LYNA :Regaining sanity

chapter 4

"Oh my goodness that's your mum?" "No s**t sherlock " I said as I laid in bed I sighed both in relieve and shock. I haven't seen the sober side of my mum in ages and this was surprising and completely weird to me too. I tried the hardest not to think about it because I knew that it was not gonna last and anytime soon she will be out of the door drinking with her friends and I wont see her for months so I didn't put much thoughts into it my thoughts were distracted as Elsa's phone began to ring and I knew it was her parents calling to ask her why she wasn't home yet." Yes I'm on my way I totally forgot dad yeah she's totally fine yes...oh... OK... I'm on my way then .. Bye.." With this Elsa hung up and smiled at me "looks like I have to leave I'll be here tomorrow and don't worry about the clothes I'll take care of it all you have to do is the facials okay" "but I didn't..." "I don't want to hear it bye .."she cut me off before I could even finish my sentence and before I knew it she was gone looks like I have to take a nap since I have nothing to do .

I woke up to the sound of the rain which was pouring heavily the wind wasn't helping either it was making the trees make funny sounds that kinda gave me the creeps. I slowly got out of bed so I could check the windows hoping the rain hasn't gotten I'm already but as I went round all the windows were locked and the curtains were down. Wait I didn't lock them who did? I asked my self as I kept looking around the house in awe. I suddenly heard movements which was coming from the living room and I got kinda scared because I was just there not too long.I quietly walked to the side and sighed in relieve as I saw my mum eating pop tarts. I did not know how to feel and I didn't wanna know where she got those pop tart from either. The thing that confused me the most was the fact she was still here I mean what is she still doing here I just stared blankly at her back "oh you're awake I went to the store and bought some groceries and." " mum just stop just f*****g stop please"I snapped I know I should be happy that my mum is here but I can't help it I'm just so mad that after all the things she has done to me she thinks she can just walk through that door and act everything is alright."mum you can't just keep pretending the air is clear in this house I don't want to know where you're coming from all I need to know is why you're hear acting all motherly and stuff where did you even get the money to go shopping " "OK ... I know I haven't been the best mum and I haven't been here" she sighed deeply "you have never been here since we moved"I sighed as I sat on the armrest."I'm sorry Lyna I really am but I'd really wanna make up for.." I don't know what came over me but I began to laugh "bullshit! This is pure bs mum do you even know what you're saying? Are you sure you're not stoned right now?" I said with pure disgust. She looked offended and really pained exactly how I wanted her to feel I wanted her to feel the pain I felt all the time I was punched,insulted,criticized during my fights and on the street. "How dare you talk to me like that no matter what I'm still your mother"she said as hr voice broke "as I said you were my mother bit anymore " with this I went upstairs and cried till I slept off.

My phone kept ringing and I kept ignoring it. I finally gave up and picked it "yo.. Kana you had me worried"Is she still doing here I just stared blankly at her back "oh you're awake I went to the store and bought some groceries and." " mum just stop"I snapped I know I should be happy that my mum is here but I can't help it I'm just so mad that after all the things she has done to me she thinks she can just walk through that door and act everything is alright."mum you can't just keep pretending the air is clear in this house I don't want to know where you're coming from all I need to know is why you're hear acting all motherly and stuff where did you even get the money to go shopping " "OK ... I know I haven't been the best mum and I haven't been here" she sighed deeply "you have never been here since we moved"I sighed as I sat on the armrest."I'm sorry Lyna I really am but I'd really wanna make up for.." I don't know what came over me but I began to laugh can she even hear herself right now and make up? that's just crazy "bullshit! This is pure bs mum do you even know what you're saying? Are you sure you're not stoned right now?" I said with pure disgust. She looked offended and really pained exactly how I wanted her to feel I wanted her to feel the pain I felt all the time I was punched,insulted,criticized during my fights and on the street. "How dare you talk to me like that no matter what I'm still your mother"she said as her voice broke "as I said you were my mother but anymore " with this I went upstairs and cried I didn't want to talk anymore because there's a lot of stuff I want to say her but it will only end up causing more problems and make us fight I cried in pain and I cried for me all the times I suffered and all my struggles I cried for the audacity she had to walk into my life like she has been here the whole time. I cried till I couldn't keep my eyes open any more and I slept off.

My phone began to ring and I ignored but I kept ringing I let out a,soft groan and finally picked it I didn't even check the caller Id "kana where are you and why weren't you picking up I was so damn worried Mark screamed literally"you would've called in sick you know you never miss a fight and seeing that you missed today and you didn't even call.." "Chill Mark I think I over slept and I forgot to put an alarm I swear it wasn't on purpose" I said as I looked at the time damn its 10:56 I still have time i think ."you can still make it but you have to get out of bed first" Mark teased as I got out of bed. I let out a low chuckle "yeah I'll be there in 20 " with this I hung up and began to rush to get my things together. My mum is home so looks like I have to sneak out but on second thoughts who is she to tell me what to do anyway I'm gonna use the front door. "_where are you going" she asked as I walked pass her "out " i replied as I kept walking to the door "drive safely" I heard her say as I locked the door behind me yeah as if she cares.