The Betrayal In Mackinac Island

Chapter 19 The Deep Desire Within

Chapter 19 The Deep Desire Within

Justina Thoughts

My heart was broken and I couldn’t understand how he Jay could hurt me. He was always the one to protect me from everything and everyone. When he found out what my brother took from me. He knew the depth of my pain somehow and i knew at that moment he would always be there.

But now that this stupid girl is in the picture; I couldn’t seem to get his attention. The way he looked at me when he woke from being drugged. I am so glad that i caught up to him when i did because they both would probably be in each others embrace right now basking in the so called love they think they share. Don’t they understand there is no happy ending for anyone like us.

The pain of him not returning the genuine love he used to bestow upon me, and i took it for granted. Now that i want him to love me, he is in love with a freaking hybrid. I bet he doesn’t know one thing about her, and my guess is he probably wouldn’t even care. Jays kind of love is everlasting and protective. He protects what is his….

Justinas Memory

I am laying on my bed and it is about one am in the morning and i can feel him heading this way. Ever since he did what he did to me i can barely sleep now. I am too afraid that he will catch me off guard again, and i will be damned if that should happen again.

My door creaks open and i wonder how my mother or father can not hear when he does this… I hear a pebble hitting my window, but before i could get up Jay comes in and he is railing like i have not ever seen before. I see my brother shutting the door and my whole body relaxes.

Jay turns to face me and the tears wont stop falling. He comes toward me and i jump because I don’t know what he thinks he is going to gain from this.

He says in a soft voice “J don’t worry i just want to hold you. I don’t expect anything more.” I shook my head yes and went toward my bed. He lays down first and then i after. When he puts his strong arms around me, I could feel all my troubles melting away. The last thing i heard before a restful night of sleep was “I won’t ever let anyone hurt you.”

Justina Come Back To Reality

My memory is interrupted by a knock at the door. I jump up thinking it is Jay but when I get closer i can feel who it is. I open the door frustratingly “What are you doing here?

Jerry walks in “I just wanted to let you know he tried to get into contact with Susana. I thought you had him taken care of?”

I am so pissed right now i neck punch him and say “Come in Jerry, I thought i told you not to contact me again until after everything is completed.” I walk over to window to close the drapes and he comes up behind me and places his arms around me. I can feel myself get wet and ready for him.. How could i feel so protected by Jay and not want him as much as i want this man in front of me.

He turns me around and he places his strong big hand around the back of my neck and he passionately kisses me. My whole world seems to disappear and everything wrong in my life seems to melt along with my legs at the point. He grabs me and press his hard hot chest against my D cup breasts and every time i experience this it seems that he and i should be together but i want both of them. I wont give either of them up.

He picks me up by my waist and i wrap my long well tone legs around his waist, and we get lost into each other. I walks over to the sofa in the living area and lays me across the arm rest. He rubs his hands all over my butt and in between. He moans “Ummm so wet and ready for me… Can your boy Jay get you this hot and ready?”

I look at him with annoyance and i slap him in the face “Don’t ever talk a bad word about that man, he is the most caring person i know of. He doesn’t deserve that kind of talk.”

Jerry is quiet for a moment and replies in a deadly tone “I don’t know if you know this but you can’t have the both of us. I will kill him before i could share you with him. As much as i do feel for you I will not allow myself be made as a fool. Do you understand me?”

All of the hairs on my body rose up and the need for s*x has completely vanished. He smiles and I can’t seem to shake the feeling that he is not the person i thought i knew. “Justina you have two choices, One: You can try to leave this room and find Jay and split Susana and him up like the original plan or Two: We can run away right now and forget about the two of them.”

I ponder on his ultimatum as he lays on top of me, he start to kiss my neck.. My thoughts fly out the window as the shocks waves throughout my whole body. I begin to giggle and he say in the soft tone i have grown to love “I love your laugh, I love everything about you. Why can’t you say you love me back? It is really starting to drive me wild.”

I can feel my face give him the expression he needs, but inside i am jumping for joy, because everything is going according to plan. Except for one thing and that is Jay leaving. I honestly thought he would come after me, but as the hours past i figured he fell asleep.

I reply “Ok Jerry can you f**k me now?” He smiles the sexy smile that always gets me weak and grabs me by my neck. “Oh you want it like this?” When his mouth clashes to mine I start to realize that he does make my troubles disappear, and I would probably be ok with letting Jay go. It is the principle of the matter. Jay is my husband and he doesn’t belong with anyone else but me. You are my ONE and you belong to me also. It is the only way i can see we all can be happy.”

Jerry smiles with a crookedness that made my breathing begin to pick up its speed. He finally replies “You know, i am still very much in love with Susanna and i am pretty sure Jay is deeply in love with her. I only have a urge for you i have a need for her at certain moments in my life. I actually just recently learned that when she left me last year and started working for your husband.”

He pushes off of me and he walks slowly to the chair by the window. As he sits down i can feel what his next words were going to be and I couldn’t allow myself to hear them. I jump off the bed and jump on top of him and positioned myself on the head of his amazing c**k.

As i lowered myself onto him i looked deep into his eyes and said “I will have what i want and there is nothing anyone to can do about it. Trust me after the first of the year everything will change.”

With that i circled myself on top of him and when his head went back i knew he was lost into me and i starting going up and down. Him being inside of me was complete bliss. He starts to kiss on my neck and finds his way to my breasts. He nibbles on one and pulls at the other. I moan with delight and really start to move up and circles as i go down.

