The Rightful Alpha

Its Over

Travis

“Travis my son. You look well put for an Alpha.” Fransisco spoke in an raspy voice.

This man I stare at in this bed is not whom I thought he be. After everything he has endure the past few years. The pain, the lost, the suffering. Ever agony you can think of. He went through it. He fought it all and this is where he landed after all that. How can he still be all powerful when he lay in the clinic with death stands by. How can he be so happy with what just happen. Does he not realize what he did? Does he not know what his act has put him in? He let his f*****g ego get in the way. And now, now just look at him.

That’s what I did. I look around as I see him chatting away with people. Like this wasn’t a big thing. Like he was going to get off this bed and walk out this clinic. Like this was completely and utterly nothing.

“He is a fool.” My wolf growls at the sight.

For years as I can remember, when I needed someone just anyone to understand how I feel. Even when I’m block from my own nonsense. There was just one person who’s there to kick my ass and pull me through the threshold. My wolf Malcolm. He’s my inner voice, he’s the part of me who faces the darkness and makes it look so easy. Like blood and flames we walk through was just a small paper cut. He was the one who got me through all this s**t. Without him I wouldn’t be the man I am. I wouldn’t be able to make it through all those wars without him.

He was my better half and I couldn’t have ask the Moon Goddess a more better wolf. And now with us becoming Alpha. I’m gonna need Malcolm more than ever. I’m gonna need him to help me. I need him to remind me what we train for. I needed him to reassure me that this was real. That we can do this. Our whole life leaded up to this point. Protecting and leading our pack. Making the big decisions and making the right ones. And even then, sometimes the right decisions can lead to big predicaments.

I have to be the Alpha my pack needs me to be. I have to show I can be just as great a leader as my father was. As his father and his father before him. And maybe one day I can find my perfect Luna to stand with me through all of this. Moon Goddess will chose a powerful Luna for us. Just like our mother was.

Just the thought of having to find a mate. Scares and anxious me at the same time. I want to find her and bring her here. Worship my Luna and give her the Alpha she deserve. I think just the ideal of having her by my side soon. She’ll keep my head on straight. But until I find her. Where ever she is, I’ll have to put a proper foundation down for her to take over. I need to fix and clear a lot of stuff before bringing her to my world. There’s just so much more at stake now. I need to work on me before I find her. Before she finds us. I can’t f**k this up.

“Her wolf and I can play.” Malcolm’s tail wags back and forth at the thought of having a playmate.

“Let’s just get everything under control first. I don’t need to worry about another person right now. I don’t even want to think about it.” I scoff.

“We have urges that needs to be fulfilled. More than ever now that we are Alpha.” Standing on all four legs.

“Don’t worry about our urges, we can fulfill them while we wait.” There was no rules that says we have to be loyal and innocent until we meet. A little fun never hurt anyone.

“I want our mate.” He whines as his ears tucked in like a pup.

“Let’s get this Alpha s**t in place and then we will look for her.” I stated.

Malcolm growls at annoyance but rolls into a ball and stands down.

“Now let’s get through this God damn day!”

I put my attention back into the room. Listening how they all talked about the good old days. The good wars, the bad scars and the f***s they had in between it all. They all spoke as if this was a motherfucking laughing matter. Like this situation wasn’t gonna end in his f*****g death. This wasn’t a visit. This wasn’t a get well soon. HE WAS f*****g DYING. And all this talk around is none sense.

It bothers me so much. Why the f**k are they talking about this s**t. Why does any of this matter right now. Their former Alpha is in his death bed, and even though he looks no different than the last time they seen him. They all play along in his childish act of not dying. I know him. He is just putting on a show. Even in his state he would not put his guard down. Always has to be the Alpha even when he doesn’t need to be.

Just look at him. There’s machines and wires all attaches to him. The nurses and doctors whispering to each other. I can tell by their expression that his vitals are not well. The beeping sound of the machines rung in my ears. As I try to ignore it like the others. I can’t. My eyes follow their lips, while my ears can hear his heart beating off rhythm. Listening closely to the blood pumping his heart. Waiting to hear the off system pouring into him. The poison that put him here, slowly killing him. His blood was changing with a thickness that stabs his heart.

He was sitting there on that bed. Like is was no big deal. Like all of this was just temporary. But he is never getting out this building alive.

“He is a fool man. But God damn that bastard had his reasons. He put himself here!” Malcolm lower his growl.

