I think about it for a minute, Tyler deserves the most honest answer I can give. He’s been in love with me for years and I truly wish I wasn’t broken, I wish I could feel something for him other than the friendship I feel. He’s tried, I’ve turned him down and we go back to normal.
“He didn’t deserve anything from me, you’re right. But you do. I know how you feel and I never want to exploit that or hurt you in anyway. The whole time with Ryan I knew I’d never fall for him. He tried to make me do stuff sometimes and him Sally and Kay would make me feel like I was wrong for saying no. I care about you, not the way you want but I do, him not so much. I didn’t wanna blur the lines with us and lose our comfortable relationship. By this afternoon all I felt for Ryan was a general like, I realized when I saw Sally and Ryan, how much I’ve actually been manipulated this year.”
“All over a f*****g bet!” Tyler rages. At some point we made it to the pond by his house and sit down.”those assholes will get what’s coming to them. A lot of people are pissed. You work hard and help the community. Most of the teenagers are talking s**t but I watched Mr. Walton punch Chris in the mouth for saying something. I couldn’t hear but I saw him giving Chris an ear full. Chris, Noah, Blaine and Ryan had that bet. I didn’t know about it till I saw the feed and confronted Chris, in front of mr. Walton, possibly instigating his watching the video and punching Chris. What they did was fucked.” “Not as f****d as Janice, that b***h raised me and she’s making excuses for my OLDER sis-Sally, not sister- to do that to me. I think that’s what hurts most. She knew what was happening and said I was stronger so I’d be fine. She should have had my back.” I was broken from my mother’s reaction. “You know what she said to me last week? I told her I was having doubts about Ryan as my boyfriend and she said “ you haven’t slept with him anyway so is he really your boyfriend? Who says that to their kid?”
I look up and Tyler is staring at me, eyes wide, mouth open. “You’re joking right? I heard the s**t she was saying, it’s good you cut them off. We don’t need that s**t in our life.” He says with a smile.
“Absolutely, I really wish I felt more for you Tyler. You are truly amazing and going to make a great partner for someone.” He pulled me in and hugged me.
“I’ll always be here for you. As much as it sucked I’m glad yo were honest with me as well. I actually met someone I really like. It’s only a week in but hopefully it goes well.” We hug again and say goodbyes when he yells back “ oh yeah mamma cut off Kay’s cards for being a “spoiled b***h”. Our mamma loves you too.” I laughed at that. Kay is insanely materialistic.
I continue walking for a bit and feel like I’m being watched. I look around and don’t see anything. I noticed I’m in a more deserted part of town, headed towards the woods Lu and I chill in. I hear steps behind me and turn to see Ryan.
I’ve never seen him look so sinister. I just watch for any movement not sure what’s going to happen. “I’m sure you loved playing the victim card while everybody watched, didn’t you, you slut? Then you run to that p***y boy Tyler and cozy up to him?” He says to me, I noticed I’m shaking from fear. This isn’t the man I’ve known the last year, this one is scary. “You humiliated me saying that s**t to me, you’re going to pay and get me my money.” He finished.
I slowly start backing away looking for a way out. “Ryan I didn’t make y’all do that to me, I didn’t make Kay stream that. I was just looking for you..”
“Ya how’d you like your surprise? It was great for me. You should have seen your face. I loved watching you like that while I f****d your sister, I was so f*****g hard, you should know I love a bit of pain, physical, emotional doesn’t matter. Hurting others turns me on” he tells me slowly stalking towards me. I don’t know how I missed this. He is sick.
I need to get the f**k out of here. Nobody is around to help and I can’t take my eyes off him. I slowly reach in my pocket and send Lu a “911” message. I pray she gets it. I don’t really know what I hit. I hear a muffled low sound “Rayna? Rayna answer me!” I called her thank god and she answered. Instead of answering her I speak loud so she can hear.
“Ryan I don’t know what you want, but please leave me alone, you have taken everything, my family, my home, a year of my life, don’t you think you’ve hurt me enough?” He burst out laughing “ taken everything? Hurt you enough? You still have something I want. And I’m going to enjoy hurting you to get it.” Dread fills my body as I realize what he means. He’s going to r**e me. I take off running terrified now.
I feel hands latching onto my hair and I fall back . Ryan’s body stops the fall and I’m being dragged with my hands behind my back. I’m screaming and trying to fight but no one is around. I feel my phone fall to the ground during the struggle, and pray Lu gets here in time to save me.
Next thing, I’m on the dirty ground in an ally screaming and fighting him off. I claw and bite everywhere I can touch. He forces my mouth open and shoves three fingers in. I try to bite down but he’s got my hair in one hand and jaw in another. “You think I’m going to let you go? After what you just did.” Then he hits me.
I feel my shirt rip and my bra gets pulled down. Ryan grabs my breast so hard I scream out.
“I love that sound,do it again.” Then he grabs my n****e and pulls on it hard making me scream again.
“Please,” I sobbed, “please stop” I scream hitting him harder, I managed to bust his nose. He looked at me with such anger “you pathetic b***h, you’re going to pay for that. Then he hit me so hard my vision spun. He was kissing on my neck “ I’m gonna f**k that tight p***y raw then for your punishment I’m gonna f**k your ass hard till you pass out from the pain. Maybe I’ll use your blood for lube if you’re lucky. Pray you bleed a lot or it’s going to hurt you worse.” At some point both of our pants were gone and he was rubbing his length against me. Grinding harder and moaning, the more I fought the more he liked it. He bit my n****e and made me cry harder.
I felt him adjust to enter me, I fought with everything I had. Then he was gone. I looked around panicking and saw a man beating the s**t out of Ryan. I did what I could to cover my body with my torn cloths and curled into myself feeling dirty. A hand touched my arm and I screeched and scrambled back.
The stranger held up his hands “Relax, little lion, I just want to help.” He then pulls off his shirt and carefully puts it on me. “I’m gonna pick you up and take you to my car. I grabbed your phone and gave the woman my home address and she’s gonna meet us there.”
He sets me in the seat and buckles me up. “Can I get your name little lion?”
I don’t know why but this man feels safe. “Rayna.”
He smiles at me “Rayna, I’m Jacob. I’m a martial arts instructor and teach people self defense. I like burgers and whiskey. I’m a Leo ” He continues saying random s**t trying to take my mind off what happened.
“ that’s random” I mumble. I really look at him. The man is strong “train me? Please? I’m tired of being weak.” I ask him
His grin grows “Always, I think we will be good friends.” I had no clue he would become my savior and rock over the next five years.