I feel my yearning filling up to the top and the passion i feel tipped me over has he holds onto my waist the lets go into me. We both let out a loud moan of ecstasy as we both loose ourselves to each other.

When we both we done and we were holding each other, i get a vision of Jay standing at the doorway and his face looks disappointed. I get up to take a shower and Jerry says he is going for a smoke on the balcony. I shook my head and grabbed my towels and entered the bathroom fully naked.

That is one thing that i love about my connection to Jerry, I don’t have to be shy with him. He knows me inside and out and i know him. The only problem is how i will get him to accept Jay like he accepts me. I will not let either of them go. I will get what i want.

Susanna Thoughts

I was laying in my bed trying to get some sleep but I couldn’t get Jay off my mind. For some reason i knew he was close but i wouldn’t allow myself to be fooled by my connection to him. Regardless if i liked it or not, we are connected in a way i have not ever been.

I decide to take a shower to try to make myself drift into the world of nothingness. Ever since i visited that witch a long time ago I haven’t had any dreams. That is until i met Jay and spent the most magical moments with him. I know it was for a short time but he sure did make an impression on me.

I start to rub my n*****s under the hot shower. I close my eyes and picture him here with me. He caresses my face with one hand and with the other he grabs onto my plump butt cheeks. I moan with just thinking of him touching me. He slightly pushes me to the shower wall and starts to kiss on my neck.

I close my eyes tighter because the need for him to actually be here is too great. Right in the middle of my pleasure i hear the door bell ring. Veronica actually assumes its Jay. I shake my head and say to her “No wonder I can’t sleep you wont stop thinking about him.” She replies as a matter a fact “He is here and when you see him don’t f**k this up, He belongs to us S. They both do.”

When i opened the door i had my bath towel on and the first thing he said was “Why are you answering the door in a bath towel?” With the he comes in so quickly like his need for me doubled he picks me up and shuts the door with his foot.

“No one should ever be able to see this much skin, You are MINE!” He clashes his lips to mine and i am lost into his need for me. Hell my need for him as never left me and i know at this moment it is going to be hard to leave him, but for tonight he is MINE and i am HIS.

Susannas Vision

Justina is with Jerry in bed sharing there secret thoughts and past loves they have been in love with. I see both of them of this glow that leads to me to believe they are more than what they have lead on to me and Jay.

When Justina gets up she has this dark aura surrounding her and from that moment i knew I couldn’t trust her or anyone that is associated with her.

She turns to my direction and seems like she can see me and she says “Don’t worry i will have them both. You think you have gotten Jay but i promise he will return to me because i am home to him. Do you understand? You need to give up and let go now before things gets worse.”

Susana Wakes Up

Jay says holding me “Susanna are you ok? You were screaming in your sleep.” I accept his comfort and I return it with wrapping my arms around his waist. I close my eyes and I can’t believe the words that come out but it seems I don’t have a choice “Jay you have to go, Justina is not going to stop until she has what she wants. You and Jerry is all she cares about..”

He interrupts me “What do you mean Jerry and me? I thought Jerry was your crazy ex?” I laugh and reply “It seems she is connected to him also and not in just a friends kind of way.” He gets up like I hit a nerve and stands by the window with his nice toned ass.

Those thoughts fly out the window when he says something that I didn’t think would hurt the way they do .. “Don’t lie about her Susanna i understand you are trying to make her look bad so thing wont be so complicated between us, but the truth of the matter is she is my wife and i loved her once the way I love you.”

My heart drops to the floor and my mind is gone into hiding. I am pissed, why would he come all this way and then take up for the one that wants to break us up?

I get up and start to put my cloths on. I guess he can feel my pain and he tries to console me. Me and V were not hearing it. I don’t care how much i desire him i will not be a side piece for him to come has he pleases. I am not a doormat dammit…

I reply “Don’t worry Jay i will be gone by tomorrow. You can give her what she wants but I don’t like to share.” With that i grab the last of my things and head for the door. He rushes to stop me but i raise my hand up and say in a cracked tone “Don’t Jay i see how you feel. Hell i can fell it myself! But i will not stand by and be walked all over just because you are my ONE. Don’t follow me, figure out what you need to and then we will see, but I can’t help you if you can’t put your trust into me.”

He tries to say something but I stop him again and reply “Just stop, I really am not interested. You can have this room i will get another one.” I walked out of the room without another thought. V is quiet and I know it is because she is disappointed. Hell i was disappointed about the whole situation.

My mother told me before she died that i would find my ONE and it will be the most exciting time in my life, but if she only knew what kind of life as followed me she would roll over in her grave.

When i get to the reception i find out they are sold out for the evening. s**t… Veronica suggests we just shift and have a night out in the woods. At least it wont be in the same building as HIM. I agree with her and we place our belongings in the car we had just bought.

After we finally shifted i ask her “So where do you want to try now? I was thinking of Colorado? Or did you want to leave the country? It seems like this is the only way that we will be able to get away from them all.”

V is just quiet and i can feel her pain souring up her mood. I stay quiet and sleep and allow her to take us wherever she wants to go. I can’t give anymore of myself, i have been second my whole life most of the time last on my loved ones lists, but i still fought through anything anyone has ever bestowed upon me. Now i just want to disappear and not allow anyone to ever get close to me again.

Jays Thoughts

What was I thinking? My wolf is not happy with me especially because he doesn’t like Justina. He doesn’t care that she is bound to us through marriage. We both want Susanna and how can i still feel a certain obligation to Justina.. What will i do?