jazbo ki Takrar

Hello, aap Kon bolrahe hai" "ji.. Phone aap ne kiya hai.. Bahattar hai ki aap bata de, aap koun hai" wo tanz kiya. "Haa... Wo mai Shifa bolrahi hu... Aap Mr. Muaviya hai na..? "Jii.. Farmaiye.." "Aapko maloom hai... Mein kis type ki ladki hu..?" "Achi tarha" Khara sa jawab. "Phir bhi aap..." wo use bolne se rok diya. "Haan.. Phir bhi Mein aap se shadi ke liye tayyar hu" "Par.. Mein kisi aur ko chahti hu" "Aur Mein aap ko chahta hu" "What... Kya bakwaas karrahe ho.." wo saara lihaz ek tarf dalkar, bade hi rude bolgai. Warna wo apne papa ke company ka manager samaj kar theek baat kar rahi thi, uske khayal me. Wo receiver patakh kar apne kamre (room) me chali gai. Aakhairi koshish bhi haat na aaii. Wo kuch bhi samajh ne se rahi.. Kal uska nikah hone wala tha aur use qabar aaj hui thi. Shifa daato me ungli dekar tilmila kar rahgai. Jab koi rasta haat na aaya toh be-iqtiyaar uski nigah aasmaan ki taraf uthi aur phoot phoot kar rodi. "Ae rab" wo khidki me khadi.. Doobte Suraj ke udaas manzar ko dekh rahi thi. Aakhir papa k aangan ki aakiri shaam par andhera taari hogaya tha. Na koi friends, na cousins, na koi rishtedar. Wo mummy papa se narz thi.. Ya mummy papa usse. Us din se, wo papa se toh ek Lafz bhi nahi boli thi. Kiya kisi ladke se milna itna bada jurm hota hai ki beti ko apne Ghar se hi rukhsat kar diya Jae. Wo kabhi Aisa sochi bhi na thi ki uski shadi is khadar saadgi se hogi. Woh toh sonchti thi khud dulhan banegi fahad ke pahlu me... ----- "bibi.. Aap abhi tak tayyar nahi hui… Gaav (village) se barat aagai hai" mulaazima ne aakar bataya. "kia.... Gaav... Ufff.. Isse to accha tha, papa mujhe shoot hi kardete" bura sa muh bana kar bad-badai. "Shifa utho jaldi karo" Zainab phuppi, mulaazima k saat do-Chaar badi badi tray uthaye le aayi. Jis me bridal dress, shaan dar aandaz me pack kiya huva tha. Shifa to dekh kar gung rah gai. Ek toh yeh papa k company ka manager. Dusra Gaav wale, Tisra itna kheemti aur khoob surat bridal dress, jewelry, jooti aur na Jaane kia kia, use hiraan karne par tule hue hai. Aur Na Jaane kiya kiya dekhna mere naseeb me hoga. Ahhh Use bohat ajeeb lagraha tha sab kuch. Mein kahin khawab toh nahi dekh rahi. "chalo utho bhi kiya ghoore jaarahi ho.. Yeh sab kuch tumhara hi hai, tumhe hi pahenna hai" Zainab phuppi usko baaju se pakad kar uthai aur washroom me dhakhel diya. Pure sava ghante ki mahnat k Baad jab wo tayyar hokar launge me aai toh sab khushi se take jarahe the. "kitni khubsurat hai dulhan" Chunki abhi use koi dekha nahi tha. Bas Muaaviya ki baat par sab tayyari ke Saath chale aaye. Dhire Dhire Saari chachiyo ki narazgi aur shikayate jaati rahi. "Vakhai hamare Muaaviya ki dulhan ko aisi hi honi chahiye" Shifa ka roya roya chehra gulnaar hue jaraha tha. Mummy ka dil tham sa gaya beti ko dekh kar. Ye hamari dhadkan humse pure ek hafte se naraz thi. Mummy soch rahe the aur wo tan chuki thi ki wo mummy papa se mile bina hi apne piya ke saat chali jayegi, magar wo Maa-Baap hi kia jis ke bina hum adhure hai, yateem hai, yaseer hai. Aur jis ke Maa-Baap ho unhe kaise nazar Andaaz karskte hai bhala. ---- Nikah ke Baad jab, Muaaviya ki second chachi Shifa ko mummy ke paas le aayi. Jo bed par leti thi. Jab Shifa ki nigahi uthi to kia dekhti mummy Vakhai badi kamzor lag rahi thi. Wo unhe dekh kar apna zabt kho baithi aur unke godh me sar rakh