A Painful Departure
The words arrived like shards of a nightmare—fragmented, muffled, impossible to accept.
“We did everything we could, but…”
Ben barely heard the rest. His knees gave way, buckling under the unbearable weight of grief. He collapsed onto the cold, sterile tiles, right in front of the doctor who had just stepped out of the blindingly white room. That room had been his prison for the past hour—where he had paced back and forth, whispered prayers under his breath, and bargained with a God he wasn’t even sure was listening.
Everything had unfolded too quickly, too brutally. One moment, he was sprinting out of his house, lungs burning, heart hammering, desperate to reach the hospital before it was too late. The next, he was staring at the doctor’s lips moving, delivering a verdict that shattered his world. His tears hadn’t even had the chance to fall. His throat locked up, strangled by disbelief.
“I—I can’t lose her. Please, save my only child, Doctor!” His voice cracked, loud and trembling, echoing down the corridor. He didn’t care about the stares, the whispers, the pitying eyes of strangers. “She’s bright, she’s healthy. She can’t just leave me like this, not so soon!”
The doctor, weary yet compassionate, crouched slightly, speaking with patience. He explained the cause of death, the cruel medical facts behind the tragedy. But Ben’s ears refused to cooperate. His mind was a storm, drowning out reason. The doctor kept trying, offering fragments of understanding, but eventually, duty pulled him away. He left Ben alone, abandoned in a silence heavier than any words.
Ben couldn’t bring himself to see her body. He knew she was lying cold in another room, but he refused to face it. His heart screamed denial. This had to be a nightmare, a hallucination born from exhaustion, alcohol, and the pills he had swallowed to numb his pain. Surely he would wake up. Surely this wasn’t real.
But reality was merciless. Life had always been merciless to him.
The only way he could survive was to shut himself down. His mind dulled his senses, numbed his emotions, turned him into something mechanical—an empty shell, a robot without feeling. Only in that state could he stand before his daughter’s coffin, only in that state could he watch the red earth swallow her forever.
At the funeral, voices pierced the fragile cocoon he had built around himself.
“What a cruel fate. She wasn’t even fifteen.”
“Maybe she should never have met her father.”
“Shhh! Lower your voice, he’ll hear you.”
“So what if he hears? We’re only speaking the truth.”
Ben’s ears, which had been blocking out the world, suddenly betrayed him. The words seeped in, sharp and deliberate. The mourners weren’t whispering. They spoke loudly, as if punishing him, as if their judgment needed to be carved into his soul.
But the harshest sound wasn’t gossip. It was the raw, broken sobs of someone who had once stood beside him.
Thalia.
Her cries cut deeper than any blade. Ben instinctively reached out, his hand trembling, desperate to offer comfort, a touch, a word. But she recoiled before he could. She stepped back, her eyes blazing with fury, her body rigid with rejection.
Ben’s weary eyes, hollow from sleepless nights, grew even heavier. “Thalia, please—”
“This is all your fault, Ben!” Her scream tore through the air. She was only two years younger than him, but grief made her look decades older. She thrashed against the arms of another man who tried to hold her steady. Her finger jabbed at Ben’s face, trembling with rage. “Two days ago, Alisya was alive! I remember her smile when I dropped her off at your house. And now? Now she’s gone! How could I have been so foolish? I should have known—you were never capable of protecting her!”
Ben swallowed hard, forcing his voice to stay calm, though his insides were unraveling. “Don’t say that, Thalia. I know I failed. I know I was careless. I haven’t even begun to accept this myself. But please… don’t do this here.”
“You have no right to tell me what to do!” Her voice rose higher, shrill with anguish. The white scarf that had covered her head slipped down, hanging loosely on her shoulders. Her disheveled black hair framed a face drenched in tears. “Bring her back, Ben! Bring my daughter back!”
Ben bit down on his lip so hard it hurt, silencing himself. Any word from him would only pour fuel on the fire.
“Alisya… my poor Alisya!” Thalia’s voice cracked, trembling with despair. She beat her chest with her fists, as if punishing herself, as if trying to release the suffocating pain. “Forgive me, my child!”
“Enough, Thalia. Calm yourself,” came another voice—older, steadier. A woman in her late fifties stepped forward. Her face bore wrinkles, her mouth curved downward with sorrow, yet her attire was strikingly elegant. A black netted hat, heavy makeup, dyed chestnut hair—she looked younger than her years, though grief weighed her down.
Thalia collapsed into her mother’s arms, sobbing. “Mother… what do I do now? Alisya is gone.”
“Slowly, child. We’ll think about everything later.”
Ben watched the mother and daughter cling to each other, his heart twisting. He wanted to comfort them, to share their pain, but he felt stripped of all rights. He was no longer part of their family. He was nothing but an outsider.
When his eyes met his former mother-in-law’s, instinct forced him to bow his head. “Forgive me, Mother,” he whispered.
“You’re not my son anymore.”
“I’m truly sorry… Elina.”
It felt strange, calling her by name. She had once insisted he treat her like a peer, back before he married Thalia. But now, the word tasted bitter, awkward, heavy with regret.
Elina clicked her tongue, dismissing him, and turned to the man standing beside Thalia. Garry. Handsome, tall, immaculate. He looked like he had stepped out of a fashion magazine rather than into a funeral. His white shirt and trousers were flawless, his pale skin glowing against the somber backdrop.
“Garry, take your wife to the car. She has no business here anymore.”
“No! I want to stay with Alisya!” Thalia resisted, pushing Garry’s arms away.
“You need rest, darling. I’m afraid you’ll collapse.” His voice was gentle, soothing, almost rehearsed. He bent gracefully, wrapping his arm around her waist, guiding her with practiced tenderness.
Ben’s muscles froze. Watching Thalia in another man’s arms was torture. He hated it, yet he couldn’t look away. As mourners drifted off one by one, Ben remained rooted, absorbing every hateful glance, every silent accusation.
Before the divorce, he had imagined life without Thalia. He knew it would be hell. But reality was worse—far worse than anything he had pictured.
Her swollen, tearful eyes glared at him with pure loathing. In that moment, Ben believed he was the cruelest man alive.
“Wait, Garry. I need to be sure of something.” Thalia’s voice steadied, no longer a scream but sharp, deliberate. She removed Garry’s arm from her waist, though she held his hand tightly. Her gaze locked on Ben.
“Tell me the truth, Ben. Where were you that night? Where were you when Alisya was fighting for her life?”