MISTAKES OF MY PAST

funmi come back Here am talking to you, you are leaving my house this minute you barren woman, I can't continue to live wait for you it has been 10(ten) long years, and you can't conceive what's wrong with you,? I'm fed up with this nightmare of a marriage common miscarriage you haven't experienced let alone become pregnant, have tried a lot I have waited for enough Even God knows I tried mama is complaining. please jide am begging that was me begging my husband, Am sorry it is not my fault, you know God is the giver of children. you have tried a lot, have tried where's the love we shared? didn't we vow at the Alter that we ain't going to leave each other till death do us apart what happened to that vow ehn jide tell me. Funmi all I know is that you are leaving this house. Oh my God, what's wrong. My name is funmi Gbenga, I'm from a family consisting of my dad, mum, and me, I was a little spoilt brat, being the only child of my parent's mum And dad won't let me do any stuff. At age 16 dad bought me a car for my Birthday Present. I was excited. At age 16 I already had a boyfriend, I wrote my waec and jamb that same year I passed. through the connections of my dad, I got admitted into the prestige university of igbinedion university okada (I.O.U) I heard that school life was fun And I was ready to have fun when it gets to book Am the average girl. When I arrived at school I made a lot of friends you know being the daddy's girl I am I had numerous boyfriends, just at the age of 17 well I settled for school life. Dad asked if I should rent an apartment for myself but I declined I wanted to be with people so I decided to stay in the school hostel. Am sharing A room with 3 other girls who are so rich just like me they welcomed me wholeheartedly, their names are Jane, pearl, and sweet. I discovered that they are club girls no single day passes without them going to the clubhouse they were fun to be with one day I decide to join in their adventure. That was where my life changed. Babies guess what I'm following you guys out today, that was me telling my roomies but before then let's go shopping All bills on me I said. They were so happy we later left the house for hallmark, we shopped till we became exhausted we later went to A nearby eatery there I met this handsome dude who introduced himself to me as Tony, tony was so handsome that I fell for him, At first sight, I later discovered that his studying engineering in Ambrose Ali University (A.A.U) he later collected my number and promised to contact me later. you know being the beauty queen that I am having the right figures (?) men can't resist me. I And my roomies left the eatery to Go home. When we got home I asked them where they are heading tonight and they told me they are going to club joker I was so happy finally I got to go to a clubhouse they later dressed me up for the party (half-naked) we arrived at the club at 11:30 pm it was so crowded with people young men to be precise I promised myself that am going to have fun. I settled for a table I and my friends ordered for drinks like you know all bills on me, so Jane And sweet ordered for Ciroc we later hit the dance floor when I was so drunk I couldn't even find my friends I danced as if my life depended on it, there on the dance floor I met Michael yea that's his name he asked for my name and I told him that was all I remembered the next day I discovered I was naked I was on the bad so I shouted who brought me here a guy walked out of the bathroom there and then I knew we had s*x last night ooh I forgot the guy was Micheal he came up to me telling me how sweet I was blah blah blah we later had another round of s*x now I was conscious of what I was doing we exchanged digits and I got dressed then I left, I called my roomies to ask where they were and they asked me to meet them we later left there and drove straight to okada I came with my car. mehn I was so exhausted that when I arrived home I slept off immediately when I woke up later I discovered I missed classes, oh my goodness I exclaimed later we gisted about last night I told them about my adventure with Michael oh yes I had a one-night stand I told them. School life wasn't easy you know rushing to classes and all that but sometimes I do miss classes. I missed my parents tho m even planning to visit my parent soon. Oh my God what's this feeling am having this morning pearl please am not feeling well I feel like throwing up and am feeling feverish ah my tummy I suddenly screamed the pain was so unbearable I was rushed to the hospital there I confirmed the worst news of my life I was 3 weeks pregnant oh my gosh what will I do, Ii started sobbing my friends were consoling me. have disgraced my parents what will I do. just then the doctor walked in sweet asked if I was ready for an abortion I was really scared I told her am ready to do anything that will remove this growing fetus out of me there and then the doctor arranged for me for the operation 2 hours later everything was done I felt a little painnnn tho under my abdomen but I was given some pain relief I was later discharged in the evening my roomies treated me as if I was