the satisfaction of seeing me crying out loud. He kept beating me, after some time I started feeling dizzy and I was pulled into darkness. Maybe when I wake up or if I wake up this time, I won’t be in this hell anymore this was my last thought before everything went black.
