Not you

Good girl

When Tom knocked on the door, Jenny was already gone.She didn't want to meet him and she also knew that we would appreciate some privacy. Tom started with undressing me right at the door. He was enjoying every moment as usual and so did I. His hands were caressing me through it all, he was kissing me on my neck as I liked it. I couldn't help it, I was still thinking about the fight. I had to get it out of my head. I unbuttoned his pants and pushed him on the bed.

"What are you doing babe?" he asked surprised.

I unbuttoned my shirt down and took my jeans down too.

"I want to do it differently. Let me be on top." He took his shirt down also. "Not today, baby. We are having a match tonight, don't you remember? It has to be quick."

"It will be. Let me just..." he kissed me quickly not listening, laying on top of me.

Ten minutes later he was already dressing back up.

"Was it alright?" I asked still laying on my bed.

"Sure it was, sweetie. Just how I like it."

Normally, it would be alright with me, he had his happy end and so did I. I just really needed to let my anger out. I wanted to dominate him under me so I wouldn't feel so "boring".

That f*cking douchebag got into my head again.

"Are you alright, babe?"

"Yeah, I was just thinking about something."

"About what?" he sat on my bad as he was getting his shoes on.

"Is our relationship boring to you?"

He looked at me right away. "Why would you ask that?"

"Because I'm not as caring as other girlfriends of your teammates. I don't go on your games, on your parties, always needing in the background."

"Are you kidding? That's what I like about you so much. You let me have my life, you also have your stuff, but you are always here for me. Safe and predictable." he kissed me on my cheek and stood up. "I gotta go now. I will call you later okay?"

And just like that he left.

"Safe and predictable." I felt like s**t.

When Jenny came back to our room I was already finishing with my makeup.

"What's going on here?" she looked so excited as never.

"We are going on a party." I said as if it would be the most normal thing.

"Are you serious?" she asked right away.

When I smiled at her, she started screaming and hugging me.

"FINALLYYYY!! What did Tom do to make you finally come?" she was already going through her wardrobe.

"Nothing. I just want to do something different. And it will be nice to be there for him, right?"

"Of course it will be. It's gonna be amazing..." I couldn't listen to her. Deep down I knew it wasn't because of Tom, I just simply couldn't let that jerk Jared have the last word. He wasn't right and I wasn't as shy and safe as he thought. I was pissed that I cared, but I had to do something to make that stupid voice inside my head shut up.

"Hey! What is that?" on my head landed something small and bright red.

"That's what you are wearing." Jenny said not even bothering to stop.

"I already picked my outfit."

"Don't even bother. I planned this one for you when you ditched me with our welcome party as freshmen. The dress waited long enough. And if you want to do something different, this is the dress for it. Tom won't even recognise you in these."

She was surely right about that.

When I dressed and Jenny completely changed my makeup, I looked like different person. With bold eyeliners and red lipstick I looked like someone else. O didn't know who she was, but she was definitely not boring.