kar phoot phoot kar rodi. "Nahi.. Mera Bacha.. Nahi rote.. Hum tumhara bhala chahte hai" mummy maathe pe bikhre lato ko savarti hui uske gaal choomli. Mummy aur sab se mil kar use, lawn me le aaya gaya. Jaha mard hazrat baithe the. Red aur fawn ke contrast ke sharare me, aanchal se ubharta Juda, Red border ke haale me, jhuka hua chehra, sahaj-sahaj kar khadam badati Shifa ko dekh kar Muaaviya be-iqtiyar utha khada. Tab hi uski dulhan ka haath uske mazboot haatho me diya gaya. Nazre karam se Nazre Sanam ne Nazar milate Nazar ko dekha.. Nazar padi jab pehli Nazar pe Nazar ne nichi nazar se dekha.. Nazar me aake Nazar me rakha Nazar ne luta Narar milake.. "Sir.. Hum chalte hai ab, apni duaoun se rukhsat kijiye" Dono Sir Omer Farooq ke samne khade the. "Muaaviya bete, ye hamara jigar hai, Ise koi Takleef na ho varna Dard hume hota hai" baaya haath Muaaviya ke kandhe par aur dayan haat apne seene par rakh kar Kahne lage to aankho me aansoo bhar aaye. "Papa.. Agar aap beta kaha hai toh bete par yakeen kijiye ga" Minto me wo sir se papa ka safar tay kia. "shahbaash bete" wo uske shaane par thapak ne lage. Itne me Shifa, Muaaviya ka haath chuda kar apne papa ke sine se jaa lagi. "Papa.. mujhe muaaf karde" wo bilak bilak kar roh di. "Beta... Tum hamari jaan hai.. Tum hamari izzat hai. Dono ka khayaal rakhna" papa use nihayet hi pyaare Andaaz me nasihat karte hue, uske chehre ko haatho ke piyaale me lekar maathe par bosa liya. Shifa apne aap me nahi thi papa use shaano se pakade hue the. Jaise Muaaviya ne dekha uska bazu thaam liya. "Shifa" lekin dusre hi pal wo uske kandhe se aalagi. "kiya hova.. khizar paani laao" jab gaal thap thapaya aur paani ke boonde chid Kaya toh wo aankhe Kholdi. Udhar papa alag lagataar rote rahe the. Wo rohti rulati aakhir piya ghar chali gai. _______ "Bismillah" wo kamre me dakhil hua. "Assalamualikum" uski tarbiyat ka ek hissa tha. Wo hamesha ghar me dakhil hone ke Baad salam kia karta tha. Muaaviya ki awaz bus Gunj kar rah gai. Jawab dene wali ko koi parwa nahi thi. Yahan usko salam karaha tha par wo toh apne mast-mast roop me doobi hui thi. "bada Naaz hai apne husn per... Huuun" wo hont sakhti se bheenche jaise dil hi dil me bad-badaya. Wo bhi toh kisi se kam na tha. Shahzaad'on wali aan Baan. Shifa use aaine me dekh chuki thi jab hi wo kuch itraati hui apne chocolaty baal'o ko jhatka deti hui uski pony banai aur haat'o per lotion malti hui, koi novel lekar sofe par ja Giri. Jabke wo sherwani utaar kar washroom ki taraf bad gaya. Jab wo washroom se bahar nikla to hiraan zaroor hua. Uske haat me Nimrah ahmed ki novel dekh kar souncha. Kam se kam Nimrah ahmed ki kahaniya padne waali ladki ko itna battameez nahi hona chahiye. Wo jaan booj kar use nazar Andaaz kar rahi thi. Wo bhi khoob acchi tarha samaj raha tha mohattrama kiya chahti hai. Tauliya (towel) se chehra ragadta, wo bed ki taraf bada aur reading chair ki back par se musalla uthaya aur namaz ke liye khada ho gaya. Wo use Kan-aankhiyo se dekh kar rah gai. Wo samji thi ki apni harkat'on se use gussa dilaayegi, khoob kahengi aur tapaayengi par wo toh aisi naubat aane hi na diya. Dusri taraf itna sukoon aur taazgi thi ki wo till-mila kar rah gai. Muaaviya namaz padkar, ab sone ki tayyari karaha tha. Wo toh dusro ka sukoon barbaad karne ki chakkar me, khud ka hi sukoon gaarat kar baithe thi. Nimra ahmed ki achi