Chapter 1 His Memories
Chapter 1 His Memories
4Am Jay's Thoughts
I hear her voice yelling out "Jaaay!" I run as fast as I could, but by the time I got there she was shot at least ten times all over her precious body.. My poor Justina. . My heart crumbles into little pieces.. into dust.. into nothing...
I was out in the darkness and I see a bright light shining its way through to guide me and my soul felt better already. My mind is thinking I will see Justina, and when I get closer she is a mirage of Justina.. This woman was definitely not her, but why do I feel so at ease with her? Why does every fiber in my being want to grab her and have my way with her, good and hard to her?
Jay Wakes Up
I open my eyes to my alarm it is four in the morning in the good city of Mackinac Island Michigan. I love this place. I think about the woman at the end of my dream or memory, but completely dismiss it because only one woman I want to dwell about and she is gone.
All I have is what I own and the old Victorian hotel right off the waters has three stories with over two hundred rooms. The trimming is brown and the house is white. The green grass fills the landscape around and the trees in the background always put me at peace for some reason.
I also own quite a few Victorian homes in different parts of the United States and lease them out to only high class people. I know that makes me shallow, but I don't care. That ship as sailed on to me being a rational person. The pain I carry in my mind and heart burdens me through every second of every hour of everyday... Therefore I can admit now it did affect my ability to complete my tasks...
I lay there in my king sized bed on my navy blue silk sheets and thick black comforter. I say to myself 'Okay I am not going to think about this, I have a long day ahead of me. I can't spend the day in self wallow. I have an early interview for the position of my personal assistant.'
I get up and ponder on all of the personal assistants I have had seem to think I will fall for them and it's a fairy tale story for them afterward. I can pick them as soon as I work with them within one hour.. It never fails.. Then I had to go after them and make sure all my assets are in order.
Living here in Mackinac Island MI, business is always great. Who wouldn't want to spend their vacation in front of a dock where there is boat that can take them on a romantic ride? The activities are great, my current assistant Alicia isn't too bad. She is just too clingy to me, and I have not ever taken her out on a date or even tried to flirt with her. I just don't get where these delusional woman come from.
What no one knows is I have already have had my princess and she was the most unique person I knew. We were each one half of a single whole, and we couldn't function properly without one another. When she was murdered three years four months and two days ago. I took a turn for the worse.
The worst thing about all of this is at the end of the investigation they ruled her death as suicide! That's when I lost it... I didn't speak to anyone or eat anything. I dropped fifty pounds in seven days. I have three siblings, but my two sisters stopped talking to me and my brother.. Well he took a turn for the worse too. He disappeared and I still haven't seen him for about three years.
My pain ached everyday that sometimes I couldn't even get out of bed. It wasn't until my first assistant Christina Munoz that helped me pull myself out of my heartache, pain, and literally out of my bed. But I could never fully give myself to her, and she did her best to stick by me, but at the end she left.
Which I don't blame her she did deserve a lot more then me. The pain never ceased and it is always lurking in different parts of my heart and brain, but at least with Christina I could open up with what I thought I sealed away a long time ago. I've been noticing a lot of money missing as the years passed. It was at the point where I couldn't run one business let alone one hundred and ten different homes and hotels.
Which is why I need a competent person to be my personal assistant. Not someone that has googly eyes and bats their lashes at me, and suddenly thinks I will take some kind of interest in them. Someone that works and works only.. None of this 'I brought you some food' or 'Do you need me to stay late? or even the worst of them all 'I have some other cleaning I can do for you.' I remember being confused at first, but then getting it at the end and quickly declined the invitations. Like I don't know how to cook, and take care of my needs. As a matter of fact I am a very good chef and at pleasuring myself.
