Their Love

Chapter 7

Rayna POV

I walked down the stairs on shaky legs. What is happening to me today? The way Ryker, said “I look forward to the future with you warmed my body and I thought about sitting on the couch watching TV, shopping together, cooking together, and an actual future filled with comfort and happiness and lots of steamy s*x. I can imagine making dinner while he comes up behind me and grabs my throat just hard enough to push me over the counter and shove his hard length deep enough my body. I would feel him pounding into me from behind while Mr Dreamy walks in and watches me getting f****d into oblivion.

“Ms. Larsen” I’m snapped out of my day fantasies “. You will be sent all the information you need to start your new position shortly. Since you will be working closely with Mr James, I’d like to introduce myself.” I found myself being a bit jealous of this beautiful woman working closely with Ryker all day “My name is Elizabeth Jones. I’m Mr James’s assistant. I’ve been working with him for two years now. If you need anything or have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask. I may take a minute to get back to you sometimes. My husband and I are expecting our first baby and the morning sickness is horrible some mornings.” Now I feel horrible about being jealous. “I just wanted to welcome you. Mr. James can be a little blunt and intimidating at times, but I hope you can see past that and get to know the wonderful man behind all the intensity. He is truly a good boss and caring man. I have a feeling you will do amazing work under his care.” I smiled at the kind woman.

“How far along are you? Do you know what you’re having? You look stunning. I had no clue you are pregnant.” I asked, suddenly excited for her.

“ I’m 18 weeks. We decided to wait to find out the gender. My husband and I are thrilled about this blessing. I never thought I’d have kids.” She tells me with a smile. “What about you? Kids now or in the future?” She questions me.

I blush thinking about making a baby with the sexy man upstairs. “I don’t have any kids. I do have two nieces though. My life is my career right now. God, I sound like a cliché.” I laughed it off.

“I’m sure you will find someone worth your love and time. Just a few minutes speaking with you, it’s obvious you're an amazing person and anyone will be blessed to spend they’re life with such a pure soul. Anyway, you can reach out to me for anything at all. I’ll let you get on with your day. It’s wonderful to meet you ms. Larsen. I hope we can be friends in the future.” Elizabeth kindly tells me.

“Rayna, please. It was great meeting you. Have a wonderful day Elizabeth.” I said my goodbyes and walked out.

Thoughts of Ryan and my sister take over my mind and I need to release the anger and the hurt. I grab my phone and call Jacob. I met him at literally the worst moment in my life

He saved me from myself. He took all the pain and betrayal and showed me how to handle it safely. He is a jujitsu instructor and started teaching me self-defense, knife skills and sharp shooting. He helped me heal and build confidence after my asshole ex and sister broke me down without a second thought.

“Jacob, do you have time for me today? I need a rough round? It’s all coming back, and I’m a bit confused about how my days gone.” I called him, needing my best friend and a distraction from my insane reaction to two different men today. I don’t like people in my space, so it’s very confusing to want to be railed by two sexy strangers at once. Part of me wants to say f**k it and see what happens, the more rational side screaming danger.

“I’ve got two hours before my next class. You wanna talk first or you just want me to exhaust you. I got a new move I can teach you if you’re up for it.” He tells me.

I laughed “Teach me every move you know, love. I need to exhaust myself till I can’t think. Maybe we can meet up with Lu later, and I can talk it all out with the two of you.” Suddenly, I stopped and looked around, feeling like I was being watched. I didn’t see anything suspicious so I I continue to my bike.

“Ray, are you good, sweetie?” Jacob asked me .

“Ya I'm walking back home now. Home or the mats? “ I questioned.

“Something tells me this is going to be an intense session, so home works that way We can shower after. I got some more of that hot chocolate body wash you love. Lydia came over and lost her s**t from all the women essentials here. Turns out she loved it too. Once I explained, I kept it for you she calmed down and we had great makeup s*x. She didn’t realize you live with me.”

I laughed so hard thinking about his tiny girlfriend going off on him over the misunderstanding. “ I do love that body wash. You should tell me where to get it, so I can just get myself some. Hot chocolate is the best smell in the universe….. Well… I think I have a new favorite smell. Two different men turned me on today. One is my new boss. I’ll explain that after you help exhaust me.”

I hear Lydia in the background “you two have the oddest relationship I’ve ever seen. All the double meanings in your conversations have people questioning if I’m the other woman.”I hear her laugh.

“Luckily the people who matter know the truth,” I say

I’m thankful she doesn’t see me as a threat to her relationship anymore. Jacob and I are very close. We’re not sexually attracted to each other but I can see why I’m mistaken for his girlfriend. Jacob has left a lot of women because they wanted him to cut me off. When he is dating someone we do keep a bit of distance.

When he met Lydia, I loved her immediately. She’s so kind and loving and she can make him happy like I’ve never seen. I started pushing Jacob away so I didn’t interfere with that. Lydia came to me saying Jacob is blaming her for me pulling away. We sat for hours and talked after. Once she realized our friendship is just that;friendship, things got better. He should’ve told her I live there though.

I know everyone says you can’t be just friends with the opposite s*x. But that’s all we feel for each other. Loyalty love and friendship. No s****l or romantic attraction on either side. I love him like family. I trust him to put his hands on me to teach me how to defend myself. I trust him with my fears and secrets.

He one of four people I can be myself with. I know I’m weird. I’ve been curious about b**m lately. I’m still a virgin but the only thing that even begins to turn me on is the thought of trusting someone enough to be at their mercy, completely submit. Knowing you’re safe. I ask Jacob Lu and Tony questions all the time, until I’m brave enough to go through with it.

Shibari has recently caught my attention, you don’t even have to have s*x or be naked. You just trust another person to give you what it is you need without crossing boundaries. I been thinking I wanna try that. That was the conversation that caused issues with Lydia and Jacob. Thankfully she gets it now.

Jacob and Lu think that’s a good place to start. I watched a video about it and it was so beautiful and the bliss and emotions on the woman’s face without being touched gave me hope I would want someone one day. Now I have two men that prove I’m not defective I’m terrified because every is telling me I won’t come out in one piece with one and the other I’ll probably never see again.