The Luna's Love (Book 2)

Chapter Four

“Just try not to be angry.” I spoke softly so as not to disrupt the storm beneath his gaze.

“Try not to be angry? She told a human girl what we are! She put all our lives at risk!”

“I am aware, but she did it because she felt like it was the right thing to do. All we can do now is damage control and trust in her gut.”

“You see what you’ve done?! You should have never let her see this girl!” Dylan’s voice boomed, I could nearly feel the walls shake.

“No! You do not get to blame me for this, I was encouraging her to spend time with her friends and open up! I did not tell her to tell anyone what we were. Maybe things will turn out okay, I told Austin when we were only a couple years older than she is and look at us now. Let’s just calm down and think about what we can do to help the situation.” I tried to take his hand in mine but he moved before I could and glared daggers in my directions.

“You encouraged her to be with the humans! And Blake, not everyone is like you. Not everyone gets knocked up at fifteen by their magical soulmate.” The way he spit his words out made my heart constrict.

He was angry, I understood that because I was angry too but I was not taking shots at him or blaming anyone in the situation. She is thirteen, she is going to mess up. That didn’t make it okay but that made it normal.

    I took a second to compose myself because my yelling would only escalate the situation further and I didn’t want to wake up the babies or Allyssa. 

“I encouraged her to go to a human school instead of a werewolf one. I encouraged her to learn about the world and explore who she is. I encouraged her to love full heartedly and without regret. I encouraged her to be her own damn person just like I will encourage Rose one day and when I encouraged these things you were holding my hand and agreeing with every word I said.” I was trying to keep a level head but the more he spoke, the angrier I got.

“Blake, you were pregnant with twins when you said these things! I would have agreed with you if you had said the ground was f*****g purple! I didn’t think you would continue to spew this nonsense to her!”

“How is telling her that she is her own person nonsense? I’m trying to teach her that it is okay to be who she is!”

“She is thirteen, she doesn’t know who she is!” I rolled my eyes heavily at his statement. I had no idea where his mind was but it wasn’t here.

“She will never know until she tries things that help her find out! Why are you blaming me? What has gotten into your head that you think you can talk down to me? We are equals in this, don’t you dare forget that. When you decide you want to rejoin the land of the people who aren’t assholes then let me know, until then I will be sleeping in the guest room next to the kids.”

I watched his expression morphe into so many different emotions at once that I couldn’t decipher a single one as I grabbed my clothes and walked to the room between

Allyssa and the twins. I took several deep breaths as I paced the room, trying to calm myself from the negative high I just experienced. Luckily the twins were heavy sleepers and had a sound machine to block out any noise that they might not have slept through. I eventually changed into my pajamas and spent a while sitting on the bed, mulling over the conversation.

    I don’t know what had changed in his mind recently that made him think it was okay to act like this toward me. Taking shots at me and talking down to me, that had never been his thing. As I relished in the silence I heard soft cries coming from the room next to me but it wasn’t the babies. I stood up from the spare bed and walked next door to Allyssa’s room before softly knocking on her door. I heard shuffling then silence. I almost thought she was going to pretend to be asleep but just as I was about to walk away I heard her weak voice.

“Come in.” She tried to shout but it was so quiet I almost didn’t hear it.

Once I opened the door my heart broke at the sight in front of me. Ally’s usually well-kept brown hair looked like a disheveled mess surrounding her face, her deep brown eyes were rimmed red with previously shed tears while more came to the surface. Her button nose looked like she had been rubbing furiously at it. She looked like a mess.

“Sweet girl,” I smiled sadly, walking toward her bed. “What’s wrong?”

She let me envelope her in a tight hug as I wrapped my frame around hers on her full size mattress. I heard her sniffle and felt her tears start to fall again as she buried her head into the nape of my neck.

“He-he hates me.” She sniffled, sobs stifling her words.

“Who does?”

“Dylan. I heard you guys fighting, you kept sticking up for me and he hates me. I’m sorry I made him mad at you.” 

I felt my heart shatter beneath my chest at her words. She was blaming herself for her older brother's wrong words. 

“He doesn’t hate you, he could never hate you. If you heard us talking then you also heard him say how much he loves you and that he loves you no matter what. He has just never been in the situation to care for a teenage girl so he doesn’t know what he is doing and he’s frustrated. I promise you, if there is anyone he is angry at, it isn’t you.” I pet her hair as I spoke softly but assertively. I needed her to realize that she hadn’t done anything wrong. For the most part.

“He’s angry at you.” She whispered.

“Ally, when you become parents you have certain responsibilities and beliefs. Some beliefs don’t coincide with others and so we get frustrated with each other, but we always come together and work it out once we have both cooled down. But the one thing that doesn’t change is that we love you more than anything.”

“I wish you were my mom.”

I sat in silence at her words. I didn’t know how to respond. Before Dylan became Alpha I had so much respect for his parents but I didn’t know what was going on behind closed doors and now I am in a situation that I shouldn’t be in because her mom didn’t want her enough. 

“Your mom loves you. She just doesn’t know how to show it.”

She snorted at my words, neither of us believed them. 

“I wish you were my mom.” 

She repeated once more, not sufficed with my original response so I said what I wanted the first time.

“Me too.”

