What the eyes can't see

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia And forget about the stupid little things ? I'm watching the rain pouring in the road. It's calming and serene. It makes my mind go at peace. Some people is busy dodging the raindrops and some is happily watching it, so am I. Summer is now over and rainy season is my favorite season every year. Rain can make people appreciate home. That even how much rain poured you'll eventually come home. "How can you go home?" I automatically smiled upon hearing his voice from behind. He is probably here because he can't go home too. "Where's your umbrella?" I asked not turning to face him. "I ran away from dinner" This is not new to me, he always avoid dinner whenever his parents is inviting him. He hates everything about his parents and no one knows that except me. "I'm sick with their words" He sadly said. I turned and hold his hand. I sincerely smile to let him know I'm here. "I did my best Jus, and its not enough to make them proud. Mom is pressuring me to graduate with flying colors. She wanted me to become a great doctor like her." he said with an teary eye. "How can I make you feel better?" I softly said. He is always vocal when it comes to his hardship. Everyone around him achieved the greatest achievements in the world. He is bound to be one of the greatest. Maybe that's why I'm his only bestfriend. No one can be deserving to be his friend as for his mother. Only me. "Your mom wants the best for you. But if that is not what you want then tell her. No one can explain your side unless it's you." He has a very strict mom. Failure is no room for their family. Failure means no future for them. It's toxic. But we can't choose our family. If we only could. " Do you want me to give a comforting advice or a real one? " He shifted his weight and look at me intently. His eyes is dead serious and I can see the loneliness in it. He is wearing the hoodie I gave him last Christmas. "I hate the competition in the house everytime we're having our weekend dinner. I hate it even more whenever they're comparing me to you." His parents thinks that I'm a good example for him. That I achieve everything that I want. They want him to be just like me. Doing everything to please others. " Fool. You always listen to them and take it to your heart. That's why you can't do what you want because you think what others might say." I saw how the tears suddenly falls from his left eye. I can't understand why he is crying. Why now? Why now when the rain is heavy and sad. Why is he showing me this side of him. Why he is crying when in fact he can follow his dream. The only thing he needs is courage to disobey his parents to do what he really loves to. Why cry when in fact his problem is only himself. I smiled and hug him tightly. He is sobbing so hard. I can feel the pain of his cry and I don't know why. I don't know why he have to cry like this in the middle of cold night with this heavy rain. My heart is beating loudly. Tob is sad, and I'm nervous I might break him too. He is touching my hair and hugging me so tight. "Shh. That's okay, Tob. Everything will be alright." I whispered. "You really forgot me Jus." He painfully said. "Huh?" "You met me in this spot 2 years ago. This is the exact senario of that day. You, meeting me in the middle of heavy rain. Sad and lonely. Telling you how much I hate my family. You giving me comforting smile. How can yo forgot me all this years Jus? How can you not tell me you were there in my wedding day? I'm not your Tob. I'm your Lover. Please. Remember me. " My head aches and my eyes become blurry. And everything went black.