Just Say I Love You

"Amira here is your request" he gave me the vitamilk that I requested last night, I smiled and give him a hug symblosizing my thankfulness. guess I haven't drink this for at least a year now "I think I can buy a one box of banana vitamilk for you everyday so I can always feel your warmth by hugging me" and then he suddenly laugh after seeing my reaction, so silly. This tree in the middle of the park are our secret place, I mean yeah a lot of people are always here but this place is far from our home we sneak out every time we get the chance to, and since I dont have any phone, sometimes we didn't get the chance to meet sometimes I was alone there waiting for an hour until 5 at night and sometimes he is. That's our deal, even if we aren't sure we will meet under the mango tree, we will still go there at our free time until 5 "Amira Mori.... I have something to tell you" and then there he is being serious giving me chills down my spine, he really is an intimidating person "sure, what is it?" giving him an awkward smile "Don't make it hard for me to search for you....." "owwwww GOSH" I was startled by the water that suddenly splash on my face I opened my eye to check who is it and there I saw my sister standing beside my hard and non-matress bed holding a bucket and smirking while staring at me "scarlet? why did you do that?" I immediately sat and remove the excess water that left on my face "you're having your dreamest dream again, it's early in the morning hurry and make me my breakfast, make sure to finish it after I take my shower huh" I dreamed the same same dream every night again, the man, the mango tree, the park and the name that he always call me 'Amira Mori' but my name is not Amira Mori, it's Amira Shantel. WEIRD after I zoned out for like 2 minutes I immediately change my wet shirt and hurriedly walk towards our kitchen anyways this hut is just small so running inside is not on our vocabulary, the lot isn't even ours at all, I let out a heavy sigh and start on my business here in the kitchen I just thinks tha this plt the land owner can just get our a*s out anytime, lucky no one knows who owns this lot but I heard from the gossipers outside that the lot I mean this whole village owners are not here in the province I just search for what so ever in here and then I found a cup of noodles, egg and the soup from last night I pour some hot water in the cap noodles and close it immediately using the caps lid, fried the egg and heat the soup again after that I left them all at the table goes outside the house to clean all the dried leaves that falls on our front house here, the air are always fresh because of the trees and quiet, only the birds and the sound of the leaves meeting each other that you will hear here "Amira don't forget the laundry on our cr, wash them after you clean the leaves there" "yes, I will" I responded and made my move extra fast so I can take a break to eat the sandwich that I left last night and hid inside my drawer before proceeds to cleaning their laundry I'll just eat it after they left the house, I know they will not like it if I eat before doing the task they give me "Amira, don't bother to cook food until tomorrow morning, we will stay on scarlet's grandma from Thai, ok?" "umhhh, alright, but mom what about my food?" "how many times do I need to tell tyou to not call me mom?" and that one simple word made my mother mad at me again, I mean there's no time they aren't mad at me why can't they just accept me as there as family and not there maid and someone that is not blood-related "and about for your food, you can just go and visit our neighbor and ask for food, anyways you can't even give money either" "ok then, I apologize for not being able to give money, the jobs that I applied just can't accept minors, i'm just 16" "not my fault, an-" "mom I'm done for breakfast, so? you and dad will fetch me later after my class right?" "yes darling, let's go" and that, they just left without any word, they're always like that 'til now I'm still not used to it, my heart still hurt because of the same reason everyday.... by the way you already know and witnessed my everyday life, let me introduce myself to you this time my name is Amara Shantel Casaroma, I lived in a small hut together with my family here in a small town in province i'm 16 y/o and I stopped studying since... I don't know I think I haven't even studied high school. I can't pay for my studies even in public schools