Chapter 11 [ Hearing the Devastating Truth ]
Zachary's POV
Nasa climax na ng intense moment of my Dad and his ex girlfriend nang biglang may tumunog. We're all startled with what happened. It's such an awkward scene. The three of us caught off guard, nobody knows what to do next.
Ipinahamak ako ng eskandaloso kong telepono. Kaya ngayon, kaharap ko ang tatay ko.
Umalis kaagad ang babaeng kanyang gustong kaniig. Nahiya malamang sa pangyayari kanina. Yeah, she should be!
Kapwa na sila may sariling pamilya pero nasaksihan ko sila sa ganoong tagpo. Hindi man gusto iyon ni Mrs. Richards pero bakit pa siya pumunta rito? Para pag bintangan ang Dad ko? Sadyang namimiss niya lang? Either of the two, dapat hindi na siya nagpunta rito.
Paano na lang kung matyempuhan sila ng mga paparazzi at showbiz columnists na walang magawa sa buhay kundi mag hanap ng chismis?
Hays...
Now, I'm alone with Dad. It seems, there's no indication of remorse or at least embarrassment for what he did earlier. Is it no big deal for him? I caught him kissing a married woman!
I think as a son, I deserve an apology or at least an explanation. Mom would be greatly hurt for his obvious infidelity if she'll find out.
I know she loves that woman so much pero hindi ko akalain na hanggang ngayon pa rin ay hindi siya maka move on. Ganon ba siya na in love sa nanay ni Chari at mas pinili n'yang umakto ng gano'n.
"What's that?" I asked while clashing his emotionless stares. I'm asking about what happened earlier.
"Anong 'what's that?' " He casually replied. " Ano nga palang ginagawa mo rito?"
"Does it matter anymore? I think mas mahalaga pa yung ipapaliwanag mo kaysa sa pinunta ko rito."
" You heard it all. Kailangan pa ba ipaliwanag? You're old enough to understand things out by yourself."
Whoah! I can't believe how heartless he could be. Or does he really sees me as nothing so he thinks I have no rights to meddle with his life?
Since I was a child, I used to admire him. How proud I was that I am his son. I strive harder each day to live up to his expectations so I could be like him. That's how much I adore him. Kaya kahit hindi ko maramdaman ang kanyang pagmamahal bilang isang ama, malayo man ang agwat ng pagpapahalaga n'ya sa amin ni Cassidy, I'm still resilient about it.
Maybe if I surpass his accomplishments, he will be proud of me pero dahil sa nakita ko kanina, I was really disappointed with him.
"Heard it all? Marami pa akong hindi naririnig Dad, and we both know what I'm talking about! Nandito na rin lang tayo, Ibubuhos ko na ang sama ng loob ko! Dahil ba sa babae na yun kaya tingin mo sa akin ay basura? Dahil ba sa akin kaya kayo nagkatuluyan ni Mom at hindi ng babaeng iyon? Dahil sa babaeng yun kaya miserable ang buhay ko! "
Finally, his indifferent eyes came to life after hearing me bursting out.
" Are you ready to know the truth?"
Bigla akong kinabahan. Handa na nga ba ako? Ano bang kailangan kong malaman?
"Tinanggap kita kahit hindi ka akin. I let you use the name I most coveted."
Did I hear him say ' Hindi ka akin' ? A tear suddenly fell from my eye. Hindi ko nagawang pigilan.
" I am Cruszi by blood yet I lived twenty one years of my life like an orphan. Kinailangan ko pa munang patunayan ang sarili ko sa Daddy ko bago n'ya ako kinilala, twenty one years n'yang pinagdamot sa akin ang apelyidong Cruszi. That woman a while ago, was my fiancee and got impregnated by other man three weeks before the wedding. I experienced near-death due to car accident. Now, I'm living with the family that's not built with love but by bitter fate. I was obliged because it was pre-destined by our clans. Now, whose life's been more miserable? "
My Dad's been cold ever since. I already knew his past but hearing it from him directly is really different; it is sad and thrilling at the same time.
And now, I've known mine in the most surprising and dejected way. Partly regretful kung bakit ko pa nalaman na hindi niya talaga ako totoong anak.
My whole life was a lie. I was never a Cruszi. None of a single drop of blood ng pagiging Cruszi ang meron ako, I was only a Cruszi by name.
Pero mas maigi na rin siguro na nalaman ko. At least, now I know, why he hates me. That explains it all.
Tears running down my eyes. I cannot control it. The apathetic look whenever he sees me somehow turned to empathy, at least that's what I believe.
"So what would I call you now, Sir Cruszi?" I said it after clearing my throat. I had the hardest time to ask it.
"Dad." He uttered without any emotions, like as always.
Dad...
Tanggap n6ya na ba ako bilang isang tunay na anak? That somehow made me the happiest son on earth. I mean bastard. A bitter-sweet truth.
"May magagawa pa ba ako?" He said before he left.
Wow. Binawi niya agad ang mababaw kong kasiyahan. He doesn't hate me. He despises me.