I get myself up and get ready to pull my s**t together. I start my morning off with working up a nice sweat with the usual one hundred push ups and running on my treadmill for thirty minutes. I wish I had time to jog in this beautiful town, but due to all of the debacles within my businesses I don't have the time. I work out my stress even harder. After my workout I get in my glass windowed shower with the marble backsplash and allow the hot steaming water run down my head and body. Each of my muscles relaxing at the heats touch.
I close my eyes as the water falls down my body. I start to stroke myself just the way I like. Slow at first to get my arousal going then I start to beat my length until I c*m. For some reason at that moment I get a flash of the woman from my dream which prolongs my o****m. I stand there for a moment because I feel like I was in another universe. I come back to my reality and finish washing my body and get out. I have a loong day. It's about to be six in the morning and Alicia is about to show up. I quickly get dressed.
6am Alicia Shows Up
Alicia walks in and I am just finishing up dressing and I say quickly before she could say anything "No worries Alicia your services aren't needed here please get started on my breakfast and if you burn anything or undercook anything I will let you go today and I will only pay you up to today instead of until the end of the week." I can sense she is pissed but I don't care. I pay her eight hundred dollars a week, I think I have the right to be how the f**k I want to be. She knows I am replacing her, she just doesn't know when.
I get a call that my interviewee is on her way here, and I am so annoyed with having to even deal with Alicia that I feel bad for this person who is about to be interviewed by me. I can be very blunt when I am annoyed and I honestly don't apologize for it. I worked hard to get where I am and I feel I deserve that decency to say whatever I damn well please.
As I am heading to my office, I start to get woozy.. I get a vision of my dead wife Justina. I am trying to run towards her and she seems to be getting farther and farther away. She says softly 'I love you.. Please don't give up on love' What the f**k? I don't ever have day dreams like that.. Uum.. Maybe I need to see Godfrey today. Maybe he can shed some light into this..
7am The Norm
I sit in my office staring out of my floor window unto the world wondering how I was able to survive this long without Justina.. My thoughts are interrupted by Alicia "Sir there is a Ms. Susana Perez to see you. You might like her." I disregard that last comment and say in a clipped tone "Ok" She leaves and a five foot six woman walks into my office. She has a tight black skirt on with a slit on her thigh that hugs her hips very nicely. I am astonished to realize she is the woman from my dreams.. My heart drops..
She catches me checking her out and she says firmly "Mr. Johnson if you could keep you attention on my eyes while we talk I would appreciate it." I quickly look up to her face and her emerald green eyes had me in a trance. How could this happen? I seen this beautiful face in my dreams and here she is..
She sits down on the sofa in front of my desk. She looks around at the scenery and I ask "Ms. Perez I understand you are looking to be employed?" She looks straight into my eyes and replies straightforwardly "Well Mr. Johnson I believe I woke up at three am to get ready to be here as early as I can. I am moving in the area within the next three months. I am a fast learner and I am ready to work. Just show me once and I will adapt to what needs to be done. I am not looking for anything personal I only am interested in a professional relationship only."
I love how she is all business and no play, no flirting or batting her eyes at me. Uum this woman is kind of interesting.. She clears her throat and says "Sir if the position has been filled, I apologize for misusing your time. I know your a very busy man." Oh okay here it comes..
She continues "I would love the opportunity..." I interrupt her with "Come in tomorrow at 6:30am. If you are late or don't show, don't worry about coming in." I could see a small smile trying to come to that mouth. I wonder..
She stops my thoughts "Okay Sir thank you I will see you tomorrow. What kind of coffee or drink would you prefer?" I stop for a minute because none of my past PA's have ever asked me that question on the interview it is usually after they have seen how much money I actually do have. She clears her throat again.. I'm obviously making her feel uncomfortable...
I say in a deadpan tone "We will go over that tomorrow." I look down and see if she smart enough to get the picture.. She starts to walk backwards and finally says "Thank you Sir have a wonderful day." When she turns around to leave I look at her bottom; I can't believe I just did that. I have not ever checked out any of my other PA's the way I just did her. She could work out and tone out some parts of her body, but all in all she seems to be a business woman ready to take care of all my needs.
