My neighbor is an Alpha Prince

miss you dad

Sometimes I love to walk alone, I love to observe people and my surroundings. Sometimes I need space to dive into my own thoughts. I'm very friendly with people but I was never able to share my true feelings with anyone. My eyes keep lingering on the chocolate cake.

" I want to buy this one" I tell the lady pointing my finger towards the cake.

" do you wanna write something over it"

" happy birthday dad"

"it's your dad's birthday, wish him good health and happiness" she tells me happily.

" thanks, I'll tell him"

I come back home.

Today is my father's birthday. I remember he was on vacation and we were enjoying our days by cooking, traveling, watching animation and playing together. I was very happy . I used to wait for his coming back. We were planning to celebrate his birthday when he got the emergency call he had to go back. I cried a lot. Being silly I locked myself in the room. I don't even meet him last time, I never knew it will be the last meeting of ours. If I knew I'll never let him go, I'll hug him tightly. Dad you promised me you'll be back very soon. Dad you broke your promises. You don't take me to the amusement park.You didn't narrate the story of the sleeping beauty. I miss you dad.

They said everything will be okk with the passing time. But dad nothing change, it still pain so much. I wasn't ready for mom's re marriage but she was only her late twenties I can't get on her happiness. But I don't know how or when distance come between us. We never talked about dad after her marriage. Uncle Jack is so considerate to me but I can't give him the place of my dad. I love my sisters Lara and Linda. They are happy family together. I tried my best to get along with them but the more I see them the more I remember the happy family I had years ago. I know mom was there, in his graveyard this morning. She called me that's why but we again couldn't talk about him. ok maybe it is better like this. Happy birthday dad. I miss you so much. I don't know how long I was crying but it's felt like my eyelids are getting heavy I don't for what sleep, tires or the pain I'm hiding inside of me. I just know I don't have any energy to change or go to the bed. I just lay on the floor of my living room and sleeping.