Khaasi novel khole baithe thi, maze se padegi aur unhe chidayengi, Lakin wo maze se kambal odkar sone chale. "oh my goodness" Matha peet kar woh khadi hui aur dhap dhap karti bed ke pass ja ruki. "suniye" "ji... Assalamualikum" wo use nihayat tanz se mukhaatib hua. Tang Karne ki baari ab iski thi. Muaaviya kisi ko asaani se bakhashne waala kab tha. Sabaq to zaroor sikhaega. "walikumsalam" Shifa ko jawab dete banna pada warna koi Chaar nahi tha. "Haa... Ab farmaye.. Kiya chahiye" wo buri tarha tap kar rah gai Lakin wo haarne waali kab. "Mein kahan soungi" wo daant kas kar boli. "yahan.. Agar nahi toh, aage tumhari marzi" Muaaviya bed ka dusra kinara dekhakar, simply karvat lekar jaise baat hi khatm kardi. "huuu" Shifa hont aur mutthiya beench kar rah gai kamre ki light bhi off ho chuki thi aur ab kamre me dheere dheere bed lamp ki maddham si roshni phailti jarahi thi. "uff.. How rude.. Kaisi insult aur kitna ignore... Mein bhi chodungi nahi samajte kia hai akhir khud ko." shifa toh bahut kuch sunane ke liye gai thi. Lakin wo unke nigaaho ka mukhaabla nahi kar payi. Unki chamakti gahri surmai aankhen uske haseen chehre se jaise takraye thi. Wo jo apne lehje me sakhti aur Andaaz me rukha-pan le aai, dono bhi saat de na paye. Akhir wo uska sharike hayaat tha, aur zindagi ki pehli khubsurat raat. "uff" use kuch - kuch Ehsaas hone laga. "lekin" agar mere saat wo sab kuch nahi hota toh aaj ki Yeh raat kitni haseen hoti. Yeh toh bilkul waise hi hai jaise Shireen hydar ki novel ka hero hota hai. Wo Muaaviya ke chehre per ek nigah dalkar uske pehlu me chupke se lait gai. Lakin tab tak wo so chuka tha aur Yeh takhreeban saari raat karwat lete thak gai. ____________ Fajr me woh uska baaju hilaa kar rakh diya Lakin use kab hosh tha. "utho.. Namaz ka waqt horaha hai.. Namaz nind se bahattar hai" Muaaviya utha-utha kar thak gaya Lakin wo nahi uthi to light yuhi khuli chod kar masjid chala gaya. Aankho par roshni padne par woh kasmasa kar rah gai. "uff.. Kia hai" woh haat bada kar light off kardi.. _______ "Farha, yeh kitna bura nahi, k class bunk karke kahi kisi ke saat jana mujhe toh dar lag raha hai" "Yaar... Mohabbat me sab jaaez hota hai" Shifa aur Farha, wo dono saat-saat chal rahi thi, aage-aage Farha ka cousin fahad chalraha tha, jo kabhi kabhi mudkar piche dekh leta. Farha ka Yeh cousin, aur uska mangetar bhi hai. Dono hi bigdi huvi aadate, kharab fitrat ke malik the. Samne waale ko dhoka dena toh in dono ka mann-pasand khel tha. Dono ki nazar Shifa ki daulat par thi. Woh us masoom ladki ko fahad ki mohabbat ki jaal me, phansakar thodi bohat daulat hasil karne ki chakkar me bohat badi planning karrahe the, ki ghar se bhagakar usse kuch paise aur Sona (jewellery) hasil kare. "what mohabbat.. Yeh kaisi mohabbat na kabhi dil dhadka, na dunya thahar gai" woh fahed ke chichore harkate Yaad karke rah gai. Darasal nayi-nayi jawani, baheke-baheke khadam kuch afsaano aur novels ka asar tha, jo fahed aur Farha ke bichaye hua jaal me phansti gai. Fahad nakam koshish kar dala mohabbat ki adakari dikhane ki. " ufff.. Tum fahad marwaoge ek din, kiya jata hai tumhara thodi bohat mohabbat ka drama kar lene se" Shifa jhun-jhula kar rahgai. "Yaar.. Chah kar bhi nahi kar sakta hun" ____________ Waffles khane jab ek Waffle shop me baithe Waffle ka intezaar karrahe thay. Shifa Bechain thi, wo baar-baar