His Child

Chapter 14

~Jun’s pov~

I walked into y/n’s room in the hospital to find her asleep, and Namsoon in the bassinet. I was late. The meeting took forever to end, and it finally ended about half an hour ago. I went straight here afterwards, I missed her.

Now, looking at her sleeping figure, a feeling of love came over me. But i cant think this way, she's Namjoon’s. But……..they broke up, right? Ugh, this is so confusing. Why did she have to be with Namjoon of all people? I don't wanna betray him. He was such a good friend, It would be so low if went and tried to get with y/n behind his back. But I can't help it. Even though we’ve only known each other for 9 months, I feel like I'm in love with her. 

I can't change that even If I want to, and I don't want to.

I took the hospital blanket off of her, and she shivers a little, then I covered her with the blanket I had bought before the meeting. It’s warm and fluffy, and the hospital is a little cold, so its perfect for her. 

Then I looked at Namsoon, who was now awake, but he wasn't crying. I had a feeling he was gonna be a quiet baby. I picked him up, and situated him in my arms, where he was comfortable. “Hey little Namsoon, i’m your fa-, no…..I'm your dad’s friend. I’ll be here for you and your mom from now on, so If you ever need anything now, or in the future, come to me, okay? I know you have no idea of what i’m talking about, right now, but you will soon.”  I smiled at the quiet little newborn, and sat down on the couch that was in the room. 

I started to play with him, and he giggled a little now and then. I caressed his small head softly, and he yawned. He was sleepy, so I put him back in the bassinet, and he fell asleep after two minutes. 

I looked at his mother, and I sat on the bed, looking at her beautiful face, which had a couple of hairs near her eyes. I brushed the hair out of her face, and my hand lingered on her cheek. Her skin is so soft, and pale, but not to the brink of it being unhealthy. She's been inside a lot. Her lips were the perfect shade of pink, they were natural and they look so soft, it makes me want to kiss her. Her natural freckles make her skin look even more beautiful.

Her beautiful laugh, her gorgeous smile, that I barely see because she tells me that it isn't the same, smiling without him. It pisses me off, but I understand because they've been together for so long, but I want to be the reason she smiles now. That she isn't sad. 

‘I’m in love with her, and I’m happy about it.’ smiling, and looking at her, with my hand still on her cheek, I push more strands of hair out of her eyes, and she stirs some, then I saw her beautiful brown orbs, staring back at me.

“W-what are you doing?” she said in her raspy, sleepy, but soft voice. Startled, I got up from the bed, and she looked at me, confused. “T-ther was umm…….s-something in your hair..” ‘Great, nice job Jun.’ I mentaly face-palmed myself. That was a dumb excuse. 

“Oh. Well, okay. Did Namsoon wake up?” She asked. “Yeah, we played for a while, then he fell back asleep. She smiled, then looked at Namsoon. “He's a sleepy baby.” She looked at him so lovingly. 

“Yes, he is, now go back to sleep. You need rest for later, okay?, seeing as its 1:30 in the morning. ” She nodded, and then settled back down to sleep. Then I went and sat down on the couch, and undid the stupid tie, unbottoned the top 3 buttons on my shirt, and leaned back to try and sleep.  Minutes later, I eventually did.

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A couple of hours later~~

~Y/N’s POV~

I woke up to the sound of my baby crying. Sitting up with a groan, I scooted over a little to pick the tiny bundle of joy out of the bassinet. He was crying a little loudly. I see jun on the sofa, knocked out cold. I hope I dont wake him up.

Was his diaper full? No. Was he hungry? I tried feeding him, but it didn't work. Was he sleepy? No, he just woke up. Did he want to play? Not that either?! 

What did he want??? Wait…..

I heard some Moms say that chilling music would calm babies down. I turned on some baby music, but that made him cry even more! What about Mono? It calms me down, so maybe it would calm Namsoon down also?

I got my phone from the bedside table while holding Soonie in my arms, and him still crying. I really hope Jun doesn't wake up. I went to spotify, and csearched up ‘Seoul’, thank god I had premium, because I didnt want to go through all of the stupid ads. Then I clicked ‘Seoul’, and It started to play.

After a couple of Lines, it was quiet. Namsoon wasn't crying anymore. I exhaled, and smiled brightly at my beautiful son. “So you just wanted to listen to your father.” I smiled more, as the peaceful music was still playing. I pinched his chubby little cheeks lightly, and he giggled. He really giggled!

He is so precious, My world. My love, the light in my life, one of the only people keeping me alive right now. I think I started crying, because something wet landed on Soonies tiny chubby little cheek. I smiled, and wiped it off lightly. “Eom-ma isnt crying because she's sad, Namsoon-ahh, she’s crying because she's happy. Eom-ma is really happy. So don't worry about me, okay baby? I’m gonna make sure you have the best childhood a kid could possibly have. And I’m so sorry for being selfish, because of me, your father isnt right here playing with you, and its my fault. I promise you will see him one day, I will make sure of it” And I meant every single word I said. Of course Namjoon would have to see his son sooner or later, just not right now. 

“Y/n? Why are you crying? What happened, you okay?” I see jun get up from the couch with his hair standing in all different directions, him looking at me worriedly, and then sitting on the bed next to me and Namsoon. I sniffled “Oh, yeah, I’m fine.”

He cupped my cheeks with his hands, and I looked at him surprisingly. “Then why are you crying if you’re fine. What's wrong, please tell me. I don’t like to see you cry, it hurts right here when you do.” He put one of his hands on his chest, signaling that it hurts his heart when I cry. I smile. “I promise you, I’m fine. These tears right here, they’re happy tears. So don't be sad okay? Don't make that precious heart of yours hurt because of me.” I tell him, patting his hair back in place the best I can, and then putting my hand on his cheek, rubbing it softly. 

Jun is like the big brother I never had. I always wanted a big brother, someone I could rely on, and that person right now is Jun. He pulls me into a hug tightly, but leaves space for soonie. So technically he hugged my side. I put my head on his shoulder. It felt good to have someone hug me.

“I thought you were sad again. I understand what you're going through, and I know you can't help your feelings, but Please, don't get sad again, I’m here for you. You don’t have to deal with this by yourself, I’ll be right here with you. Okay?” 

Hey guys, this is the 14th chapter. Thank you so much for giving this book a chance, I dont know how to repay you all. I'm studying right now, but I realised that this chapter was late, so I'm publishing it now, I'm sorry for it being so late. Yoongi Did a birthday live Last night also, but I fell asleep in the middle because I was tired. The Live is on vlive, and you can rewatch It with subtitles, if you want. But, once again, thank you for giving this book a chance, and I'lol talk to you guys in the next update! Borahae!