Alicia comes in and I was happy to say "You're fired, I will mail you your last paycheck and W2. Please do not return.." She tries to say something but I stop her "That is all.." I grab my jacket and I leave for my next meeting with a man in New Hampshire that owned this beautiful Victorian home and I wanted it like I never wanted a house before.
I own fifty five Victorian homes, half of them were ruined and ready to fall. I spent money to fix them all and it has paid off immensely. I rent out my cheapest home at three thousand five hundred a month. Again why I only rent to high class only.
When I walk into the waiting room the room was completely empty.. My blood starts to pump faster and faster.. f*****g Alicia.. She will pay for this.. I get to my office and email Mr. Alexander Nguyen..
Hello Mr. Nguyen I have just let go a disgruntled employee and it was implied we had a meeting today at my office. Please get back to me as soon as possible I would love to speak with you. Thank you for your time and I hope to hear from you soon. Have a wonderful evening.
Sincerely,
Jay Johnson
I press the send button and was about to leave my office but I hear a 'PING'. Uum he replied back quickly. I come back to my comfortable chair and opened the email... My jaw drops as I reading the words
Dear Jay,
I am not a person to be toyed with. My assistance was told to book a trip to Alaska and so we did. When we got to Alaska they said they had no reservation. I call Alicia, now I think she is a nice lady but I don't think she will make it on your staff. Anywho she replies with "Oh sir Mr. Johnson changed his mind at the end and he changed the plans to come to Michigan" Now I am a animalistic man and I get what I want by working hard to get it and protect what I have. This is the worst first encounter I have ever had...That is until I met your new PA today as I was leaving she was such a lovely person. I think this one will smack you in the face son. I know your reputation... Don't mess up your personal relationship with her because she will leave quicker than a jack rabbit on a spring day."
I am still very interested in picking your brain on a variety of projects I could really use your help. Do you have this location taken care of? Just email me back when you are ready to set up a real meet."
Alexander N.
I raised my hand up and slammed it on my desk.. f*****g Alicia.. That is it! she will only be paid up to eleven am today. She f****d with the wrong person. Alexander is an old friend of my father's and I respect him like he is my father. Ever since I lost him Alexander has been there for me.
I emailed back
Dear Alexander,
Alicia is gone and I am so proud to hear you met Ms. Perez she is going to go far within the position. Thank you for still considering me and I plan to repair and remodel 647 Diego Dr. Please come stay on my hotel in Michigan on me.. I am about to call you..
J.J
Before I could answer my phone rings.. When I look at the ID I see it is him. I smirk a lil and answer the phone "Hello?"
The old man is laughing and retorts "You mean she will be the one your attracted to?" I know he can sense my annoyance with him, but he is just like my father he kept on "Ok son we have got to get you out of this mode this is just pitiful. It has been over at least three years, you have to get back on to making children. who else will you leave your legacy to? Please come have a shot and after the party we will talk more!! Oh and the house is going for twenty two million."
I hold on my gasp and counter with "You know how much work needs to be done. We have went over the plans plenty times before. I won't pay more than ten million for it." He starts laughing and replies "Kid I would gift it to you but you won't allow that. How about five thousand. I'm sure you will turn the house into something spectacular. I seen the one in Knoxville Tennessee. That home gave you your money worth huh?" I laugh and reply "Yea that home was a fixer upper. I believe I put in about ten million to fix her up. It took two to three years to start making profit off of her."
He stays quiet for a moment and says "All joking aside, I am really sorry about Justina. It was horrible, what happened. But I really want you to come out here and spend some time with me." I almost accept his offer but I remember I hired that Ms. Perez to start tomorrow..
I reply "No Sir I will have to decline see Ms. Perez first day is tomorrow at six thirty am. I have to see what she is about." He starts to laugh again and retorts "Sure my son you go ahead. If your father were alive he would be kicking you in the balls right now. haha. You be safe son." I smile and say "Yea yea you too. Bye." I hang up and get on with my day.