idhar-udhar dekh leti. Tab hi uski nigah, papa ke office ke ek bande se jaa mili. "ufff... jiska dar tha wahi hua" Woh seedha aaye aur apni Gaadi me bitha kar, yahan jaa waha jaa ________ Omer Farooq sahab ko jab maloom hua, toh bohat parishaan hue. Aur tab hi, aanan-fanan ek faisal kar baithe. Apna badta budhapa, begum ki girti sahet, na koi Waris, aur ye daulat, apni ek lauti beti ka kiya hoga woh sounch kar hi jhur-jhuri lene lagte. Muaviya ko woh apna beta jaisa hi samajte. Agar unka beta hota toh zaroor Muaviya jaisa hi hota. Woh aksar sonch kar rah jaate. Lakin ek din khayaal aaya ke woh apni Shifa ke liye kitna Pyaara lagega aur Phir apni begum se discuss karke mutmaeen hogaye. Shifa ki Walida, Mumtaz begum, bhi bohat khush hui. Aur ab shayad woh waqt aachuka hai, kisi ki a Amanat lautana ka. Betiya, Maa-Baap ke paas Amanat hoti hai. Muaviya ko Sab kuch bata kar jawab talab kiya toh usne kuch waqt manga, aur woh khushi se ijazat dediye. ________ Isha ke khane k baad woh Haveli ke sahen me tahal raha tha. Ek dam Komal si ladki uske khayaal'on pe chahaane lagi. Pehli dafa, jab sir Farooq ke ghar woh use dekha tha. Tab woh gaadi se utarkar Darwaze me dakhil ho rahi thi. Jab uski nigah usse mili thi magar woh dobara palat kar nahi dekhi thi. Warna toh aksar ladkiya use palat-palat kar dekhti jahan woh sharminda hojata. Shifa ka use palat kar nahi dekhna, uski beniyaazi bohat achi lagi. Aur ye achi ladkiyon ki nishaani hai. Woh use sonchte hue apna hont daato me dabaye muskura diya. Jaha dil me abhi-abhi ek nanhi si chahat ki kali phooti thi. Rahi baat us ladke (fahad) ki toh, usne mukko'n aur laato se Saara hero pan khatm kar diya tha. Aur woh ladki (Farha) bata rahi thi ki woh uska fiance hai. Dono ku Dara dhamka kar wahan se chalta kardiya ke "aainda yahan aas-pass nazar aao, toh mujhe se bura koi nahi hoga... Baat samajh aai" ________________ Wo askh, Jo kaam naye, Bahaa kar kiya faida, Wo paisa, Jo aaqirat me kaam naye, Kamakar kiya faida.. Takhriban 10 (Das) bajrahe the, woh uth kar washroom me gus gai. Jab naha kar, bahar aai toh kuch halka phulka mahsoos karne lagi, purple color ki shirt aur jeans takhne, se upar woh bilkul bhi, kahi se bhi uski biwi nahi lag rahi thi. Jab uski aankh khuli toh woh honto par lipstick ka aakhiri touch derahi thi. Woh use dekh kar afsoos se sounchne laga. Haiii... Afoos musalmaan khud ko magribi tarikho ke Sancho me kitna dhaal gaye ki, mushkil hogaya musalmaan ko pehchanna. Hum to woh Nabi (saw) ke ummati hai, jiski ambiya (a.s) Khawaish ki thi k, woh Pyaare nabi (saw) k ummati hote. Aur hum hai ki itne Pyaare nabi (saw) ke ummati hote hue bhi, kis qadar ghaflat ki zindagi guzaar rahe hai. Hum unhi k tarikho ko apnaa rahe hai jo humare hi dushman hai. Jo hum ko mitana chahte hai (yani musalman'on ko). Aisi bhi kiya jafa, jisne hamare liye roya, jisne hamare liye tadpa, unhi ka style sunnat (tarika'in) hume aaj pasand nahi aaya. Jisme dono jaha ki kamiyabi hai. Aaya hume pasand toh yahud-o-nasara ka tarikha, jinke daato me gosht hamara hi hai. "tak tak" Darwaza baj raha tha. "saheb ji, nashta tayyar hai" "Haa, Bua, hum aate hai" isse pahle ki Shifa Darwaza ki taraf badti, bed se ek jhatke se utha, uska rasta rok lia. "kamse kam, tumhe is huliye me, is kamre se bahar bardasht nahi kar sakta, samjhi tum" "magar"... "agar magar kuch nahi" woh uski