FINN
Dear Alex,
It’s been five months since I volunteered to conscript to the military. Five months since you said goodbye. To be honest, I don’t know which is worse. I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong, but every day I am being punished here. I’m not chanting loud enough, or I’m too slow in the showers, or I didn’t follow orders properly.
I’m not sure if I’m doing it on purpose, either. These past five months I’ve been slapped by the commander, kicked by combat boots, beaten by a helmet, or knocked out by the butt of a g*n.
I’ve never been more thankful you drew black during the lottery years ago. But don’t worry too much. My service only lasts for a year.
You see, the physical pain, it’s there. You can’t shrug it off, you can’t sleep it away. When it demands to be felt, you have no ch