I woke up with more pain in my back than I had felt in a long time. I looked over and realized I had fallen asleep holding Allyssa. She looked at peace when she was asleep but I could still see her tear stained cheeks from crying most of the night. I glanced at the clock on her nightstand that read five am. Babies will be up in an hour.

I didn’t want to go to my room and wake up Dylan, it was too early to deal with him, so I made my way out of the bed gently and toward the spare room. My heart leapt from my chest at the sleeping body in the guest bed before I recognized the face of my mate who stirred under my gaze.

“Why are you in here and not our room?” I spoke with an emotionless tone of voice.

I watched him stretch his body and sit up, letting his curly brown hair fall into his eyes before speaking.

“I couldn’t sleep in our bed without you. I came in here to talk to you but you weren’t here so I assumed you went to Austin’s.” His voice was tired but I didn’t miss the way he spit Austin’s name out.

They were good friends most of the time but the jealousy was still there with him.

“I can’t just get up and go to his house when I’m angry Dylan, I have children to take care of. I was in Allysa’s room.” I rolled my eyes at his words and ignored his presence as I walked to the bathroom. 

I let my clothes fall to the floor as I stepped into the freezing shower, feeling the water beat away the tension that had overcome my muscles. 

“Can we talk?” I heard my mate's voice through the streams.

“I’m trying to shower.” 

“I know. I mean when you’re done.” 

I let him wait in silence as I contemplated my answer but I knew I couldn’t just ignore him.

“Okay.” Was the only word that I let leave my lips but it seemed to be enough for him.

I heard him leave the bathroom so I could shower in peace. I finished the rest of my morning routine before exiting the bathroom and finding him sitting on the bed, now fully awake.

“Let’s talk.” I spoke softly, taking a seat beside him.

“I know the way I have been acting toward you is unacceptable. We are equals and I haven’t been treating you as one and I’m sorry. I don’t know how to handle parenting her and I know that I have Dani but Dani is in her life with Zach, they are just starting out and I don’t want to make them have to go faster than they want. We have kids so it’s easier for us, in a way, to take care of her. I have been asking a lot out of you with that and not returning any gratitude for all that you do and it isn’t okay. You are basically her mother and you are making the decisions a mom would make, I just feel left out of them.” 

He looked down at his hands after his explanation and I couldn’t help but reach over and wrap my arms around him.

“I’m proud of you for telling me how you feel, I know that that has been hard for you lately. I know you’re frustrated and that anger is building, I know I’ve made some decisions without you. I feel like everytime I have an idea of how to take care of a situation with her, you blow up at me and make me feel small. I don’t want to feel small, Dylan.” 

I saw the pain in his eyes as he realized how he had been making me feel and it hurt me too.

“I don’t want you to feel small, ever.” 

We sat there in silence as we embraced each other. This was the first real conversation we had had over the matter and it felt like a breakthrough. 

“I want to be involved in her life, B. I want to meet her girlfriend and make her feel like she can come to me when she needs someone instead of running away because she is scared of my anger. I don’t want Rose to watch me act like this toward someone so important in our lives.” He whispered into the nape of my neck.

“Then, when she wakes up maybe we can take her and her girlfriend to breakfast, as a family. Neither of us will make decisions without the other and if an idea is brought up neither of us will immediately shoot it down. We are a team, so we should act like one.” I pulled away and placed a gentle kiss on his lips that he returned with a grin.

“How did I get so lucky to be mated with the most gorgeous, smart, and understanding woman alive?” 

“Maybe the moon goddess was just feeling generous that day.” 

We both laughed at my snarky remark and as if on cue, we could hear the babies wake up and babble to each other. We did a quick rock paper scissors and I won so Dylan sighed dramatically before smirking and going to get our kids up and ready for the day. I looked at my phone to see it was half past six already so I decided to wake Allyssa up early and see what she thought of breakfast. 

How about breakfast here? I mean if she already knows, then might as well introduce her to the family. I could practically see Dylan’s devious smirk in my mind as he linked me right before I was about to go to Ally’s door.

You are devious, mr. I chastised playfully.

I softly opened the door and went to her nightstand to flick on the dim lamp.

“Ally cat, it’s time to get up. We have a big day.” I rubbed her shoulder as she slowly opened her tired eyes. “I know we went to bed late but I think waking up early is going to be worth it today.”

“It’s never worth it.” She grunted.

“Not even to see your girlfriend?”

She immediately perked up for that, sitting up so fast she had to shake the dizziness out of her head.

“Is Emily free this morning?” 

“Yes! Why?” She was grinning so wide, it made my heart smile.

“Well, if she can be ready in thirty minutes then while Dylan is making breakfast we will go get her. Does that sound good?”

Allyssa was practically bouncing in her bed at this point before a frown stole her happiness.

“Dylan is cooking? Blake, he is going to poison her!”

Before I could respond Dylan took his chance to yell from the hallway.

“I am a fantastic cook, thank you very much! She is lucky to eat my artistry!”

Neither of us could help the laughter that fell out so heavily we both nearly fell over. Our laughter died down when Ally picked up her phone to text her girlfriend and make sure she was free for us to come steal away for the day. We let the silence envelope us like security and comfort while waiting for the reply. After texting back and forth and telling Emily we were fixing to leave Allyssa looked at me and spoke.

“Thank you, B. For everything.”