still a baby. una wan kill me with love I said we all laughed. sweet, Jane, pearl please will you escort me to see my parent tomorrow they All agreed to follow me. mum and dad your baby is back from school I called out, mum quickly rushed towards and embraced me while dad carried me like a baby "you can't blame him I'm the only child " dad meet my very good friends they are the best they are like the siblings I never had. dad shooked hands with my friends while mum went in to get the juice I could see the surprised look on each of their faces they were surprised at the kind of mansion I stay in. we spent 3 days at my house time came for us to believe mom and dad gave us a lot of things dad even transferred #200 thousand to my friends they were so happy mum gave us a loof foodstuff then we drove off to school mehn I'm so tired I told my friends I think I need a good bath who will bath me now I asked no one I particular I lazily stood up to take my bath. immediately I took my bath and slept off I woke up late the next morning only to perceive a good aroma sweet Na you dey cook? I asked because she knows how to cook so well, yes babe she replied, abeg I go eat plenty my belle don dey bite me I told her, na you sabi she laughed, pearl and jane came to join us at the dining table so babes where are heading today because I no fit stay this house I told them there's this new club that just opened I think we should try it out but before then let go for shopping pearl said yeah!!! we all screamed so everybody goes dressed all bills on me I screamed out. we all dressed up on our arrival at the shopping mall I noticed a guy staring at me he came to me and was saying how beautiful and sexy I am he introduced himself s jay we exchanged contact. later in the day, he called oh my, gosh jay is so funny he told me he is a singer and the only son of his parents that they were three(3) two(2) girls and that's his the second(2nd) born we talked for almost an hour before I ended the call Babes, I think I'm settling for this guy what's his name Again sweet asked ooh he's jay and he's so handsome "body go let you stay one place" jane teased?, no mind her pearl said. Ain't you guys going to the party again sweet announced. Abeg ooh we will go make we go catch fine bobo I said ?.see who was talking about settling down just now sweet said we All laughed. We All left for club joker, oh girlie see as this place fine and their men fine too we all went separate ways I just ordered for a brand of Andrey then a guy walked up to me and asked if we could dance and I conceded he's such a good dancer, he told me how he danced more than me and I said "oh really"go get yourself a chair and am going to show you how dancing feels like, I gave him a lap dance am so good at it you know?.he was shaking so I had to stand up, oh my God I'm so sorry he's d**k was up he just laughed and said I'm in trouble I asked how and he said let's go upstairs I knew where this was leading to, I was also in the mood so I concurred. Shortly after we got upstairs things started( lol) mehn it feels ao good I said what's your name I asked he told me hi's Lawson I collected his number. later I called my roomies to come to pick me up we lodged at a hotel cause we were having classes the following day I was feeling sick again oh my God what's wrong with me again I think I need to go do some tests I told sweet and asked her to tag along with me on arriving at the hospital I was asked to wait for a little while. The doctor came Around to conduct some tests on me I was later confirmed pregnant oh my God not again I can't keep this pregnancy. I slept off when I woke up my roomies were all over me. Night came but we all decided to rest I wasn't feeling well, wake up dummy head it's morning already sweet woke me up, mehn I'm so exhausted, Ahhhhhh I screamed out I was covered with my blood all over the place I was awfully frightened, pearl and jane rushed to my room they were so scared, I was rushed to the hospital the doctor said it was a minor incident we should all calm down and he gave me some pills which I drank and napped for a few hours. Woke up but I was still feeling the pain he gave me a pain relief pill. My roomies bought food for me cause I was so hungry after eating they all went home to freshen up, later when they got back we talked and laughed about a lot Of things and then jane brought up the idea " funmi I have a suggestion instead of doing abortion why don't you just shift the womb that way you won't be pregnant then when you are married you will then reposition the womb back" the rest of the girls agreed to it but I was so scared at the idea of shifting my womb but they all told me it's okay after all the doctor won't take out my womb. I later succumbed to the idea we discussed with the doctor and he agreed to it he said I needed a lot of Rest and recovery I should come back the following week I was discharged the next day. The next week came finally I was so excited and scared also tho my friends were all with me the doctor ran some tests on me and I was taken to the theatre there and then everything was done I was so happy it was successful nothing went