“I don’t give a damn for his reasons. He had years to get over it. Could of done something better. He didn’t have to start a war after war.” I snarl back.

“He was in pain.”

“Well so was I! I cried, I mourned, I screamed, I did everything I had to do to get over it and man up!” I shouted. And my fist rolled in a ball.

“You don’t.. we don’t understand his pain.” Malcolm said.

“I stand by his side this whole time and he healed but only to look the other cheek and spread blood over and over. We lost so many people because of him.”

“Well maybe you should ask him. No more childish s**t Travis. We are not a child anymore. Can’t hid behind the thick walls. He won’t be here much longer. Just ask him and let him speak, he had a motive.” Malcolm stomp his front paw hard on ground.

It pissed my off as it does for him too. He just chose to hid his emotions. But he speaks the truth. With rage building up over this ugh welcoming gratitude party. My hands roll into a tight fist as I close my eyes and flick over to Malcolm’s control.

*A loud growl burst into the room*

Everyone stop what they were doing and looked at me. They look over and quickly change their faces. Lowering their eyes. And in a low Alpha voice I demand them all to leave.

“I will be on guard Alpha.” Mason told me before he was the last one to leave the room.

I took a step closer to father and look at his weak figure. Looking for something, I don’t know what? Just something I haven’t seen before. Something to make sense of all of this.

“Was there a reason you had my guests leave?” Father asked so calmly.

“Like it really f*****g bother him that we ended his freaking chatty get together.” Malcolm snorted loudly.

I look back at father as I take back control. Taking a deep breath without letting my rage take over. I didn’t want our last day to be another fight. I was over the who’s ego is bigger crap. There’s no time to end this with us just yelling at each other. We can be civil as father and son. Can’t we?

“Ahh I see Malcolm wasn’t pleased.” Fake chuckle at us.

“Why?” I lower my tone.

“Speak up boy! An Alpha does not mumble his words.” He cross his arms like he was still in charge and I was still this little kid who needs to please him and follow his orders.

“Why are acting like this? Don’t you see where you are at? Don’t you realize what happen?” Rosing my tone so it bounces off the wall.

“Of course I know. But this was my choice, I made my bed. And I will lay here as I pleased.” What a f*****g dumbass.

I scoff to him. “You are a fool father!”

“Watch yourself boy. I am still an Alpha and I demand you show me respect until I am dead!” He stood up from his bed as I watch his eyes flickers. Showing me his wolf follows his emotion.

“No! You are a injured warrior now! I am your Alpha! So you will show me the respect!” I yelled back at him.

He stood there silence with a frown brow. Grunting in the air. He stares me down and do just the same back at him.

Good now I have his attention.

“Ugh father, why did you allow this to happen? What the hell was going through your mind?!” I question him, demanding for questions I’ve been holding back for far too long now.

He has been chasing this plot for years. And now that he has finish what he has started. He stupidity took his life away. Leaving me to hold up loose ends and cleaning up the butchery he left on the field.

“I simply did what I needed to do. That is all.” He said like it was more simple then complex.

“Clarify your plan.” I demanded.

Rolling his eyes at me with a grunt. He was like a stubborn child with a flu. Just given me the run around with vomit coming out. “You of all wolves should know. I made a promise a long long time ago. And today I fulfilled that promise. I will not sit here and tell you I regret my acts. Cause I do not, an Alpha takes pride in what he does.”

“You are so naive father, you didn’t have to lead us to this war. The first few were hard enough. It could of all ended a long time ago.” I told him.

“No, he was not there. It wasn’t them. I had to find the man who did it. I had to make him suffer. Just like he had made me suffer all these years!”

“All this over just one man, some macho pride over another Alpha?” I asked as I try to read his face.

“No! This was over amends. I couldn’t just let him get away with it!” His eyes darken with rage. He was hurt I can tell.

“Revenge I see, it didn’t have to go like this father? It could of gone so differently.” My head nod slightly to his ego.

“So it could but it did not. Can not change anything now. So I will lay here and take the win I so rightfully deserve. I deserve a peaceful go, is that so much to f*****g ask for huh! Can I go in peace with all my amends, can I son? Tell me that?!”

I narrow my eyes at him. As I know he wasn’t really asking me but telling me. I search to see if he truly meant it all. Every thing he says.

“Was it worth the lost of all the life of our pack members? Does this satisfied your urge that you been chasing all these years? Can I tell my pack the river will run still now? Can I father huh!” I shouted as my rage started to take over.

