Lost between Two

Faded away

It has been a month since I did not write a word in my secret book and even if I'm taking this pen to write something , I don't feel the same delicious sensation like before , cause all what I had is gone forever in this world .

We were happy , it was a Saturday night , I just finished my show in Texas , I was drunk so they made ride on the back seat of the car .

James was driving and Nina was sitting next to him . Everything seemed normal , we were singing " when the heart loves" and in a glimpse of an eye all the dreams faded away . all what still I remember is one big scream and a glowing light coming from near .

When I opened my eyes I found myself in a hospital in New-York city .

First I could not remember what really happened but when I did , I couldn't stop myself to run all over the hospital searching for them , to be find in front of the unexpected reality .

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- Suddenly I heard a deep voice coming from behind .

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I got a nervous breakdown . The nurses gave me a tranquilizer.

I slept for so many hours and when I woke up, i saw on the bottom of the room a big muscular man who was putting on an expensive dark-blue suit and a dark hat . First I couldn't distinguish his face but after I known that he's ...

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- he fixed me with his eyes full of pride and left the room quietly . He never back to me after that day .

After that he left , Fred came :

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I don't think that I could be B.S without Nina,she was the real icon for me and every song I wrote was an inspired by her>>

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You were and you will stay forever my saviour grace Fred , you made me a star and I'm gonna never forget this but now help me please to bury my pain >>

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- finally I could persuade Fred to get me out of this mad world of celebrity and flashing lights , and I begged him to never come to me .

The poor was so sad , he had some unfallen tears in his eyes , they weren't for me but for Nina , he loved her purely but this love couldn't live for so long . I wish he could get over this .

I can not deny that I lived the best days of my life in this world of mirages , my first gala with my sister Nina , how we were excited to meet the celebrities , and my first Oscar when I met James then I fell in love with his blue eyes . And our catastrophic marriage, ha ha , I don't know if I need to cry or laugh or just forget .

I donated my net worth to some charities and I kept a little from it to buy this farm in the companion cause here no one will know me .

And according to this month that I lived here I can say that the people of this land are so kind and originals , and i started working as a farmer haha who can believe that B.S can one day be a farmer ?.

It's time to talk with you my dear secret book . It's more than five years that I own you , you were my best friend and my confident but

now when the time has changed and the hot became cold , i must close you and forget about your existence cause every time I open you , the good and the bad memories hit my head as a storm .

The only thing that I want in this life Is educate my children Sammi and Nina , yeah I found out that I am pregnant pregnant again and I decided to give her my deceased sister name .

I allocated a room in the garage where I will storage all my old life stuff including you . For the last time and before erasing Brown Sugar forever from my memory I want to write and sing " when the heart loves" .

When the heart loves your world changes , your hands get chained and everything seems to fly away and fade .

When the heart loves you can't be you anymore, something haunts your soul , your body and forbid you to talk to anybody

When the heart loves , you can make the sacrifice , pull yourself through the fire , think not about how much you're gonna get hurt

When the heart loves , when the heart loves ooh no , ooh no .

Baby , believe in love , let it take you away and everywhere , let it colour your life with the happiness , tenderness , craziness .

Oh oh oh when the heart loves , when the heart loves , oh oh oh when the heart loves (10)

Your hands get chained , you feel you can't breath and all your world seems to change

When the heart loves ,

Help me, help my little crazy heart cause I feel not alright

Oh I fell in love , I ,I fell in love

Oh oh when the heart loves your hands get chained , you feel you can't breath , and you can make the sacrifice yeah the sacrifice to protect your love

All that happens when the heart loves ....