Chapter 1, death
They say that love has no bounds. The day feels long and slow, the world seems to be crumbling at the very tips of my fingers. I’m going back in When suddenly my favorite weather starts to fall, each drop like crystals reassuring me of my fate. The rain hits the ground making small splashes like a wave against rocks as it floods the roads and buildings, giving a lovely silky layer of water across the city. “Rosalina Delfrances, I am afraid you aren't improving. I know this might be hard but I am not sure you are going to make it, do you wish for us to ring for your husband?” “yes, thank you doctor” my voice tries to make the right words as I fight to see my love once again even for the last time. Love I wish to live it all back, see him, love him, feel him. Just relive it all, feel it all again and feel every emotion over the years again. I am grateful for everything brought to me in life, my love, my children, my feelings, my outlook, my family, and my friends. Everything was an adventure from the rough times to the best and the most stressful to the calm, I will miss it all. I hear the click of the door as it creaks open like a gate keeping me here, waiting to fall into the deepest sleep of all. As the door opens all I could feel is tears flooding within my eyes when I see the only true love my life has known, and the kids we share. My husband walks in with my newborn baby girl in his arms and holding the hand of my little boy Matthew. My son runs to me escaping his fathers grasp, running to my side. “Mommy! Are you ok?!” my son tears up saying this, seeing me like this “oh matty I love you so so much, just know even if im with angels I am with you, please take care of yourself and your sister, I love you so much and just know I will always be proud of you” tears stream down my face while the words escape telling Matthew the truth and only that. I place a kiss on his forehead before my husband makes his way over to me. He kneels down as tears stream down his face as we both face the reality of it all, he hands me Vivian who I gave birth to earlier today, and due to complications of blood loss I am here. “My sweet baby girl, just know you are not the reason for any of this. I believe that it’s a result of my body telling me it’s time, I will be with you and your brother always, I love you and I want you to be reminded of that.” The world seems almost dim as I say each word and the tears leave my eyes. I place a kiss on Viviens forehead like I did with Matthew, and as I see both of my children sobbing, my heart aches each time a tear falls down there face. I know I don’t want to leave them and my husband but I know it is my time at last even if I don’t get to grow old and watch my children grow and comfort them. I know I will miss so much, I may be able to be with them but it hurts so much to leave the physical world. Finally my husband steps towards me trying to hide his tears because he knows it hurts when I see him sad or broken. “Rosalina I don’t know if I can live without you!” He says, wiping the tears draining from his eyes. “Hey, my love I will be with you always. I promise I love you, just remember my love knows no bounds.” I say this as I put my hand against his cheek just in hopes to comfort him. He leans into me lightly touching my lips, he presses his face against mine and we share one last passionate kiss. I can feel him, taste him, love him just as I love and will miss. I feel at peace. “I will always be with you, I love you all” I say as the world surrounding me dims. I close my eyes, and the world go’s dark, it’s time.