wrong we later left to celebrate at home tho we didn't go clubbing. But babes oh it's been a month we haven't gone clubbing I missed it I told my roomies then let's go shopping girls we need some hotter clothes the ones we have are not good enough I told them but we don't have enough money sweet said, babe, na you dey talk this kind thing let's go now I will fund it you know the story they were all excited, before then let's go get food I heard there's this new Spanish eatery let's try it out we all left to have fun. Weeks turned into months and months into years I wasn't taking my studies seriously, in fact, have turned into a s*x maniac I sleep with every Tom d**k and Harry just because have tempered with my womb tho I had s*x with lecturers just to pass my exams you that saying " use what you have to get what you want" that was my slogan I was growing wild each passing of the day and I was growing older too. Hey, girls, my 20th birthday is coming up soon I want you guys to arrange and help plan towards it, I want it to be the talk of the town let's invite rich guys in town yeah baby they all screamed. I was getting set for my birthday party the best makeup artist did my makeup damn I was so pretty. Celebrant hurry up we are running late already pearl screamed, hold on babes I'm done I replied. Dad got me a Ferrari for my birthday present we zoomed off to the venue. I want this to be a memorable day I'm going to have the best of fun. I enjoyed myself lots of guys were around I hooked up with a fine guy and then we went upstairs and that was all. The party later came to an end not after I gave a vote of thanks. Two weeks later sweet was so sick she was losing weight we decided to take her to the hospital after a series of test were carried out, sweet was so devastated she cried all day she refused to eat anything nor even tell us what the results were all about. Two weeks later I received a call that shattered me completely, pearl and Jane were involved in a ghastly motor accident I was called to come to the hospital I hurriedly left leaving sweet at home. when I arrived at the hospital I asked to see the people rushed in about an hour ago the state in which I saw my friends was so horrible I screamed when I saw them, oh my God they were dead. oh my God! Oh my God!. I was crying profusely now I was asked to contact their parents which I did, their parents came in later. I left to go home to go break the bad news to sweet, she cried so bitterly when I announced we both hugged each other. I told her she shouldn't worry everything will be alright. Morning came I went to sweet room I called her, tapped her and shook her but there was no response, I was getting scared already when I checked if she was breathing no no no not this time I checked her heart it wasn't beating ooh noooooooo I screamed sweet no don't leave me, I was crying already and then I saw a note lying close to her a note for you funmi boldly written at the top I opened it and started reading with so many tears that I could barely see clearly and then I wiped it off "Funmi my dear don't cry too much, you have to move on with your life it's a nemesis that caught up with us change your ways before it's too late, you are a lucky star and I know the best man will come for you. It's too late already I drank poison I can't continue to live like this what's the point of living when I have contacted hiv/aids till we part no more". I screamed sweet you can't die waaaaake up..please I'm begging don't live me why did you hide this from me nooo please I continued crying... I traveled to see mum and dad the next day to break the news of the demise of my friends or rather sisters, mom consoled me and assured me that everything will be fine, I then told Dad that I would like to stay off-campus which he agreed to thereafter make plans and inquiry of the place I choose for myself the next day I left for school.it wasn't easy picking my stuff from the room I shared with my friends tho I left some of my belongings there have decided to live a stress-free life, no more clubbing, no more men I decide to adhere to sweet's advice, I have to study harder now to graduate with a good grade. School life isn't easy especially running to classes early in the morning. Six(6) months later I decide to go shopping it been a long since after the demise of my friends I haven't gone out my clothes are getting worn out. When I arrived at the shopping mall I caught a guy staring at me I ignored them, after shopping, I gave the cashier my credit card and she pointed at a man saying he has cleared the bills I was surprised cause nobody has ever done that for me except cause my parents. I asked the cashier to refund his money back to him and she declined. I walked up to the man. Funmi: hi mister I was told you cleared my bills Mister: it's Jide, not mister miss Fumi: and it's funmi not miss mister jide. Please that's the money you paid for my shopping I gave Mr. Jide the money but he declined and when he saw I was about to drop the money on the floor he quickly collected it. he asked for my number which I didn't give him. I drove home so exhausted and famished it had been a very