8pm dinner
I am around a table of associates each that equally have just about as much as I do. I really didn't feel like drinking and I try to resist, but it seems like everyone is apart of it. They all started passing shots around to everyone and for once I smiled and was genuinely excited. Before I knew it I was in the bathroom hugging the toilet.
I hear Justinas voice and I remember this too well. I am running to our room and I see her hanging from the ceiling fan with her bathrobe. The ceiling is too high I keep thinking to myself. She couldn't have.. I think I passed out because when I wake up there is the manager pushing at me to get up.
After that I decided to get out of this bar and head home all these awful memories still haunt me til this day. But I just keep moving forward and block it out. Something inside me was telling me there is more to come to drive me wild. I would honestly prefer if something came along to distract me from my sorrows. Alexander is right.. I have been closed off for far too long. My father always told me my attention spand would be my weakest point. That was until Justina. Now I don't care at this point in my life.. In fact I don't care about anything at all.
With my life's savings I played it smart and opened a series of business in different fields. But my personal favorite is the Victorian homes. They are my passion, ever since I could remember and I honestly don't know why.. That business is doing particularly well.
My second business interest Is that I own fifty five Hotels across the United States rated at five stars. Justina and I made sure every one of our hotels stayed at a five star rating. She used to pay attention to the ratings and compliments online. Anytime a a rating went down or there was a complaint instead of a compliment she would fly to that location and find out what is the issue and fix it by either firing someone or catching a thief. She was as I am.. and I have been lost without her...
I receive a call from my mother "Hello son how are you?" I sigh a little because I know she will keep me on the phone for hours.. "I am doing well mother, what's going on?" I hear her silence for a moment and I say "Hello?" She replies "Son I just want to say I love you and if I should pass tomorrow just know I do and always will love you. Please carry my love with you everyday."
I reply in a softer tone "I love you too mother. Is everything ok?" She says "Yes son, have a good day." Before I could say anything else she hangs up. Uum I better call Johnny to go and check on her. I call my brother and tell him what happened and he replies "I have a lot to do today brother, but I will do my best to get by there as fast as I can. I have a meeting with the contractors at six am in the morning then I have to buy the equipment we need."
I reply annoyed "Brother I will check on her for the next two days if you go and don't send a f*****g assistant she doesn't like strangers coming to her house. You know this and last time you still sent one." He stays quiet for a minute and replies "Okay I will facetime you when I am there. Goodness sakes like I don't have a life too." and hangs up.
I really don't care that he is pissed about it we all owe it to my mother for at least giving us love throughout the years. My father was very direct and tough on us kids. Me my brother Johnny and sister Leighan. It's not because he didn't love us he just expected a lot out of us. He wanted us to be great in whatever we decided to do and we had to be independent about it. He didn't donate a dime except for a car at eighteen for each kid to get the hell out of his house and find our own lives.
My sister Leighan can not stand checking in on our mother because mother is always criticizing her. Telling her she needs to make something better for herself that our father expected more out of her. We never understood why mother is always hard on Leighan even when father was alive. But one thing I do know Johnny and I played with Leighan everyday and made sure she had some kind of love and laughter during our childhood.
Leighan enlisted at eighteen and is now the Sargent Major of the Army. She is pretty much set for life, but we are fearful of her life everyday with all these bombings going on and threats from other countries and groups within our country. Leighan has always been able to hold her own and I pray everyday God protects her.
When he was on his deathbed he was very regretful with how tough he was on us but he said it worked out in the end since we all turned out for the better and.... That he loves us always and forever.. Those were his last words and he passed on.
I get done with my last meeting and decide to meet up with Alexander. Well this is going to end in a headache and we won't even talk about that home.. Uugh but hey he is like family to me. He was my dad's best friend growing up. I know it's going to be a loong night ahead of us but let's get through it...