A LETTER TO MY FIRST LOVE

A LETTER TO MY FIRST LOVE INTRODUCTION ......the shivers and quiver I had at the sight of Jason was unfathomable. When he smiles his dimples sank in on both cheeks and that captivated my heart so much so, that I almost tripped and fell in the classroom one day. .... remember the first time you fell in love with someone who loved you back twice as much? Remember the late-night calls, the evening walks you wished never had an end, the anticipated good morning texts, the random smiles at the thought of that special person during the day, the night calls that spilled into the early hours of the next day? and to top it off, you were so sure that this your “favorite person” would be the one who'd hold you close, never to let you go - only for fate to play a game of check and checkers on your feelings....... In this fictional scene, love, joy and the fate of two love birds is being documented in a letter, of which God knows who will read it. Chapter One ... where it all began.... Dear Jason, I don't usually write these letters but for you, my love, I'll make an exception. When I was 16, I realized it had been a while I had a crush on anyone” probably because I went to an all-girls school and it was also a boarding school. At this time, I had just finished secondary school, and I was awaiting admission into the tertiary institution. It was as if the universe heard my thoughts that night which brought me to the most amazing experience ever...... I needed to join a prayer group, because I was yearning for intimacy with God as I felt i needed a refill spiritually. I decided to join the teens class prayer group which held every Friday, by 5pm. Apparently, it was only 2 meetings left as the years activities were coming to an end. It was my first day at the meeting and i was late. You could imagine how everyone was looking at me coz I came in late (by late, i mean 20mins to the close of the prayer meeting) but the most important thing was that I showed up because God gave me reward that would soon become a precious gift to me. Amongst every teen pouting about praying, i saw an average in height dark skinned guy; his smile was the most beautiful thing I'd have ever seen on a guy's face; he had these sinking dimples on both sides of his cheeks. His broad chest covered by a snug green shirt and his thighs wrapped in grey sweatpants; his dress sense was perfect! This “he” was Jason. My first love. Right after the meeting, I was asked to introduce myself as a newbie that I was at that time lol. Everyone welcomed me with a handshake, when it was Jason’s turn to shake my hands, my heart quivered and I got the chills almost immediately. In his baritone voice, he uttered with a deepened smile that outlined his dimple; “Hi! My name is Jason, you're welcome!” at that moment I felt like I had gone Outerspace a million times and back in my mind! I used to hear that there's always a reward when you enter Zion but i had never experienced it before. This time, I was a living testimony of that saying. When i went back home, I kept on wishing I could relive that moment and again, the universe was at my beck and call. On Sunday, we didn't talk at all, probably because we hadn't really gotten acquainted yet...or at least that was my thought. It was another time for the prayer meeting, and this time, I was eager than ever to attend because I felt God had something and most especially someone special in store for me. the problem was, I was always late! I wasn't so late this time as I got in 15 minutes into the session. From time to time, my gaze kept on tilting to his direction, and our eyes kept meeting. Right after the meeting, it was time for a light feast to close the meeting and i was the only female there....it felt a little bit cringe but oh well...and again, Jason was the person assigned to share the snacks. When he was approaching me, i pretended like i was pressing my phone to avoid eye contact with him when it got to my turn. Immediately Jason got to my front, he stretched forth his hands with the snacks in his hand and he said “hello late comer” with a smile on his face, i didn't know when i chuckled. And with my hands shivering, i took the snacks from him and dropped it on my chair as we were all standing. It wasn't an interactive feast probably because we were all little children and it felt awkward at that moment lol. It was time for us to dismiss as the prayer meeting had finished, and just as i was about to exit, guess who reached out to me? Jason! I was beyond amazed, i was shocked! I mean this was too good to be true and hah not even been two weeks yet! You should understand, by this time, my feet where trembling or let's just say i was tripping- as he was coming towards my direction. As he walked towards me, he kept smiling and his dimples were perfectly and explicitly outlined on his cheeks. he said “Hi, I've noticed you're always in a hurry to leave. whys that? I just smiled, and then he asked me to remind him of my name, and i said “Maybel”. He smiled and suddenly, i got the tingles in my belly (at this point, i realized i had already gotten into emotion trouble...which was a good one by the way ***cries in my head *** lol). After that silently awkward but exciting moment, he asked if i was new to the church as he had never seen me before (meanwhile, I've been in the church for over 5 years and i had never seen him around especially in the teens church) no, i replied. And he said why then am i just seeing you? In my mind, i said “it's because the timing for us to be together forever is now! - that was the craziest thing I've ever said to myself honestly ***proceeds to crying in my mind, lol***. “i was always in boarding school that's why” i said, and he agreed. At this point, we i realized we had walked pass the teens class approaching the main auditorium leading to the exit. We talked a lot, smiled a lot and he even offered to help me hold my bag while i walked (i thought to myself; you're a handsome, tall and well mannered?! You're an A+ Bruh) but being the hard girl even if had already melted away on the inside, i declined (girls, right? I know). We walked a long way out of the facility, walked to the extent of reaching the place where we had to part ways, we literally pathed ways as his route was on the left while mine was on the right. It was finally time for us to say goodbye for the day and i felt like the conversation should keep going on and on but, one could only imagine, i guess. As Jason went to the left, and i to the right, walking a little distance further, i turned back to look at him and he also turned back to look at me, our eyes locked again, we both smiled, and face front to our different destinations. I chuckled, looked up to the cloud, an i said; thank you lord- even if we were still very far from being more than acquaintances....