kalai sakhti se pakad kar, three door almari ke samne khada kiya aur ek onion pink color ka khoobsurat gown uske samne lehrata hua bola. "Yeh pahenlo" Bila shuba, wo bohat Pyaara aur kheemti gown tha. Phir bhi woh kab kisi ki zabardasti bardasht Karti, woh toh Sirf man-mani karna Jaanti thi. "muaaviya bhai, abhi tak aap log aaye nahi...?" uski choti chicha Zaad bahen knock karte, dhad se andar aai. "jii.. bacho hum abhi aaye, chachi se kahe.. Bus.. 15 minutes" woh jaise aaye vaise palat gai. "aur tum.." woh gurraya. Woh jaldi se use apne aad me chupaliya tha. Pahle hi chachiy'an naraz thi, na Jaane kaisi ladki se shadi karraha hai. Ab is huliye me dekh kar parishan hone wali baat thi. "sar par dupatta lo, aur abhi tum dulhan ho, Sharma ne ki zarurat hai tumhe.. mein tab tak fresh ho kar aata hu" saaf Matlab tha ke tab tak bahar mat jaye. Uski aankhon ke kor bheeg gaye. "na Jaane, papa kis mulla'on ki family me phansa diya mujhe" Uska ajab raub tha ki us jaisi ziddi ladki par asar kar jaata tha. Jab k uska dil net k work ki hui laambi aasteeno me atak kar rahgaya. Washroom se wapas aakar use dekh kar chup na rahsaka "mashallah bohat pyaari lag rahi ho" naraz si muh phulaye woh baithi thi. Tareef per uski narazgi u khatam hui jaise gubbare se hawa nikal gai ho. "chale" woh ek adaa se jhuka aur uska haat narmi se apne haato me liye muskura diya. "uff.. Ek minute Mein ek cheez bhool raha hu... Pata nai ye kis khism ki rasam hai.. 'Muh dikhaayi'. Khair apne bado’n ko bhi khush karde te hai" daadi maa ne use jaate waqt dibiya uski Jeb me dalte hue jataya tha ke woh apni dulhan ko pahnaye. Woh almari se makhmali dibiya nikalta, saat saat bol bhi raha tha. "Lakin raat ko tumhari uoont pe taang harkato ne bhoola diya" woh uski shahadat waali ungli me pahnata hua muskuradiya. Jaise hi dono ki nigahi mili toh, Shifa k dil ko kuch kuch hone laga. Woh uske is Andaaz per dil hi dil me jhoom uthi aur uske saat saat khadam milakar chalti hui, fakhr aur khushi mahsoos kar rahi thi. Na Jaane kio.. Nashte ke saat hi sab ko gaau ki Haveli rawana hona tha, kiun ki wahan daadi maa badi behchani aur besabri se intezaar kar rahi thi. Kiu k valima Haveli me Tay paya tha. Shahar se bhi bohat logo ne aana tha, yaani dulhan waale. Sab kuch bohat hi khoobsurat andaaz me intezam kiya gaya tha. Dulha, badami rang ki sherwani aur dulhan, pista rang k havey bridal gown me malboos, bahot khoobsurat lag rahe thay. Daadi maa se dua e wasool karrahe the ki Muaviya ki bar-bar nazar Shifa ki janib uthti, Shifa bechani se pahlu badalti, uski nazar Muaviya se jaa mili, jaise Muaviya ko isi lamhe ka intezaar tha, jaise hi nigah mili, badi khoobsurti se woh bayi aankh daba kar apni chahat ka pighaam pahunchaya gaya toh Shifa ke dil ki dhadkan tez tez bajne lagi. "uff tauba" woh sahem kar usse nigah na milane ki kasam khaali. Yeh dil kitna ajab hai.. Hum tumhe sahi se jaante nahi.. Lakin tere nigah'on me rehna hai.. Tere aankhon me... Apna aakhs dekhna... Ab Yeh dil ki khawaish hai.. ____________ Raat ke khane ke Baad, Shifa lounge me, sofe per laptop liye movies ke shorts dekh rahi thi. Tab hi achanak Muaviya wahan aa dhamka. Ghabra kar woh fauran screen ko bheench li aur Phir sawalia nazro se use dekhne lagi. Woh phone par baat karte hue, usehi dekh raha tha. Phir phone band karke usse mukhaatib hua. "uth kar Chai banao" woh