I had eventually texted Kade with my day off for us to get coffee, which I decided should be my next day off of work. It was hard because everything in me had me close to backing out or not responding at first. I pushed through my fears of this first meeting and even afterwards it took me putting my phone away to prevent me from backing out of it. Since accepting the coffee date I had 2 days for my nerves to get worse anticipating this date, I was trying not to let this overtake me but it was hard. I kept having thoughts such as, could he be like Connor, will he end up sleeping with someone else, are all of his reassurance just words, will he break my heart in the end if I give him this chance.
I am now preparing for our coffee date, I am meeting Kade at a local coffee shop in an ho
