Rogue

Chapter 3

Silver POV

Have you ever wondered what a journey to hell is like? Neither have I! But I've had it for three weeks, and not once, but several times a day! After this forced journey I became a shadow. The silver before was lost in the maze of pain and what's left is just an empty shell. Apart from the cursed love that almost pushed me into the clutches of madness, there's nothing left. I'm a doll that responds to commands. I open my mouth when I'm fed, shower when I'm put in the bath, don't know what day it is, whether it's night, sun or rain. In a word, I have no idea what world I live in. As darkness falls, fear surrounds me, it's time for the demons to appear. Every night, every nightmare I lose myself. I'm so tired and I just want to close my eyes and never wake up.

A kissing pressure on my neck brings me out of my numbness. My fingertips gently touch the pattern on the pale skin. It's so beautiful and it's the reason I'm still breathing. Whenever I slip down the slope of despair, I just have to look at it and the black wolf tattoo is the fang I cling to, my last hope.

A soft hand touches me gently and a warm voice brings a hint of a smile to my lips.

"My little girl, can we talk for a minute?" I cringe slightly, there's something in my mother's tone that scares me. Whatever she says, I have a feeling I won't like it. I get up the courage and look into her eyes.

"Look, sweetheart, I've been thinking these days, and the only solution is for you to leave."

"Leave? Go where?" I scream in fear.

"Calm down! It's like a vacation! At first it'll be both of us, then if you like it and feel good you can stay. Silver, just listen to me and if you don't want to it's okay, I don't force you to do anything."

I look at her in terror. As if knowing how I feel, she hugs me and starts talking.

"I know it's hard for you, and unfortunately it will continue to be. But I know something else my little girl, something my stupid son doesn't know but will. "No one knows you better than I do and even though I didn't carry you, I love you like my own child. Because you're my child, don't ever forget that! Your lover will get a lesson he won't soon forget. Puppy. We women may not be as strong as men, but we're definitely smarter."

That's the mother of the strongest Alpha, the woman who raised me and never let me down. The determination on her face makes me say "fine, we'll do it your way" but I listen to her all the way. I nod slightly and let her continue.

"Before I became Luna, I lived in Canada and was part of the Blue Star pack. My father was an Alpha and my mother was a Beta. With that kind of heritage, it was to be expected that Aiden would be so strong. Silver, I believe in fate and fate brought you here. For my son! You're strong, kid, you're perfect for him! And he'll figure it out! Just promise that when he comes for you, you'll make him crawl like a snake first." Without meaning to, I let out a little giggle.

He squeezes me tighter in his arms and kisses me on the forehead, sighing.

I missed that sound. There were times when I thought I'd never hear it again.

I feel my eyes fill with tears and a lump like a fist in my throat. I gently pull my nose in and hold on tighter and motion for her to continue.

"We're going to Canada. My brother is waiting for us and his son, the new Alpha has agreed. The fact that he's recently met his soul mate and understands how you feel has made him unfazed by what might happen. And believe me, there's going to be an emergency here when Aiden can't find you. Tayler and Jay have been given clear orders to take care of you."

"Poor things, what if something happens to them? What if they don't let me go?" I ask.

"Little girl, I'm Luna and their mother! If I want to go shopping in Paris, I go to Paris. I do what I want and I don't have to answer to anyone. And you're going with me! Oh, and don't worry about the men, because they're men, right? They'll manage." I look at the woman next to me and I can't believe it. I knew she was strong, but still, she's his mother. His mother who helps me and wants to hurt him. She looks me in the eye and tells me like she's reading my mind.

"I don't want to hurt him, I'm just teaching him a lesson. First of all he's my child and I love him, and I want him to be happy. Silver, his happiness is you! If you ever forget he loves you or feel lost, just look in the mirror." Gently, with one finger, he touches the mark on my neck and continues.

"As long as this one is here, and I'm sure it won't change one shade of color, know that it loves you. And because it loves you, it will fail and hurt you."

I hug her tightly and a little of her trust spills over into me.

"We have to get ready for the road, tomorrow we leave. I'll help you pack, we won't take much stuff. There's some truth in that lie. I'm also planning a shopping spree, I'm going to smash your boyfriend's cards."

"But I have enough stuff, I complain. You know I don't like to haunt the shops and I don't feel up to it!" She laughs amusedly and pulls me gently towards the kitchen. On her doorstep appear my friends, leaders of the pack. Tayler looks at us amazed and at the same time happy. He hasn't seen me outside of my bedroom in a long time. Curious Jay asks us directly.

"What's so funny?"

Oblivious, Luna continues to purr.

"My dear but we won't even have to break our legs in the shops, at least you won't! Do you know what a personal shopper is?"

"Yes."

"Well, I have one. We'll sit nice in the hotel suite, on the couch, drink martinis on the rocks and just pick out what clothes we want. You won't even have to try them on, we can ask for a mannequin with your measurements. Come on, now, let's eat! And if I like the way you eat, I'll buy you a car."

"Oh, my God, don't even think about it!" Now I'm really scared. Mom's crazy.

"We'll see!"

"Luna, but will Aiden let you go with Silver?" Jay jumps in with his mouth.

With an icy stare, Luna measures the unfortunate man from top to bottom and I almost pity him.

"Boy, even when the former Alpha was alive, (and emphasis on Alpha), we didn't ask permission. I leave when I want and I can take half the women here if I feel like it. Now I'm taking Puppy, she needs .....therapy.

And now beat it, you've ravaged my fridge, you've had enough and you've got work to do!" He gives her the go-ahead and stops abruptly. She turns to the two, still nauseated by her tirade and says.

"I trust you will prepare the car and the people who will accompany us."

Evening came quickly and I had no strength left even to crawl. My body was too weak and the thought of leaving was killing me. I try to make myself brave for it is good but my little wolf cries, mourns the wolf that never got to know him. 'Courage my dear, we will get through this too but I need your help'. I try to comfort her, but she growls in discontent. In the three weeks of agony I never changed. I feel the need for a run deep into the forest, like before, to clear my mind of all the pain and suffering I've accumulated but my body refuses. It's just a bag of bones and skin. I've only climbed one flight of stairs and I feel like I've done the marathon.

Lying in my bed I clear my mind of every thought and slowly, slowly lower the mental barrier. I leave open the channel to my soul mate.If I can't see him I at least want to feel him.Every fibre in me longs for him. I'm only half of a whole and that's broken. The feeling of a kiss on my neck comes back in full force. With the barriers down the vibe is much stronger and I can read his emotions much better. First I'm struck by his love, longing, pain, remorse and something else, something I don't realize at first. The revelation is like a punch in the face and makes me scream in my mind. My soul mate just f****d a b***h in heat.

"I hate you!" I gasp madly for a breath of air and cringe at the pain tearing me into tiny pieces.

"You're bothering me." he growls disgruntled.

"f**k you Aiden, go to hell damn you! I sigh uncontrollably."

"I'm already there, baby."

I raise my barrier and try to gather what little sanity I have left. I can feel him trying to open the channel between us but he can't. Even if the connection between us isn't complete, a small part of his power is in me. And this new power gives me the strength to regulate my breathing, to quiet my heartbeat. After long agonizing minutes of fighting with myself, I made a decision. To hell with him and me, if I'm going to give up without a fight!

In the darkness of the night I say aloud:

I, Silver White, swear on my life I'll be your soul mate Aiden Hunter, I'll be your Moon, but first I'll make you crawl b***h!