Love Me

2

Love is free, and it's easy to say that you're loved by that person. It's easy to say but it's hard to

prove, it's hard to stand.

The truth is that it's hard to know if that love is real, if it's real or if you're at the right time. But

all I knew is I am about to free what is stopping me now, that I already know myself, that I am

ready to open a new page in my life, ready to open a new door, to let in someone who I know can

love me again

I hugged the jar of Draven's ashes, I said goodbye to Navi, he agreed to include Draven's ashes in

his family's mausoleum, currently placing the ashes of Draven's mother next to Navi's father, I

stood and watched they do that.

I want to step forward, nothing is going to happen to me, if I keep complaining about someone

who can't come back, it's not like I'm going to open my heart, I'll forget Draven.

I'm ready to correct my mistakes, and Draven will never be lost from my heart and mind, but this

is the chance that my family will be formed forever, that Pietho will be with his real father.

I also don't want Pietho to grow up without knowing the truth, I don't want the opportunity for

my son to pass, so he will know the truth as soon as possible. This is also my dream since then,

the whole family, to be with Pietho's real father.

I caressed the jar and smiled bitterly, handed the jar to the man and put it in, I smiled before they

finally opened it, I waited for them to finish and to leave me alone in Navi's family museum.

I took Draven's picture and hugged it, I went up to the second floor and went to the balcony, it

was cold and shady outside, I remembered the time when we were together and Draven and I

were happy.

"I won't forget you, but if I lock myself in sadness and pain, I won't be able to move forward for

myself." I caressed Draven's photo and wiped away my tears.

"I will still respect you, I will wait for time to pass before I completely enter into a relationship,

but I hope Draven, you will be happy with what I will wake up to decide." I sat on the floor and

lit a cigarette.

"Because this is the chance to build my family, that Pietho will finally know the truth, which he

deserves to know, but I'm not taking away your fatherhood from him." I closed my eyes and took

a deep breath, the weight in my chest was actually still there.

I'm really the only one who thinks that everything will be easy, this is not the last time I will see

Draven, but after this I will focus on myself, so that my life can be organized and relaxed without

bringing pain. resentful of the world.

"But because, this is the right time to build my family, which if I miss everything will be wasted,

so I hope you won't be angry with me, and still watch over me, because I will never lose my love

for yo, and for the many things you've done for me, I owe you a lot." I opened my eyes and

caressed Draven's photo again.

"I hope I can get rid of the pain, because the pain in the chest, that every day I ask why I always

get this result." I blew out the smoke and watched the cars leave the cemetery.

"Thank you so much for everything," I said and wiped my tears. "Thank you because from then

until now, you have always understood me, and now. I will make the long-term plan, I will

choose to be happy and no matter what they say, I will not let them make decisions for my life." I

stood up and took Draven's photo, the car stopped in front of the museum and Navi got out,

wearing long sleeves, waving to me when she saw me on the balcony.

I went down and put Draven's picture there, Navi went inside and walked with me. "Brother, I

will take care of Kourtney and your son, I will take care of them, rest well there and I will do my

best to be a better person, for them." Navi looked at me now, my chest started to tighten and I

buried my face in Navi's chest.

His manly scent is so addictive, I can't help but to sniff his smell until it was gone, "And please

guide us, support us in our decisions and in the things that you know will improve us , thank you

for helping Kourtney at the time when I couldn't do anything either." I quickly looked at Navi

and she was looking at Draven now, at Draven's picture.

"I'm so sorry, for being immature and hard headed, but now. I will listen and think carefully."

Navi tightened her hold on my shoulder and smiled again. "Because I love Kourtney so much,

and I can't bear to lose her this time." My tears are constantly falling now, I'm trying to hide my

face.

I can't believe that I'm going to hear this from Navi, I feel like she's my bad girl, because I left

her, and now it's like the thickness of my face has returned to her. Back when someone could tell

that he had arrived, I felt guilty that I let Navi go. If only I hadn't left him.

What could we be, how happy we are now, maybe we have many children, I can't help but regret.

Because so much was wasted in five years.

"Kourtney is my home and my everything."

...

I got up from my bed with a smile on my face, stretched and looked around the room, clean and

tidy. It's still dark outside, and as usual, I will wake up early, to serve Navi who is going to work.

I walked to the window, opened it before I took the towel, to take a shower and get ready for

myself.

I showered for a while, did the routine and the clothes I was wearing were fine, then I will use

that uniform, when I have to tease someone, especially if Nila is there.

