Finding Yourself

XVII

Keeylah Mason

As I was biting into this chicken leg, I started think about what happened at school and how I could have handled it better.

Oh f**k that. I handled that situation pretty well, if you ask me. Perry deserved that and more. She had been testing me and my hood part of me had to come out. See, I don't fight for dumb s**t like niggas,gossip, etc.

That's what girls fight about nowadays and that's dumb as hell if you ask me. But I fought her because she talked about my family and me. And that is something I sure will fight for.

I felt Carter's stare on me & I looked up from my chicken leg.

"What?" I said with chicken still in my mouth.

He laughed. "I like seein' you all calm and s**t. And happy."

I smiled. "I really want to meet your moms & dads." I swallowed the chicken bite.

His smile slowly turned into a frown. "Why...."

"Cause. I just wanna." I shrugged, not really having a reason.

"Baby, I don't think that's such a good idea. My parents are.... something else." He shook his head.

"Fine." I said curtly, throwing away my trash and proceeded to leave Roscoe's.

I heard him smack his teeth and follow me. I put my hands across my chest, and waited for him at his car. He looked at me and shook his head, I got into the passenger seat while he went into the drivers seat.

"I wanna break up with you." I said, after 10 mins of silence.

His head snapped to my side and he chuckled, a dark one.

"Like s**t. We aren't breaking up, you just gotta get over this lil attitude s**t you got goin' on and talk to me. Not like you some lil bitch." He said, blankly.

This time, it was my turn to snap my head.

"Did you just call me...." I shook my head. "f**k it, I wanna leave. Get me out. Now."

He smiled. "Go 'head, open it."

By now, we were in a abandoned parking lot. I tried to open it but it wouldn't. As I was tryna open it, Carter smirked.

"See I got child protection lock on yo ass. since you wanna act like a child."

I sighed in frustration. "I hate you."

"I luh you too baby." He leaned over and cooed into my ear.

I pushed him away from me as he chuckled and continue to drive on our way back to school.

"Wait... We goin' back?" I asked puzzled.

"Yeah. It's only 12 something. We got 2 hours of school left, I'm sure you can live. Oh & I'm sorry for callin' you a b***h, ma. It slipped." He said with one hand on the wheel and slouched in his seat.

I looked over and examine him. He was looking sexy as hell today. He was wearing a "Brooklyn 00" shirt with some black trues and his Air Force ones. His SnapBack was reversed and he looked so calm and focused on the road.

My baby was fine as hell.

He glanced over to my side. "What? You see sum' you like?" He bit his bottom lip and licked it. Lord the things he could do with that tongue.

That single gesture made me horny as hell.

Yes I'm a proud virigin. And I've been waiting for that special person to give it too. Carter just slightly might be that person.

I smirked and decided to tease him a bit.

I slowly rubbed my arm on his thigh up and down.

"Maybe, maybe not." That motion earned me a inwardly groan from him.

Good job, Key you doing sum' right.

He still kept quiet as I went up a little towards his crotch area, then finally he said something.

"f**k 'round and Imma bend yo ass over this chair and f**k you all the way into ya insides. Go 'head and touch him. See what's gonna happen. 'Gon have to ass screamin' for days." He said blankly.

I pulled away from his crotch and sat quietly. He didn't need to know that I'm a virgin cause he'll probably think different of me.

He side-eyed me. "You okay baby?"

I nodded and looked out the windows. This ride seemed long.

After a few minutes, he finally turns into the parking lot.

After we got out and went inside, holding hands of course, it was the beginning of lunch time. We walked into the lunchroom and sat at our usual table.

"Damn, where y'all been?" Messiah asked while lowkey wrapping his arm around Drea.

Gotta ask her about that later.

"We was at roscoes and just chillin'" Carter answered.

"Hmmmm." Drea looked at me, knowingly and I cracked a smile.

"Where tf is Seiko?" I asked.

"Probably f*****g one of his sides right now." Messiah laughed.

"Probably, which one tho? Tina with the big-" Carter stopped himself.

I raised my eyebrow. "Nah. Keep goin'"

Messiah shook his head laughing while Drea was just giggling.

"Tina wit the big brains, right?" Nigga caught himself hella quick.

"Good save. Cause you almost earned yourself the Perry Treatment." I said jokingly.

Cater smacked his teeth while Dressiah laughed. Yes, Dressiah. I ship them mfs.

Suddenly, gun shots rang out in the cafeteria from all directions. Everyone tried to hide under the tables, I almost blacked out, the guns shots continued until a Loud horn blared. Me & Carter cuddled, more like smushed under the tables with Dressiah next to us.

Drea didn't look panicked because hit like this happens all the time is Chiraq, Messiah on the other hand, look spooked.

The alarms were goin off and people were running away and getting scared. s**t, I was about to cry but Carter and I held on together while Dressiah did the same.

After a few more minutes, the gun shots stopped. When I felt it was safe to come from under the tables, I came out and took in my surroundings. Time wasp movin' slowly.

I saw teachers rushing to help students and students checkin' on each other.

My school had turned into a war zone.

And nobody knew who was the cause of it.

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