jaise uske uttne ka intezaar karraha tha. Uske khayaal me bade hi maharat se use dekhte hi dekhte clip close kar chuki thi Lakin history se remove nahi kar Pai. Chehre par gussa sa phail gaya tha. Pau patakhti hui woh kitchen ki taraf chaldi, Muaviya use gahri nazar se dekhta hua, laptop k samne aa baitha. "inhe kiya, newspaper bhi padna hoto, aakar screen ka dedar karte hai, huuunn" wo hont ko gol kare, chidane k Andaaz me karti Chai bana rahi thi. Udhar woh dekh chuka tha clip close karte hue, tab hi woh history khol kar dekha, toh dekhta rah gaya. Asal me Shifa ka ghara'na isse bohat mukhtalif tha. Abhi na Jaane kiya kiya dekhti rahti aur delete karti rahti woh afsoos se sounch raha tha. Dar asal uski paidaish gaau ke zimaindar aur deendar ghara'ne me hui thi. Aur parvarish, shariyat ke ehkaam pe chalne ke mutabiq hui.jabke shifa ka Gharana isse muqtalif. Jab ke Shifa use Chai dekar apne kamre me aayi. Uske haat pau Phool rahe the. "yakeenan wo history open kare honga... Meri bhi aqal Mari gai... Youtube par jo dekh liya.. Incognito pe dekhleti.. Umm.. Mr. Ka ajab raub hota hai Dara k rakh diya hai mujhe" Woh Bad-badati dono haat apas me gundti bed par aa baithi. Itne me uski nazar bed ki side table par padi, toh khushi se uchal padi Wahan is mah ka risala rakha hua tha. Saari boriyat, Saari narazgiya bhoolakar Woh novel utha li. Woh ulat palat kar dekh hi rahi thi k, itne me Woh andar dakhil hue. "sakht thaka hua hun.. Light off Karo.. Mujhe nind arahi hai" Shifa jo aade tirche leti pure bed par khabza jamae hui thi. Woh jhun-jhulahat ka shikaar hua. Rukhsaar'on par bikharte un sharir lato'n ko Woh kaan ke peeche thosti uski nazar Muaviya par tahar gai. Woh jo grey kurta aur black trousers pahne, aankho me nind ka qumar liye Woh use bohat accha laga. "agar acchi tarah ghur kar dekh liya hoto... Plz light band karo" range haato use pakad kar apna rukh pher kar bed ki taraf badta hua apni muskurahat chupa gaya. Woh satpata kar rah gai. "jitne acche lag rahe the... Ab utne hi bure lag rahe.. Na Jaane kiya samjh hua hai khud ko... Huuunn" Woh pau patakhti, light off karti kamre se jaa chuki thi. Aur Muaviya apne baalo me ungliya pherta muskura diya. "dil toh tumhari khawaish kar raha hai Yaar" Woh aankhen mund kar sone ki koshish karta raha tha. Woh lounge me baithi baithi, itni novel pad chuki thi. Ke achanak use ehsaas hua, raat bahot hogai aur har taraf sannata phaila hua tha Dar aur khauf se Woh fauran bedroom ki taraf lapki wahan panch (5) se che (6) khadam dalti ki kisi se buri tarha takrai aur cheeq padi. "Shifa kiya hua" woh use khaandho se thaam liya "aa..aap" cheeq aur khouf se uski Awaaz kaamp rahi thi. Be-iqtiyaar woh usko khud se laga liya. Woh jo washroom ke liye utha tha jab hi idhar Shifa lounge se kamre me aane se andhere ka andaza na hua. Aur ab idhar Muaviya ki nind ud gai. "ab tak jaag rahi ho" woh khud se alag hue puchne laga "jee, woh Mein lounge me pad rahi thi" woh us par ek nigah daal kar boli. "accha.. Ab jaao.. Sone k liye Mein paani laata hu tumhare liye" _______________ Lafz bayan nahi kar sakte, Ishare se baat nahi kar sakte, Ye zindagi, Itni taang hai, Khol kar jee nahi sakte.. Din bhar ki intiha thakan ke saat jab woh ghar me dakhil hua. Toh sar ghoom kar rah gaya. Asar aur maghrib ke darmiyan ka waqt, dunya ka har kaam bura lagta hai, bus Allah Ka