What I thought was MINE vs What was made for ME

Rina POV "beep beep beep" my alarm for school again, sometimes I wonder why school was established, but I have to read you know, am planning on studying philosophy in the university but I want to be a music artists, and also an actress, I stand up from my bed to the bathroom which is at the end of the hall. We are not the richest, at least we have three square meal to eat, my parents are famers , yes both of them, and am there child, only one to be precise we are christians and am a church girl, alot of people don't like me because am dark skinned and also fat as they say, but I don't believe that, because yes I have big thighs, arms and a little big stomach but I have a good curves I know. But you know I hate looking at myself in the mirror, because I hate what they say about me , and am starting to think that it's true, am ugly, because no boy in my class has ever given me attention, when others receive a lot of attention. Am at the school gate right now I hope today goes well for me ohh pardon my manners, My name is Rina Viv , am twelve years old am in Jss 2, I know am too young for my class but it's fine , am a dark skinned and a chubby girl , who never got attention from anyone and also a daddy's girl TIME FLIES "Ring Ring Ring" Thank you Lord , i f*****g hate mathematics but now I have business studies in the B class I hate that too but I have to attend the class even though the teacher act like a witch, I can't forget the day she slapped me unexpectedly because I made a mistake in the class work, imagine how disgraced I was in the front of the whole class, what a b***h she is , i don't know the meaning of that word but I know it bad because my classmates use it when fighting, I rushed up running to the next class as I was about to enter someone pushed me back, I was expecting myself to hit the ground but fortunately for me I fall into a boy's arm "h-hmm i- I am s-sorry " I stutter like a kid because the worse thing I will want to happen now is him shouting at me, hell no I did cry. "No need to apologize, it can happen to anyone" he said smiling, if he is from my class then he has to be the new student they introduced in the morning, I didn't pay attention though , I was so locked up in my world "Am Jack from Jss 2A see you later" he said walking into the class, wow, I said it, he is from my class , how will this go now, gosh am so embarrassed to enter the class , I just pray he doesn't use this to make jest of me in class tomorrow. I entered at last of course with my head hanging low , I sit beside a very tall guy because no girl will let me sit beside them , you don't need to ask why because you know why already am dark and fat nobody wants to be my friends except they want to use me to get something or someone you know. Time flies Am finally back home Jesus, it nine PM already, yes from school I went to church and then from church am back home. I can't believe I saw and chatted with the new student today, He is so handsome, he is dark but not as dark as me , not too tall , nice body structure, I wish he continues to be nice to me even though I know it won't last long , yes all those devil in my class won't let it last I know. How I wish he ask me out, I will play hard for a week before saying yes just like other girls do , don't want to look cheap , on valentine's day he buy me gift and give it to me in front of the class telling me how much he loves me (smiles) keep dreaming. let's call it a night.