Done being Afraid

Marley *plays Afraid by Lana Del Rey* Can't believe that I have done it again. I slept with Gregor while drunk, knowing very well that he is married, his wife is pregnant and that he probably has an STD. The STD part is because he's a man w***e and it is to account for the smell between my legs after last night's session. What the hell was I thinking? What was I even drinking?! All of this, after all those signs from the universe. Guess I will wear my clown outfit all the way to the clinic to get checked up * The clinic is airy, there's not a lot of people here thankfully. Can't bear to be seen by neighbours or be known for this bullshit. I go to the reception window to create a file, so I can get help. After sitting on this cold hard chair for about 30 minutes, I'm called to go into the doctor's office. And I think by now,we all know that I have the worst kind of luck because why is this man.. doctor so handsome?! Now he's gonna know the kind of men I sleep with,men with weird stenches,men with zero respect for women. Honestly,swallow me whole world cause this is too much. I delegate my horror story to him and lord he looks too pleased with this. Like sir,what's pleasing about me potentially sick because I couldn't resist some good d**k? Swear to skies, this needs to end already. He draws my blood for some tests and they all come up negative except for one. Trichomoniasis. At least it's curable which means the gods are still with me. He proceeds to give me a vaginal tablet to insert in my hoohah tonight and some pills to take for 7 days after meals. Ok ok at least I ain't dying of anything but embarassment. Oya,I hope I never see this S.G ever again after this. Tony Busy day, busy mind and a busy schedule. What a fun life. I got 2 knee surgeries to perform later in today after my shift at the clinic. I'm just glad that the clinic is kind of empty so I can relax and set my mind on the upcoming intense surgeries. I've only had 3 patients since the morning and my next patient is my last one before some knees get cut open. Disturbing my train of thought, a seductive fragrance makes me look up and in walks Ms Williams, my last client. Looking all shades of fine with her dreadlocks and green dress. Well, are goddesses even allowed to get sick? While consulting with her, I wonder what kind of mutt would leave a nasty smell on my queen right here? The liver and guts of some men. She is looking down the whole time,feeling embarassed for sure. While I just want her to look me in my eyes. I know I look like and acting like a creep but I just have to capture her face in all the right places so I can search for her on social media lest I never see her again after this weird encounter. That's a sad thought right there but let's face it, her file is new,meaning she's not the type to get sick or prefers home remedies. After the test results came out, I was relieved because then I have a chance to have kids with her. Wait..kids ? Did I smoke anything today? Am I drunk on duty? Gotta snap out of it. Might play that song by the Arctic monkeys on my way to the hospital. i am tempted to give her my number but she will think negatively of me, she will think I'm taking advantage because of her current situation, when really I just found out that love at first sight exists.