“I did all of this because of the life that was taken away!” His eye darken still as I see him holding back a tear.

And then I realize what he was talking about. I knew why he did all this for. He was healing from his heart breaking. He wasn’t the same man when he had lost her. He didn’t even allow anyone to help with the body. I lift my chin and listen to what he had to say. Explaining to my wolf that we will finally get our answer now.

“I only blame myself for her life. I didn’t protect her like I should of.” Father’s voice lower to a soft tone.

“Father it wasn’t your fault..” He cuts me off.

“Do not pity me boy! I know what happen! I felt every ounce of pain she had felt that day. And I promise her I will end the man and those whom follow him to end all their lives. And anyone else who came in my way. He vanish after that and it took up until now for me to get my hands around his neck. I didn’t plan for this to happen but it did, and a small ounce of me is proud it did. This all end with me.” He seem happy with what he did. He was a good Alpha, he did this for her. He did this for mother.

“But does it end? How do you not know another war will start again?”

“You can never be sure another war wouldn’t happen. Because I know another may accrue but it would be another reason why.” He said as he locked eyes with me.

“What do you mean father?” I was confuse by his words.

“I will tell you when I am close to death boy.” He looks away from me.

I shook my head at him. He’s just a stubborn old man that’s all. And at his last hours. I am sick of his stubbornness. I will get answers to my questions he leaves behind.

“You know you don’t have much time left. The sword was infuse with wolfsbane, it is slowly making its way to your heart. And once it reach the chambers, your heart will stop beating and you will be dead.” I walk over to his bed and place a hand on his shoulder making him look back at me with concern.

“Good! I can be with my mate again. If that’s what this cause me, then so be it.” I see relief wash over him. That’s what he wanted out of all of this. He just wanted to be with her again. For what I would do to see her again, wake up and smell those cinnamon waffles she makes every morning for us. Just the thought of them has the scent hits my nose. With joy and love rans back fulling the emptiness that’s been buried a long time ago.

“You know she wouldn’t of want this.” Trying to let my guard down. As son and father.

“Pshh.”

“You know how much she hated these war. That’s why she alway sets up those peace agreements. She would rather make alliance then shred bodies again. She be frowning at us now.” I said.

“What you think I should of sign some tiny piece of paper with that neanderthal.” He laughed. “If he didn’t honor the first one what makes you think he would of with another.”

“We could of done something else.” Right? Other than a war to the death.

He slams his fist on the railing and I dart my eyes at him. I can see the hatred in his eyes. Nothing would of made him feel at peace unless he had his lifeless corpse in his hands.

“Life was simply not meant for that man.”

“Are you happy now?” I ask him.

“The joy I felt with his heart beating in palm while his body lay on that now burgundy grass, yes.” He let out an evil smile.

“What would mother think of all this?” I frown at him

“My dear Ana would be proud of me. Proud I took the life of her killer. I know she wouldn’t approve of the mess I left behind. But she would of knew where it all lead me to. And I would not sit here and hear you say otherwise.”

There was no way I was gonna get through to him. He had already made his peace. And I just have to accept it either way. I don’t want to stand here and hear his nonsense anymore. He did this over the lost of his mate. Nothing and no one else mattered.

“You did knew you could die, didn’t you.” I had to ask, as I’ve been trying to read his face. I assume this was in his plan. To end it all was to end his life to be with his dear Ana again. In the afterlife.

“In a way YES, I did.” Blank emotion fill his face.

I couldn’t help but strengthen my neck and all my muscle tension up at his answer. And right before I can say anything else to him. Mason mind-link me with news. “Alpha, new information came in.”

“Set the meeting room with Gamma Sarah. I be out in a few.” I replied.

“Yes Alpha.” Our mind-link cuts off as I see father staring at me with a crock smile.

“I see you are needed. Huh.” He chuckled.

“I will be back father.” Using my Alpha voice as I keep my stands up and my vein pop out my neck.

“Be gone boy. I will die until you come back. Ana can wait a few more hours.” He gestured with his hand to push me away as he goes back to laying down.

I walk away without saying anything to him. And before I can leave the room I look back and see he had closed his eyes to rest. He was just driven by revenge and love. The lost of his mate made him go mad. He had a good reason in his mind to start all those wars. Malcolm try to reassure me of my father’s method.

“Maybe so Malcolm. But where does this leave us.”