Our Dirty Secret

Everyone has a secret to keep but mine was secret that I should not be proud of. Who cares? Not all secrets are worthy to share, in the first place. But nah. I do have a zero tolerance of bullshits, anyway. I love it. All of it. I don't care if we get caught. All I want is just him, and every part of him. Too late, he's already engaged. And we're not supposed to be doing this because, the hell?! He's 11 years older than me. I have a circle of friends whom I trust the most. They're my best of the best, since high school. Ma. Nicole Estefan, Nyx for short. Farrad Loise Montenegro, Rad for short. And my most favorite, Nash Allen Luy. Among my friends, Nashy is the one that is so maarte, like siya pa ang mas girl sa amin. When infact he's the opposite. Nyx is the nerd in us, but not that weird girl you saw in school library, wearing long skirt with thick eyebrows and a bookwormer who's getting bullied by bitches. Maarte rin sya lalo na pag dating sa guys and she's a grammar Nazi. Next in line si Rad the very maingay and never the pala-aral among us. She only cares on her makeups and d***s. Pero wag ka, matalino ang ate gurl namin. And oops, syiempre di ako magpapatalo. I am the DYOSA of the squad. Kidding. All of us are dyosa's naman. Talent ko lang talaga maging kabet? Kasi.. basta tanga ako sa lahat. Yung umulan ng katangahan, hinug ko sila. Pero bahala na, I only do this kasi this is the only thing the he offers aside friendship and I am really into him. He keeps me sane for some reason.  We're on our 3rd year in college. 1 year to go and we'll be free. Like a bird out it's cage.  We're currently taking Bs Psychology course in the most prestigious school hometown. "Cal, you free tonight?" I am in the middle of reading my notes when my classmate in one of our minor class, approaches me. "Why?" I only know him by his face but not by his name. "There's a party tonight in my house, I am inviting everyone." I was about to decline his offer because I ain't fan with house party kasi risky, baka mamaya you'll get drugged before you even notice. And isa pa, I had plans with Aejay tonight. I am about to answer when Rad interrupt. "Yeah, she is. Kaya we're going. See you later." Ughhh this b***h, sinasadya nya talagang udyukin ang lakad ko tonight. "Yay! You promise? See you later guys." Then he sush away. "What the hell was that, Rad?!" I glare at her. "What?! Why? You've been ditching us since you met that guy." Sagot niya. "True." Nyx rolled her eyes. Even Nashy wiggled his brows for approving Rad's statement. "Arrgh! I already had plans na kasi." I cry out. "Plans with Aejay?" Nyx questioned. "Sino pa ba te? Sino ba yung tanga dito, you or si Cally?" Nash answered na parang super unbelievable na nanggaling ky Nyx yung tanong. Rad laughed. "Chill Nashy babe. We already know what's the answer to that question. And you. You're coming with us. Whether you like it or not." Rad said, pointing her fingers and arching her brows to me. Before I can defend myself, our professor had finally arrived.  We are in the middle of discussion when my phone vibrated on the top of my desk. There's a text message coming from him. Hi little C, can't make it tonight. I have to finish my plates. Deadline is near. Great. And that's my cue to come with them tonight. Guess I don't have a choice. I sighed. I face Nash after reading that text, he raised his one eyebrow. I turn my back to the two ugly ducks, they were mouthing what is the text all about. I just rolled my eyes. The bell rang. Sign for the dismissal. The three were waiting for me outside. Naiwan ako sa loob, because I have to take the call. Tumawag kasi si Aejay right after the bell. Saying sorry coz he can't make it, and he make a promise that as soon as he finished we will see each other again.