My Obsession

It is just a university to many but, more toĺme. At the mention of the name, my heart skips a bit for joy, and my memory's electricity is turned on. As a little girl, I always heard about UNZA and its greatness but I thought it was just an exaggeration until I met him..... Fresh from University (he was a graduate) slightly tall, smooth dark skin and his smile, something I couldn't withstand. I was only sixteen years old when I fell for him. Everything about him made me smile even when I wasn't supposed to. Our families were close and each time my mother talked about him "the neighbour's son is back from the University, he graduated with good grades, he is a very hard working boy. " the fantasies that ran through my brain, we even had a happy matrimonial home together In my head. Time passed, we got into a relationship and all was well until he crushed my heart into pieces that I didn't even know what pieces to mend first. All I was left with was the thought of U.N.Z.A... That boy was my first love, kiss and idol. He taught me so much that when he crushed my heart, I picked its pieces up with so much joy and forgiveness. The following year. It was heard that there had been a new guy around the neighbourhood who had just graduated from U.N.Z.A . Upon hearing that I prepared myself for a second chance with love, on the other hand I thought it wouldn't be possible but, looking at how he set his eyes on me the first day we crossed each other's paths, made my stomach full of butterflies. This guy wasn't as charming as the first one but, because he was From U.N.Z.A and looking at the picture my mother set in my head about U.N.Z.A , lessons learnt from an U.N.Z.A graduate, I was down and fell so deep that not even the emergency team could find me. We got into a relationship so beautiful and lovely until he proved not worthy of my love by not meeting my imagination, and I decided to leave. Days passed, I got into university, with no idea where U.N.Z.A was located. One day, as the taxi I was in with my Auntie, moved as fast as the wind, my aunty mentioned"that is U.N.Z.A , the famous U.N.Z.A you hear about". If my name wasn't science at that moment then definitely, it was memories because, all the memories I had had with U.N.Z.A graduates, came running towards my brain like an Olympic racer, taking over my emotions and body, for some reason, it was like my heart had broken into pieces once again. Time passed, and this time I met an U.N.Z.A student on social media. I didn't have any Fantasy whatsoever, I just had the enthusiasm of meeting the person and finally, I was going to see what and who U.N.Z.A was. A very big school full of all kinds of characters, not entirely clean but entertaining and yes... EXTRAORDINARY. This guy turned out to be the love of my soul, systems, organs, tissues, cells, and belongings. A very handsome dark chocolate milk devilish looking young man with very vast brains. I confided to myself, "I am never leaving your side no matter what". He took care of me, treated me like I was the only thing that mattered to him, and for the first time, someone loved me extensively. I was so afraid of losing him that I became someone I wasn't, it became so hard to believe that someone could love the real me. I pretended to be something I was nothing compared to. I became so insecure that I ruined my relationship. As time passed, we forgot what love was, all we did was argue, argue, and argue. We then decided to part ways and just be friends but, there was nothing friendly about us because we had said all the bad words to each other, and friendship didn't feel like friendship but pretending to be nice. I put myself together and told myself, "I will find a better person", but each time I tried to move on, I fell to the ground, and tasted dust, which reminded me that, "there was nothing better than U.N.Z.A ." I tried finding my way back to U.N.Z.A , but each time I tried, I was constantly reminded of how much I adored the person I had separated with. That is when I understood that, it had not been about U.N.Z.A , all along, but the person's personality. I pleaded my way back, to the love of my soul because he was worth fighting for. Anything aside from the relationship we shared, didn't seem to make any sense to me. I had not known any joy apart from the one that came with his words, "I LOVE YOU." They went a long way, swept me off my feet and made me feel like a woman. After my partner and I reunited, I regained my pride, nothing seemed better than him at that particular time. We worked out our differences and promised each other to talk to each other about every bother we had concerning our relationship. We didn't argue anymore, we smiled at each other more often which became boring for me, each time I walked with him on his campus, I noticed that girls with sexy bodies and nasty characters questioned him about dating a young girl, he did not seem to mind but I noticed that his attention forwards me reduced drastically. He started posting different sexy girls of his age on his social media platforms. Each time I spoke to him about it trying to correct him and let him know that his actions hurt me, he drew further away from me. It continued until he ghosted me completely without a word, I wondered why he did what he did. I looked for him everywhere yet, nothing was found.