I left the room, took my phone and cigarette, turned on the light and went straight to the kitchen.

The smile on my lips grew even bigger when I saw a bouquet of flowers on the counter, I

approached and read the letter there.

"Good morning beautiful, have a nice day and make sure that you will never forget to take care

of your self, love Navier." I smelled the flower and hugged it, I looked around the whole chin.

Navi wasn't there, so I just put the flower down.

I wear the apron and start preparing some food, I fried the rice that was left over, and spread the

rice, so that Navi could have some rice to buy.

I chopped the garlic and fried the rice, put butter, eggs and salt on the rice. The fried rice was

placed in a bowl and lined up on the counter.

The frozen foods were softened and it took a while to clean the chin, sweep the entire first floor

and mop. I'm into this kind of work, it's not work for me anymore. It makes me feel like this is

my daily routine, I used to do it too, as a homebody.

After I cleaned everything, I went back to the kitchen, cooked breakfast, prepared my baked

brownies that I was going to send to Navi.

I took out what I was frying, covered the plate with paper tissue and then turned my full attention

to mixing the brownies.

When I was done I put it in the bag and set the oven on, took off my apron and washed my

hands. I went up and gently knocked on Navi's room, there was no answer so I opened it. He is

still sleeping until now, the master of the face and the depth of Navi's sleep. He is tired yesterday,

it was almost dawn when he finished his work so I felt sorry for him.

I came to the bed and sat next to Navi, he is half naked and sleeping peacefully, I caressed his

hair, it is quite long and needs to be cut.

I continued to caress Navi, she slowly opened her eyes and smiled at me, a big smile appeared on

Navi's lips and she kissed my hand. "Good morning, baby." He placed my hand on his cheeks

and act like a little kid now, I laughed and squeezed his cheek.

"Wake up, the breakfast is ready." I used one of my hands to caress and Navi slowly got up,

leaned on the headboard and pulled me, I lay on his chest and I completely lay on his bed. "I

want to stay like this, I'm too lazy to join the company," he said and I just giggled at what he

said.

"Maybe I should bring you to my office, so I don't get bored and I can be motivated, right?" He

looked at my face and I caressed his hand. "Stop it, you have a meeting early and I baked

something for you, take it to the office." I walked away and stood still.

"I will prepare your attire, just take a bath now, okay?" He pouts his lips and lifelessly enters the

bathroom. I went downstairs for a moment to remove the brownies from the oven, let them rest

and went back upstairs.

When I came back, Navi wasn't there, so I went into the walk in closet and took the clothes she

would wear, what I am doing now makes me feel like I am his wife.

I can't lose the smile on my lips. This kind of feeling, I wished before when I was very sad. I

hope I can experience this kind of happiness again, so now I feel like I'm on a cloud, that it's

coming true, that being with Navi is within my reach again. It's funny that until now, even five

years ago, I never left Navi's heart and mind.

Navi and I feel the same way, and whatever is in store for the two of us now, I will gladly accept

it. I am content with what happiness we have now, I don't want to wish too much for us.

I caressed the attire and the watch and shoes that Navi will wear, the door opened. His body is

wet. The water is dripping down to his body, showing how sexy he is now. His wet hair, he

gently caressed it and walked to my direction. I can't breathe what I see. His body is too sexy to

handle.

I quickly turned around and ran to the door. "I will wait outside," I stammered and walked out,

ignoring his laughter now. I don't know but all I know is he is teasing me again.

I sat on the bed, noticing the change in the frame. It's my picture now, I lifted it and there was the

painting he bought from me, the light house. My heart is fluttering on what I am seeing. He

never failed to make me feel this way.

The door opened, Navi came out who was wearing long sleeves, she was holding her shoes and

sat next to me. "Can you help me with my neck tie?" He asked and I nodded. "We can do it

downstairs, you need to eat." He nodded and put on his shoes, my smile grew even bigger,

because he was wearing the watch I gave him before.

"You really love this watch." I pointed to the watch and he smiled at me, a jaw dropping smile,

seeing that smile would make my panties drop.

"Of course, I love who gave this to me." He winked at me and stood up, he took something out

of his pocket and it was a necklace. He asked me to stand up and we faced each other in the

mirror.

"This is a simple gift for the woman who owns my heart, please take care of this. Like how I take

care of you, and your heart." After saying that, Navi left behind me, finished putting the necklace

on me, caressed the pendant and smiled at me.

