Finding Yourself

XVI

Carter Thompson.

As me and Keeylah walked hand in hand to the park. My mind was spinning. If I thought Keeylah was crazy beforehand. I damn sure knew she was crazy now. We sat down on the bench and just looked down at the aspalt. I had soooooooooooooo many questions for her. But I think itd be best if we were both quiet. After a few moments, Keeylah spoke up.

"You can go ahead and ask." She said quietly. I looked to her side. "Are you sure. Im okay if you dont wanna-"

She interrupted me. "Go ahead. I needa talk to somebody about it."

I sighed. "Okay, baby. What Perry mean by ya daddy used to r**e you on a daily basis?" I moved closer to her and put my arms around her waist.

She sighed. "Him not bein in my life wasnt the only reason why I hated him. He used to hurt me, sexually so he could show me how much he loved me. It started from when I was 10 to 13. I didnt tell anybody but Dez, not even my fuckin mom. My fuckin mom, for goodness sake. My mom thinks I don't like my dad cause he barely is in my life When that's true. But there's more The only reason Dez is cause I thought I could confide in her and If Dez told Perry, babe I swear on everything I love and own. I'm beating her ass and cutting her off. If you thought I was crazy with Perry, watch me beat Dezs ass." She said, while getting heated again.

I rubbed her back in circles. "Baby, I'm not gonna sit here and lie, saying it's okay. Cause if Dez did that s**t. I would be pissed as hell to. But if she didn't, baby its gonna be aight. You got me and I got you. But I think you should tell your mom. About it."

Her neck quickly snapped up. "Oh hell fuckin no. If she loves my dad and wants to get back with him. I don't wanna be in the middle of it. "

Okay. My girlfriend is officially dumb as hell.

"Baby, you know how dumb you sound?" I said quietly.

"Yeah I know. But look, I don't wanna tell her okay? Can you respect that?" She asked.

I sighed, not really wanting to agree to some s**t like that. "Fine. You wanna go back to school now?"

"No." She said curtly.

"Well, we can't stand in a damn park all day." As soon as I said that, my phone rang.

I took my phone out of my pocket. It read my dad. I rolled my eyes and picked it up. I pulled my pants up a little and waited the bs my parents are gonna spit.

"What?" I spat, not really in the mood.

"Where the hell are you? Mr. Zarius called us to say you weren't in school this morning. Hope you aren't with that hoodrat."

I moved farther from Keeylah, getting mad af.

"First off, I'm not with a hoodrat. I'm with my girlfriend. I'll be in school soon."

My dad sighed a frustrated sigh into the receiver.

"Me and your mom don't send you to school to go be with some b***h-"

I stopped him right after that. "Don't call her a b***h. You don't even fuckin' know her. You are pissin' me off so I'll see you all, when I see y'all. Bye." 

I hung up and rubbed my hand across my face and let out a sigh. I turned around and walked over to the bench where Keeylah sat quietly.

I sat down next to her and didn't say any words for a moment.

"Your parents don't like me...." She said, more of a statement then a question.

"I don't know bout my mom but my dad is something else. But don't worry about him." Keeylah already had enough to worry about and she didn't need to have anything else on her plate.

I sat up. "You want some chicken & waffles right now? We can walk down to my car and get some roscoes."

Her ass stood up so damn quick. "Okay." She smiled and walked ahead of me, as I followed behind.

Fat ass. I mumbled.

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Dezianne Ashton

I rubbed my eyes and stretched. This nap was good as hell. I say up from the couch and picked my phone up and called Perry, my cousin.

She picked up on the 3rd ring.

"Hello?" She croaked.

"Was the job done?" I asked, skipping introductions.

"Yeah.. But you must of forgotten to tell me she would of nearly killed me!"

"What the f**k are you talking about?" I asked, confused.

"When I mentioned about her dumb r**e, she nearly put me in a damn coma! I didnt know she'd go off. Now I'm ugly! Carter will never take me now." She whined into the phone.

I got up from the couch and strolled into the kitchen. "Well, you shoulda known she would try and hurt you physically, you dumb b***h. God, now all we need is for Freddie to do his part. " I opened the cabinet to get a plate.

She sighed. "Freddie backed out."

I nearly slammed the cabinet. "What??????"

She shushed me. "Shhhh, you will wake up Zoey."

Fuck Zoey. Her daddy just has good d**k and buys me s**t. I swear if he wasn't at a drug deal rn. I would kill his child & him.

"Whatever. Guess we will have to god new bait. Does anyone know that my mom has gone "poof" ?" I asked, turning the kettle on.

"No. Maurice has taken care of that." I could tell Perry was shurgging.

Y'all remember that nigga from Mcdonalds? Yup, put his ass to good use.

"Okay fine. Where are you now?" I asked, while stirring some cereal.

"In the bathroom. Tryna cover this black eye and bruises."

"Hmm. Okay. Yo job is to find somebody to fill Freddie's place and kill Freddie. He knows too much."

"Yes ma'm." And with that I hung up.

You might ask why I was doing this to Keeylah & Carter. Well, I'm not doing this for Carter first off. Keeylah deserve this. She has a boyfriend, wonderful mom and brother while I was stuck with bullshit parents, reasons why they are dead now. Keeylah always kept that good girl image and it was time for that wall to break down. One brick at a time.

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