Collecting Pieces

It was just a typical day. I went home at my new place, an apartment weathered by time. Same day, same boring life, same old me, nothing changed except for the atmosphere brought upon by my new apartment. It’s my third day here. Third day, and third year of being away from the life I should be in. Three years, yet I can't feel the FreedomPop that I supposed to feel moving away. I was about to just slump in my old and squicky sofa bed when I heard the sound of the roaring sky. Confused and lost for the sunlight would burn anything it would came in contact with earlier, before I reached my apartment. Since it was still early, I decided to take a walk and watch the nearing rain. Wearing my old denim jacket, the cold breeze and the smell of the coming rain embraced me as I open my door going out of my apartment. I don’t know what’s with my feet but it seems like it have brain of their own and brought me to the nearby meadow. The view took my breath away. It was so beautiful that it makes me wonder why I haven't noticed it before. Flowers bloom everywhere and they look so fresh and also breathtaking. But only one kind of flower draw my attention. The very same flowers in my dreams lately. The flowers I grew to fond and love eversince. Those blood red roses near the only tree in this meadow. It looks so alluring and captivating. It stands out because of its radiant and vibrant color. And again, my feet got a brain of their own.It seems like they’re also captivated by the beauty of those roses. Little by little, step by step I draw near to those flowers and noticed that I wasn't alone. A girl with chocolate brown butt-length hair wearing a white flowing dress was also there captivated by the alluring beauty of those blood red roses. I watch her intently, amazed and speechless while she's busy picking those blood red roses. Her hair and dress were blown by the wind making her looks like a goddess. I can’t clearly see her face because of her hair blocking my view. I don’t know why but something’s telling I know her dearly. I don’t know what happens, I just noticed that I'm already holding my chest as my heartbeats race, something I never felt before but seems very familiar sensation.It seems that it wants to rip out of my chest. It beats even more faster that I thought I would die as I feel her gaze towards me.To my disappointment her hair covered half of her face. But all of those disappoinments fade away as my stare feel fixed to those lips as red as the roses she's holding. I don't know but despite the distance something's telling me that it wasn't because of any lipstick. My heart starts to pound faster when an image flash through my mind. An image of me lavishing those blood red lips. I swallowed a lump from my throat trying to diverse the thought from my mind. I could still feel her stares and the sensations she had just let me feel. That feeling of emptiness I’m feeling for a long time suddenly became contentment, fullness. The dying flames inside suddenly emits a powerful spark that starts an undying fire. This is the feeling I’ve been looking for from the day I had woke up from a hospital. I can’t remember anything that time besides my nickname ‘Devs’. Love, contentment, happiness and longing are the only emotions from the abyss of emotions I'm feeling right now. “I saw you there by the tree, With a beauty, waiting for me to see. I can’t clearly see your face, But why does my heartbeats race?” I remember those lines in a poem “Dream of You” written by Carlos Bedes. Di man ito panaginip, but those lines exactly describe my situation and what I’m feeling right now. “Who are you?” a question that I wanna ask her but not even a single sound came from my lips. Rain came pouring down and I don’t care about it because I’m drown from too much emotions. It soaks my clothes and body but our attention remains to each other. From raindrops by raindrops into a full storm but I, we can't care less for we are drown in each other's presence. Until my feet’s brain get a life of their own and pushes me towards her. I’m mere inches away from her. I was about to touch and hold her when I saw her panicking. As much as I wanted to chase those fears away but the life of my feet suddenly died leaving me stuck and wanting to hold her dearly.. “They’re here Devs. Run now, please. Leave me. I’ll handle them.” she said full of fear and uncertainty. But those fear and uncertainty in her voice does not hide how beautiful her voice is that makes me want to listen to it the whole time when a lightning suddenly struck. But before I totally loose my grip to the world an image flash through my mind. An image where I’m holding a girl’s hand near a tree. A girl with chocolate butt-length hair, tantalizing grey eyes, L-shaped nose, and blood red lips. “I love you Devs and I promise not to forget.” I woke up gasping for air. Inilibot ko ang aking paningin only to find out I’m inside my apartment on my old sofa bed. I tried to process what just had happened, then it hits me. It’s just only a dream. Suddenly, what I have known to be an already broken world, shattered even more that it no power from this world could ever repair. “But it can’t” said the other side of my brain. “Right. It can’t be a dream.” I told myself. “How come she knows my name?” the only proof I have is the fast beating of my heart. “ I know it’s real. It can’t be a dream.” I keep on telling myself. I keep on insisting it on myself even the big part of me knows that it was only a dream.. Without caring about myself I run