long day tho I left home in the morning and it weekend no classes I just dropped the shopping bag and slept off. The next day I was going to classes when I saw jide ooh my world you school here? I asked nope I came to visit my Lil sis. alright that's good I told him Won't you give me your number please dear... He pleaded I decided to give him after all it's just a number nothing else I quickly rushed to class because I was getting late I waved him Goodbye. Gosh today's class was so horrible I said to no one In particular, how I so much missed my friends I decided to take a little nap just then my phone rang "Oh God who's this sleep spoiler' I murmured not knowing have picked up the call and it was on the loudspeaker. Sorry, jide hope I didn't disturb you he asked ooh yes Mr jide you did I was about to take a nap I had a very long day I think I need to rest. He ended the call immediately I felt so bad for talking to him rudely sleep later came when I woke up I called jide to apologize for speaking to him rudely he said he understands that's there's no problem he asked about my day which I explained to him all that happened gosh he's so funny we talked for an hour. I wish the call didn't have to end well it ended not after jide asked me if we could go on a date and I told him yes. The next day came it was a Saturday there were no classes so I was free like a bird, mum called to as how I was doing she even transferred money to my account I cleaned up and prepared breakfast, oh yes I can cook now, sweet taught me how to, later jide called he asked I should dress up his on his way already when he came he was Marveled he said I was looking so beautiful than he has ever seen. Well, I just blushed and thanked him. We drove off to a newly opened fast food so I don't know the name. I enjoyed myself he asked about me and I told him everything he needs to know excluding my past cause I don't want anything to end this relationship I'm about to build yes I'm already falling in love with jide he also told me about himself, he's so nice I felt safe around him there and then he asked if I could be his girlfriend and I said yes. Jide's call woke me up the following morning at 6 am " wake up sleepy head it's 6 am already who are you dreaming of at this time of the day don't you know it getting late he said. Oh, darling, it's too early now I said, don't you have classes today he asked. Oh, I forgot thanks for reminding me you are such a darling he told me he's preparing for work so I should stand up and go prepare for school the call ended not without telling him I love you. Our relationship blossomed each day he even introduced me to his mum, his dad is late he died when he was little jide told me, oh I'm sorry about that. Jide's mum is so funny i liked her, I helped out in the kitchen to prepare lunch. Am already rounding up with my studies Jide proposed to me and I said yes and going to marry him have decided to leave my past and focus on the future with him I'm a changed person. Oh yes, baby is now a graduate and a certified Educationist jide said I made him proud. We planned on getting married once I'm done with my youth service. He threw a party for mehn how I so much missed my friends were here with me I didn't know when I started crying jide told me it's alright that it's my day I shouldn't spoil it. I'm so lucky to have jide in my life he's so caring, loving, and romantic. I was so glad I left my past life behind and moved on all thanks to late sweet. A year later I was done with my service jide and I had already had our marriage planned out to happen the following month oh my gosh I'm so happy so very soon I will be called Mrs jide badmus oh am so lucky I started crying. The next month came I was super excited and dad came to walk me down the aisle, jide sister was my chief bridesmaid, how I so much wish sweet, Pearl and jane were alive to witness this day tears started trickling down my face. The wedding came to an end with lots of marriage gifts and money from guests, after the wedding I and life for straight to Paris for our honeymoon how I so much loved it there. *********************************** And now ten(10) years into the marriage I don't have a child sins of my past keep haunting me I wish I had known I wouldn't have tempered with my womb. My God I'm going to lose my marriage. Funmi you must leave this house I don't care whatever you have been thinking about leave my house, you barren woman. A knock came jide rushed to open the door there standing was his mother with a pregnant lady my God I exclaimed I shouldn't be what I'm thinking. Mama welcome I said, oh keep your welcome to yourself you barren woman,you see this woman here she's jide's wife as you can see she's pregnant so leave my son's house. I cried my Eyes out crying wouldn't stop it the deed has already been done. I wished I had lived A good life so this is how my marriage ended I said pulling my lauggage Anyways am going back to my parents they caused it, how I wished they had not spoilt me at a tender age.but i was adviced to stay away from bad and unholy ways. I caused this and now am going to live with the mistakes of my past. THE END.