Taste of life

The Unexpected Turn Of Event

Sherley is the first born in the family as we all recall. She can be very sweet and kind when she chooses to be. She meet her boyfriend at the church that they attended which is called the True Jesus Church. They fall in love and start their steady relationship. Always meet up whenever possible and spend as much time together as any love birds would do. They get married two years later at the church where they first met.

They bought a house together and moved out. Few years later their mama had fallen ill and had been sent to the hospital. After diagnosis, they were told by the doctor at the hospital that their mama had cervical cancer and she is at the third stage which means that just operation won't be enough to had it removed but will also need to have chemotherapy for a long while after the operation. 

This news comes as a shock for all of them as they could not even imagine how life would be without their mama. As she will need to be hospitalise for a long period of time there won't be anybody to look after the young ones. So it has been decided that Ann will be going to stay with Sherley and her husband. 

KS refused to moved in with them so he is staying behind with Jen instead. Jen at that time is around 14 years old and had been working part time after school to earn herself some pocket money. Jen had been travelling back and forth ever single day to look after her mama at the hospital and her little brother at home. She will have to wake up very early in the morning to boil some nutritional soup and rice for her mama and also to cook something extra for her brother. 

After putting all the things to cook, she will change into her uniform and get ready for school. Jen will go to work straight after school finishes in order to save time and money on transport so she always pack an extra set of working clothes in her school bag. After work, she will rush back home to collect the food that she cook that morning. She will put it into a container to bring it to the hospital for her mama. She make sure yo leave enough food for her younger brother when he gets home.Their mama had been staying in the hospital for many months now. As the hospital food is very bland and tasteless their mama refused to have it. So in order to make sure that she eats and keep up her stamina, Jen had been travelling to and forth from home to hospital every day with food. 

Life had been soo to tiring for a 14 years old to bear so Jen decided to removed herself from school without finishing her school year. The school had been very understanding when explained with the situation that she currently facing and had been encouraging her not to give up even though times are hard for her. Jen is really grateful for their understanding but that did not lessen the burden that she is carrying at the moment. 

She did thank them for giving her another opportunity to carry on with her education but she decided to decline the offer as there would be no way she could manage to cook, look after her mama at the hospital, work, travel back and forth and study at the same time. Jen just feels too exhausted to carry on. 

She mostly stayed until midnight and leave the hospital after her mama falls asleep. Or when sometimes too tired to travel, she will just sleep on the bench outside the wards. She is a regular on the hospital bench that mostly all the visitors will leave that space empty just so she could get some rest.

Jen

Hospital life is not a stranger for me as I have been here for a few months now. All I am asking from God is to make my mama feel better. But when the doctor told me one morning after making his round that I have to be prepared for the worst, I almost break down. 

My whole world collapses after the news. It is a complete disaster. I refused to believe that after all this month of hardship and struggle, he is telling me that my mum is running out of time. 

How could we live on without our dearest mama? 

How can life be so unfair? 

Why are you torturing me like this? 

Is this the way you test my faith? 

If it is you have successfully crushed every single drop of my faith in you, dear God. The "WHYS" had been going on and on my brain none stop. I did not realized when my knees just buckle and I kneel straight down facing the window. I prayed for the first time in that many months I am at the hospital. 

I am completely devastated. My whole world came tumbling down and I am in my last resort and that is connecting to God. I ask him to have mercy on us and please oh please let my mama stayed in this world for another 10 more years at least. I am willing to shorten my own life so that our beloved mama can live on. 

I have been on my knees the whole night until the next morning asking God to have mercy. I inform the rest of my siblings about the latest update. My mama knows that she does not have that long left as I think she can really feel it herself so she asked me to sit by her bedside and told me that I have been a very good daughter and thank me for giving up my school to look after her this past few months. She wants me to promised her that I will lead a good life without having to carry a burden like her when she is gone from this world. 

It is just too upsetting for me to listen on, so I told her that no I am not going to be strong without her and I command her to get well soon and come home with me before I walk out of the hospital feeling completely crush. I know I am cruel not to grant her last wish but I just could not help it. But guess that my stubbornness did paid off.