outside of my apartment. “It can’t be a dream.” I keep the thought inside my mind. I’m not wearing any shoes to cover my feet from the rough road going to my apartment. My heart is telling me to get to that meadow. But I slowed down when I reach the meadow. Grass, pure grass and no single flower is there. No flowers, no roses and there’s no one in there. And from where I am standing the remaining pieces of hope and my sanity turned into dust.It makes me believe that all that happenened was all in my dreams. I was about to go back when I saw the tree. A spark of hope lit inside. I run so hard to reach the tree hoping she’ll be in there. And for the second time of the day I assumed for nothing. She's not there. Exhausted, broken and hopeless I slump down on the tree roots. Thinking about everything. Blaming life and my fate. Blaming Him for all that happenened to me. Until suddenly I loose it. I cried. I screamed. I punched the roots of the tree not minding even it injures my knuckles. “WHAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU?!! WHY ARE YOU PUNISHING ME LIKE THIS?!! I shouted while looking at the darkening sky. "YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME ALREADY!!! BUT I DON'T GO AGAINST YOU!! BUT WHY???! WHY WOULD YOU LET ME FEEL SOMETHING YOU CAN'T EVEN GIVE?!!! “It can’t be a dream.IT CAN’T!!” I keep on insisting it on myself but the more I insist the more I believe it’s all in my dreams. It’s pitch dark when I decided to go home. Now telling myself it’s just a dream. I was about to go when I touched something from the tree. It's dark but I try to know what it was. A heart shape carving is in there with intricated designs all around it. But what caught my attention was those three words written inside it. “ Clay and Devs”. My head starts aching when I read those words. The next thing I know I’m holding my head while images flash flood my mind. I was there embracing a girl with chocolate brown hair, L-shaped nose ,grey eyes and a blood red lips in a place full of flowers. I’m leaning on a tree while she’s leaning on my chest. “I LOVE YOU CLANDESTINE KERENSA RAVENWOOD!!” I suddenly shouted and hug her tighter. “I LOVE YOU TOO CARDEVIL LOSSIER BUENAVIDES!!” She shouted too. The next thing we knew we’re both laughing so hard. I clutched my hair from too much pain. Again, I fall down to the roots of the tree. “Even they’re against us. Even time and chances seems to disapprove. I would love you with all my heart ‘til my last breath on this Earth. We’ll see each other in the next lifetime to where no one can hinder us. I would love you with all I am and I promise no one and nothing can separate us.” We both said while both our foreheads leaning on each other. The next thing I knew I’m enjoying the sweet caverns of her mouth. The pain in my head throb in an unexplainable pain that I wished to die in that moment. “Where are we going Devs?” she said smiling while I'm holding her hands because she's blindfolded. “Trust me Clay, I won't let you go.” I whospered. “Clay and Devs against the world, right? “I know that. But it's just that we've been walking for like ages and you don't even dare to carry me.” She said with a cute pout on her lips. The next thing we knew we’re both laughing. “Ready? One, two, Three. Surprise me amor!” “Wow! Did you do this?” she asked amazed and tracing every pattern with her fingers. "Of course. Don't you trust me?” I ask her with a fake hurt expression on my face. She laughs and slap my shoulder. "Of course I trust you. I won't even let you touch me if I don't." she said laughing. “This will reminds us if one of us forgets our promise together.” I said pertaining to the carvings on the tree. “ I love you Devs and I promise not to forget.” “ I love you too Clay and no matter what happen I won’t forget.” From being slumped to the ground, I stand up with tears streaming down my face. I trace the carvings on the tree with my fingers. I remember everything now, every seconds of it. “Devs, they already knew about us.” She said panic in her voice. “It’s okay Clay, we’ll fight. We can do this together. Clay and Devs against the world, right?" I said hugging her because of some kin d of feeling that I’m gonna loose her sooner or later. “No Devs, they’ll kill you.” She said getting out of my embrace.”Yeah, Clay and Dev against the world but for now let me fight for us. Let me fight for you against my family.” Sounds of cars interrupted us . “They’re here Devs. Run now, please. Leave me. I’ll handle them.” “No. You’re coming with me!” I said stubbornly pulling her towards my car. I drive so fast not caring about anything all I could think is how to escape from her family with her. “Stop the car, Cardevil!Let me handle them." she said calling me by my real name. I look at her with hurt expression. “No Clay, I won’t let them take you away from me.” I said looking intently at her. “DEVS!!!” she shouts looking in front of us. But it was too late a container van is speeding its way towards us. But before it hits us I managed to cover her then everything went black. Weak and exhausted I force myself to stand in front of the tree. I don’t know where to start collecting those broken pieces but I already made my decision. I’ll find her whatever it takes and fulfill my promise. In front of the tree where we said our vows, I'll take a vow again “I, Cardevil Lossier Buenavides will make it to forever with the girl I love the most than anything in this world. I will do anything even it costs my life just to be with Clandestine Kerensa Ravenwood.”