LOVE MISTAKEN

What is love and when, do we finally discover, that, it is love or end up with another typical illusion or      with a great hatred. At the age of 6 or so, Aadhya , a typical hindu girl,found love in his neighbourhood . It  wasn’t something normal. Why human brain is easily droven by such unnatural things . Why we get      attached to temporary things so easily. At her age parents love Is just enough to keep you nurtured then where do we have place for someone else"s or it is a lack of parent’ love that drive us to other"s ....... Yes , it was so. Her parents residing in Posh place with Aadhya as a child were very rich but not happy. . They   used to fight a lot , unaware of this child . They didn"t care that she had been having nightmares and       wanted someone to hug her. that little girl was ripped from all the familiar things in her life, the friends    and extended family who always made sure she was taken care of, and not just a mom who only looked after her when it suited her. slowly Aadhya grew an unhealthy hate for them. The surrounding in which    she was living made her a very quiet person who did not like to talk to others or getting attached to       others . Somewhere in her mind she created a space for all such negative thoughts and energies that she couldn"t take any thing good from others. No kids were her good friend because she kept herself                    completely detached from others. She could not trust anyone, though at this age the word “TRUST" wasn"t discoverable by her. she was among the beautiful children having a sweet face with blonde hair     and big beautiful eyes that was remarkable by everyone around but sadness took away the joy and glow of her face making her very gloomy. She has entered a zone where anything had no meaning . She had   no one to talk to about these problems, so she built herself a new world, where she was safe and every     threat was easy to see and easy to fight. Days turned into months and months into years.. She was sent to a convent school where till fifth grade she had no friends. She relied on her only friends, the only in her   head, the ones who only dances for her eyes, not quite imaginary, but very much not seen by anyone      else. These friends were always with her , her name was angel. At the start of sixth grade, Aadhya came   out of her safe world just a bit. She gained a few trustworthy friends, gained distinct knowledge of her     enemies and friends, and best of all, a strange type of ability. She had sat on the sidelines and watched    how different people acted in different situations. She and angel had many silent conversations about    what someone was thinking or how they would react. It became a knack of hers. she and her friends       were always together. soon, after a few days, she found her    new friend name ,Lany , a christian girl and her elder brothe"Reg" who stayed outside the city for studies and visited his home occasionally.Their        family was very sophisticated and good living in a peaceful     environment. So, Aadhya liked to visit their home all the time either day or night. Her neighbourhood as well liked her very much. Sooner a stong     bond of friendship grew in between Lany and Aadhya .Lany was closer to her than any other friends of    her  school. Though Aadhya was a very shy and a quiet person and a kind of introvert person . She did    not communicate much but knew how to enjoy life and loved to play ,sing ,dance with her friend Lany.   Sooner, she stopped communicating with her imaginary friend Angel.   One spring season, Reg , was at his home. Aadhya along with her friend Lany went unrecognised by Reg. But Aadhya for a while glanced over him and that was enough to form a permanent image of a person whose vision was very pleasant to her . As, she went to a convent school she , never interacted with a  opposite s*x and her shy nature   was the other reason. At this age ,his one sight ,his presence was enough to make her feel good. Though never talked to each other. She never knew that whether the same feeling was from the other side. But ,  her feeling was above all that she didn’t care about anything .maybe the   reason was , she didn"t know“What is love".Aadhya was a immature child and children at her age is keep themselves busy in discovering their surroundings .At that age love showed her it has no meaning and no boundaries . And age is just a number.Her mental attachement grew with time .  She couldn’t find peace anywhere but in the vision of her love “Reg”, being unaware of her thoughts . She was having a feeling which     was magical ,uncanny,  astounding,   prodigious, surpassing and rare. though it was an immature love . Aadhya soon started recognising the    difference between the same s*x and the opposite s*x. Being in the company of same s*x was good but having a bond with the opposite s*x was more peaceful and beyond earthly joys.        Though Aadhya was buiding an imaginary love in her mind and yes there are some relationships that    have no name in real life. but, yet they are valuable to us.                  “Curiosity is often mistaken as love ,since they both have the common elements of interests and passion”.. but, Aadhya could never get a time to talk to him either, the most unfortunate part of her life. She was    with her friend Lany but her sense was completely devoted in the vision of Reg. She was blithe. Aadhya’s family was not much concerned about what was going around with her life or she was passing through what phase . The thing was she was happy and enjoying her life no matter what was the reason behind her happiness . She lacked the bond with parents which was needed for any child at her age . The parents are more                     responsible to help their child to identify their feelings that is right or wrong for them . Or guide them in every aspects . But many parents do think as if, giving  birth is their duty rest they live their children at the cost of themselves as their own responsibility to learn from their life and either make it or ruin it .  But , Aadhya at this age may not understand anything except feeling very blessed by a God . Soon , she was attached with her imaginary friend whose sound guided her with her thoughts and as,  she was in a convent school . She came to know about a supreme God “jesus” who sacrificed his life     for the well being of other human beings .  She found herself more attached to Jesus than her God shiva . besides angel she shared her thoughts    with jesus and she was very much convinient in christian premise. She loved going to the church with her friend Lany which was there in their school . Though both of them were not in the same grade but they loved to spend time together and have fun together than with their other classmates. They knew each other better than anybody else . But , Aadhya could never tell Lany about her thoughts about Reg . The very main obstacles were her shy and quiet nature .Lany was also the same , interovert kind of girl and very carefree , so, she could also never make out that what was going around with her close friend. It seem, Reg was waiting for his next session to start .so, he was on a long vacation . As, day passed this one sided attraction grew overtime.                       How often do you hear of love at first sight? Doesn’t it happen ?and what about one sided love?? where as a mature person you get the notion that it is going to hurt you at the end .So, you make efforts to stop it but what about immature     child , from where she would get the thought to stop her thoughts and feelings and her strong heart beats at the sight of him . We all search for happiness nobody likes to live with gloominess or disheartened for their whole life and the moment they find their happiness in anything they never want    to lose it . In real sense , is it love ?? or just an temporary attachement for a time being until an unless you don"t find the same happiness in   other things!!  The same might be happening with Aadhya but she was completely unaware of it . or what was                 happening with her she was just living in this moment.she was trying to find happiness for her .she was enjoying. One fine day, Aadhya boarded the     school bus for the ride to school with her friend Lany . The day was as brightful as other days for her as she was still in the thought of her silent      LOVE.On that particular day, Reg visited his school . Aadhya was playing with her classmates . The          moment Reg entered the gate ,Aadhya’s eye was on him . She thought she was dreaming . She asked   her friend to pinch her . Soon, she realised it was not her dream but in real world , it was . Aadhya moved here and there , her fellow classmates followed her and the charm on her face was recognised by every   one. Her face was blushing like a red rose . Her eyes was sparkling like a twinkling stars. She imagined as  if he has come over there for her . Unknowing the truth ,the future was holding for her she was very        happy in the present and that is called childhood , where we are Literaly , happy. As, we live in present .  Past don’t hurt us or we are not afraid of the future either. The most unfortuate part came when the      time came when Reg had to leave. After so many days of happiness she doomed into sadness . For few  days ,   she went into complete silence. She stopped going to her friends house . After few days , things were becoming normal with her .As , she was still with a childish brain and dwelling in past for a long        time wasn’t   for her. Admit it!! We all have a childhood crush. That we will never forget.