I Fell In Love With My Ex

What happened, why I am at a beach in Singapore, holding my ex-lover's hand, why do I feel happy but at the same time depressed. What happened... Intro: My name is Enzo, I'm currently 21 and studying Chemical Engineering at a certain university in Singapore. I lived in the Philippines for the majority of my years but luckily got a scholarship here in Singapore. I'm 5'6 a bit slim but not that muscular, I have a slightly lighter skin tone. This is my story It was a Friday evening on a rainy month of May, I had just finished my evening exercises and I am currently lying on my bed. I live in a dorm/apartment with a roommate who went home to his home country since the school year had just ended. I couldn't afford to go home this year because of insufficient funds, although its nothing new to me because my mom and dad don't have high paying jobs to pay for my flight every time I want to go home, personally I do also enjoy my alone time here in Singapore it almost feels like an adventure (on a budget haha). While I was lying down on my bed I got bored so I looked through my different social media accounts. As per usual f*******: is full of memes and shared posts, Twitter is full of public opinions and political insights, no new content on my favorite Youtube channels, and lastly no new memes on Reddit. After scrolling and switching apps for almost 30 minutes I saw my i********: app, normally I don't open my i********: cause as a teenager it made me felt like I was dull and boring because you would see all of these pictures and stories of your friends going out on adventures and having fun and stuff, I felt like I was plain and boring so I rarely opened it. Tonight I opened it cause I was just bored and I wanted to see what people were up to, so I scrolled a bit saw pictures of my friends enjoying, drinking etc. Then I opened my stories, it was mostly food and candid pictures until I saw a story saying "Was wondering if any of my followers are in Singapore and know a lot about it, if you are hmu." It was pretty natural to see some stories like this people going on an adventure and wanting to save on a tour guide or having less worries about getting lost stuff like that. Anyways I looked at who posted this and I was shocked. It was my ex-girlfriend from highschool. Her name was Aliyana, she used to be my girlfriend back in highschool around 8th grade. She was smol 5'1 to be exact, she was cute and she meant a lot to me. Unfortunately we had a lot of issues and fights and we were both very insecure, it was natural what would you expect from two teenagers trying to love each other like they already had made their vows. We lasted for almost 2 years and moved on with our lives. I was hesitant to chat at first, it was a mixed of fear of being rejected and fear of being unaccepted, but then again I had nothing better to do so I messaged her Me: Hi! After a few minutes Aliyana: Do you need something? Me: (damn chill!) Oh, uhm nothing I just saw your IG story. Aliyana: What about it then? Me: (damn girl I'm tryna be nice here) Oh, uhm I could help you, I'm in Singapore anyways. Aliyana: Uhm, you dont need to tag along you know, we can find someone else. Me: Oh you don't know huh. Aliyana: Know what? Me: I live in Singapore, I actually study here, and no I wasn't trying hard to tag along, I was trying to be nice :> (sent with a smirk on my face) Aliyana: Oh, okay well I'll ask my friends first. (Before I could even type) Aliyana: Bye Me: Oh, byeee Right after that I regretted what I had just done, I zoned out and I fell asleep. I quickly realized that as soon as I woke up the next day. I got up exercised a bit and ate my breakfast. While I was eating a notification just popped up which shocked me. Aliyana: My friends agreed, do you need the trip details? I was stunned, I didn't know what to feel I was shocked because she kept responding last night like I was still at fault for all the pain 6-7 years ago. But somehow I felt relieved because I had something to do this summer. To be continued... Thank you for reading, hopefully this gets support if it does I'll do the next chapter!