Foreigner Of Reality

Nicotine

With every hit I take,

I feel life flowing inside my blood,

for a few seconds,

I start to feel lightheaded

I wish it was longer.

I crave the buzz,

I crave the flavour,

I want to hate it, but I can't

I hate that I love you,

and I hate that I need you.

I inhale, I feel alive,

I exhale, I see clouds of grey.

An hour without you, I start trembling,

an hour without you, I feel cold,

angry and hopeless.

You are my biggest happiness, yet you are my biggest pain in life,

I want you to stop flowing in my thoughts and

I want you to stop bothering me every minute for a hit.

I never meant to make you a part of me,

for I was only having fun

now I cannot stop

putting you in my lungs.