LEAD ME ON

6:00 am Monday Medalina pov Waking up, my eyes went to the little clock I had on the side table. It was 6:01 am. I was one minute later than my usual time. Going towards the washroom, I got fresh up. But I don't feel fresh. I decided to do yoga today instead of running. I need calmness. Meditation didn't help much. Hopefully, the shower will. Turning on the shower………………… I went in, and after rinsing my body I came out., tucked my shirt in, took the full time to dress up as my aesthetic, checked myself in the mirror, "lord I am beautiful ", and smiled at myself. I went outside, but as soon as I put my foot outside, the realization hit me, "I don't have my car with me today " "I need to take it with Cimson" huh? Entering the office, I knew I was late and I was exhausted already. I went to my cabin and put my bag on the chair. I checked my schedule for today. Fortunately, I don't have a bunch of meetings today, but there are still a few things I need to finish today. One of them was attending a team meeting for a discussion on a new project. Checked my phone. It was 10:30 am . I still have half an hour in my hand. I was going through my emails but my mind wasn't cooperating. Last night, when I needed it the most, it was shut down, but now it can't stop messing with me. I entered the conference room, everyone was there already. I don't have to do much in this meeting, 'just sit and listen to ideas .' "Are you fine Medalina"? Enver's voice echoed through my ears. Taking my seat, I put on a pretty smile saying. "Yes as always". " Let's start everyone ", I told them. Everyone's attention went to the screen. To be honest, My mind wasn't in the right state. But, still, I know what I do ......... Amen started the project. It was going well, but I wasn't focused. I was stuck with all the thoughts coming into my mind. I was mesmerized by him again, even though I didn't want to be. I remember seeing him for the first time. The thought of being with him would never have crossed me , but within three months, we were already together...... and now we are not...I thought I had moved on, but what happened last night…….. I am giving it second thoughts to myself. Did I lie to myself? No, I didn't ....huh I snapped back, everyone was already looking at me with siren eyes well ....gosh I knew I wasn't focused but lord I didn't get, a single word. " MEETING DISMISS " Saying I went out. I knew everyone's gaze was on me. That was too rude but I can't help it. I need a coffee, a very strong one aaaahhha, I will get it later. Entering my cabin, and taking a deep breath, I fell on my chair. Just after a minute, Enver entered, with a coffee mug and a bar of chocolate " GOD I love coffee with chocolate." "Sometimes I think you can listen to my mind".I took the mug and took a sip .."WOW ITS heaven." " What's wrong with you today," he said, laughing at me. "Nothing. Well, just me and my struggles". "Did you talk to the client about the budget"? "We still need the final amount so that we can start working on it. " Let's fix the meeting for tomorrow afternoon if it is fine for you. He said; " Yeah ..... "Where is your secretary? Is she still not here? " "She is on leave for today. " "You don't have any work today. I can see you becoming very comfortable with me these days. Have you forgotten I am your senior"? I told him playfully haha haha.............. " YEAH, a senior I want to be friends with", saying this, he headed out. With all the judging features I had, I asked myself, what he meant and the next second I got the answer. " I don't know", I will see it next time. But right now, the only thing I should be doing is working. Yeah ............. Medalina pov I was working on ...... figuring out the theme for the next project. This project is an important one, but the To be honest client is irresponsible as well. 1:47 PM Medalina pov I have been working on this for almost a few hours now. On the other hand, I can feel the waves in my stomach. But my attention went to the phone. Out of nowhere, a notification popped..... it was an unknown number, but still I knew from whom it could be. As fast as light I opened it ........ "How are you feeling now ???. I am still in the thought of u " ..MY hands were shaky. I never felt like this while replying to my ex. I was in a dilemma ...what should I do next? reply him? What will be the result of it? In the middle of this, another pop-up. ". Are you still on? Remember we need to meet today? I need to return your car ..... My eyes went to the screen without even asking. I am already disappointed with them, but it's late already. I need to say something. " Thanks for thinking about me. I am good " " yeah, we need to meet today, " send me the location according to your convenience. I will be there " "see ya" Done. Yes, I am done. One more pop up "lane no 21, Sundown cafe 8:00 pm " "see you " If it was in my hands I would never have met him again but it's not ......Today I need to meet him, for the last time at least. I need my car. Yup, I was done assuring myself, but now the only place I need to go right now is the food Centre. Standing up, and fixing myself, I was ready to head out. Walking like a lady, I went out for my lunch. I got a table for myself. I ordered something I was craving ........ after 15 minutes, a bowl of rice with fish fried and a lot of side dishes were waiting for me to dig in. LOVE never came to me with an open hand but food does HAHAHA ......... I earn enough to feed myself and I am good at eating. Having a good meal is like heaven. But right now, the peace of this heaven was disturbed by the distorted thoughts of last night.............. hello........