"As what I expect, everything is up to you." I hugged him tight and buried my face to his chest,

this is one of my favorite things that I always do with Navi. For me, hugs are better than kisses.

That hug is the purest way to show love and affection, for me. "Let's go down, I might not be

able to leave the house if we're here." Navi joked and wrapped his hands on my waist, we went

down together and then he let go of me when we got down and reached the dining area.

I brought the food to the table, the coffee and sat next to him, we ate together and he was happily

talking about the company and the investors who are approaching the company today.

I am happy to listen, because he shares his satisfaction and achievement that is achieved today.

"You know what baby, I want to have a dinner date with you, after I settle everything, a small

celebration for both of us." Navi held my hand and I smiled, I couldn't hide the thrill and the

overflowing joy now.

"I love that idea, tell me when and if you need my help to finish and not get dumped. I am more

than willing to help you." I bit my tongue after I said that, he laughed and stood up, because he

finished eating.

I approached Navi, adjusted the button and his necktie. I felt his gaze on my face, watching me

adjust his clothes, I was amazed because of Navi's height, he is taller than me.

"My morning is perfect, I just see your gorgeous face, and I feel like there's a rainbow on my

tummy—" what he was going to say was cut off when I raised an eyebrow and I looked at him,

Navi looked away and her ears were red. now.

"My morning is perfect too because—"

"I gotta go!" Navi turned and ran fast, shaking my head and laughing, I watched her walk and get

into the car. He was holding his mouth and his ears and neck were still red, he looked like a

teenage boy that confessed what he just felt to the woman that he loved.

"Take care!" I shouted and waved at Navi, he turned around and his face was still red, waved and

drove his car away.

"What a baby," I said and took a deep breath, oh god. This kind of feeling, the void inside my

heart is filled with so much love and happiness now.

...

I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw the whole house, it was clean and I had already cooked,

because it's already afternoon and Navi is going home, I'll just throw out the trash now, and then

I'll be able to take care of myself, I'll be able to help Navi is still at work coming home from the

office.

I picked up the trash bag and walked outside the house, carrying all the trash around the house. I

walked out and put the trash bag in the big trash can. My eyes widened as Yhra approached me,

pulled me and it was as if she didn't hear what I was saying now.

"H-Hey!" I asked, but there was no response, we stopped at Giorre's cousin's house, entered

there. Only then did the two in front of me release me. I already know the outcome of this

conversation, I told them, but they decide on their own.

"Kourtney, listen carefully and please open your mind when—" I cut off what Yhra would say

and took a deep breath.

"I already said in the text, stop this and I already know the truth." They were stunned by what I

said and Yhra sat down on the sofa. He took a drink and quickly gulped down the contents of the

glass.

"But Kourtney—" for the second time, I didn't let Giorre speak, because I knew they would force

what they wanted to do, all I knew is Navi is not capable of doing those things.

"I said I want to bury everything, whatever happened, it was an accident and I talked to Navi,

god knows that he is not the reason why, I will pay all of you, let's stop the investigation." I sat

down and took some wine, Giorre and Yhra just shook their heads, they didn't say a word for a

while.

"We have the truth, don't you want to know?" Giorre said and I smiled weakly. "No, I don't want

to know the truth, I know the truth and it's wrong to accuse other people." I tightened my grip on

the glass and smiled at them.

"Please, let me be happy and accept what happened, because in truth I already accept it, I already

know the answer. I don't want to make the situation worse, just because of something like this,

it's really wrong for me to blame Navi for sin that he did not commit." I looked at Yhra and she

shrugged.

"How sure are you that he is not capable of that thing?" Giorre said and placed the USB in front

of me, I quickly took it and broke it, their eyes widened at what I did, I went back to leaning on

the sofa.

"He is not capable of that thing, hia mother died and he knows what it feels like to lose a loved

one, and I know that he loves me. So even though our past is complicated, I know that he can't

hurt me ." Giorre stood up, raised his hand and shook his head at me now.

"I am done with this, and I won't accept any payments from you, but remember that this is the

last time you can ask for help from me and the people of Avignon." Giorre walked away but

stopped for a moment.

"I am disappointed in you, and I know that Draven too, if he sees you, he will be hurt by the

decision and what you said." Yhra an

d I looked at each other, Yhra headed over.

"I need to go." They left me now, I groaned and closed my eyes. I can avoid them, because I

know my head will hurt.

"This is my decision, and it's final."