ziker hi us waqt bahaar la sakta. Aaise me, woh koi behuda gaana unchi awaaz me lagaye saare ghar ko manhusiyat me dhooba rakha tha. Aur maze se baithe, kabhi dry fruits aur kabhi chips se barabar Insaaf kar rahi thi. "Shifa, kiya ho raha hai Yeh" woh itna zor se cheekha ki gaane ki Awaaz lehra kar band ho gai. "Yeh sab.. Sirf tumhare liye bardasht karta hun" woh qaher bhare Andaaz me phunkara. "aur Mein aap ko bardasht karne ye sab kuch karti hun. Aap kiya sajte hai ki Mai use bhool jaunngi..?" aakhir Shifa kab baaz aane wali thi. "what" muaviya hiraan hote, bhaave bhinche, aage bad kar apna mazboot haat utha kar uske gaal par jad diya. Woh dhaad se sofe par ja Giri. "khabar daar jo meri hoti hui kisi gair mard ka Naam apne Zubaan se liya to." Muaviya usko baju se thaam kar apne barabar khada kiya. Aur uske Surkh padte chahre par jhuk aaya. "maine Aise hi.. Jo chode diya tha tumhe.." Shifa Dard se karah bhi na saki ki woh is zor se uska pau apne pau se masal diya. "tumhe kaise Ehsaas hoke Mai Tumhara shauhar hu" dusre hi lamhe baya haat, uski Kamar par phailaye, Daye haat se uske khoobsurat baal mutthi me jakd kar us par Pura jhuk aaya tha. Woh apne khaboo me kaha thi, uske sakht baajuo me jakad kar rah gai thi. Woh uske itne kareeb tha ki uske saanso ki garmii se, uske gaal dahek rahe thay. Aur jab Surkh honto ki baari aayi toh woh Takleef se palke bheech li. Jab ke muaviya k gusse se naak ki na-thne phad-phada rahe the. Saara ang jal raha tha jagah-jagah uske sakhti se pakadne par zakham sa horaha tha. Us par uska sitam bhara lams use puri tarha aziyat me chod gaya. Honto se alag khoon ris raha tha. Woh use nidhaal sa chodkar apne kamre ki taraf badgaya. Woh sidha aaya aur bed par dher hogaya. Jabke use washroom jana tha. Sar Dard se phat raha tha. Maathe ko unglion se dabane ki nakaam koshish kar dala. Chai ki badi shiddat se talab ho rahi thi. Shayad Bua apne ghar chali gai thi. Ab toh Woh Shifa ki haat ki Chai pine ka aadi hogaya tha. Woh chahta tha ki uske Saare kaam Shifa kare. Lakin ab..... Ufff. Use Yaad aaya use kia hogaya tha. Woh kiu is tarha kiya tha uske Saath. Shayad koi bhi mard, kabhi apni biwi ko, koi bhi mard ko pasand karta nahi bardasht kar sakta chahe kitna bhi aala zarf ka malik ho. Muaviya tadap kar rah gaya. "Shifa.. Shayad mein ab tumhe shiddat se chahne laga hu.. Isiliye u kar baitha... Aur kiu na chahu.. Kio na karu... Ab tum meri ho... Meri biwi ho.. You are mine.. And just mine.." Woh uth kar fresh hua aur Gaadi ki chabiya liye, ghar se nikal gaya. Woh raat ko uske aane se pahle hi apna takiya aur kambal le gai thi. Jab bohat raat hogai toh Woh uska intezaar karta raha lekin mohattrama aayi hi nahi. Majbooran Muaviya ko uthna pada. Lounge, kitchen, sitting room, Phir side room me dekha toh itminan hua, Woh kambal taan kar, aaram se sorahi thi. Kamre me aakar Woh idhar se udhar chakkar kaat raha tha. Dil chah raha tha use godh me utha kar le aau aur apne bed par Sula lu. Uske bagair kamra kaat raha tha. Shifa ki do cheezo ne Muaviya ko impress kiya tha.Ek uski bhooli surat chahe Woh kitni hi gusse me hoti ya zid me hoti ya badtamizi karti ho, par chehre par masoomiyat zaroor hoti jis par Muaviya fida tha. Aur ek chahe kitni bhi naraz ho, Woh raat ko uske pahlu me hoti, lakin aaj... Aaj Woh kitni naraz thi. usne hont sakhti se bhinche, Woh bed par lat gaya.