The Betrayal In Mackinac Island

Chapter 20 The New Adventure

Chapter 20 The New Adventure

Susana Thoughts

I opened my eyes to the sunlight beaming into my eyes. I turn opposite to the sun and reach out for Jay. He is no where to be seen, I rush out of bed to the bathroom thinking he will be there, but to my avail he is gone. I walk slowly to the living area and sit on the sofa. Flashes of last night comes creeping into my mind and I can’t help to take a moment to appreciate him. I love how he always makes sure I am good before he can ejaculate.

I close my eyes and get lost in my memory of him being so soft and how he caresses my face my breasts my ass… He knew exactly what i wanted and most of all what i needed. I hear a knock at the door and i run to the sound thinking it is him.

I let out a sigh when i see who is there.. Jerry.. I open with “Jerry you need to leave I don’t want to be with you. We don’t belong together don’t you see that? Don’t you feel it?” He closes his eyes like that was the last thing he wanted to hear.

He took a deep breathe in and replies as he exhales “Susana we don’t have time to go through this. I need to talk with you about Justina..”

Before he could complete what he was saying i interrupted him “Jerry how do you know Justina?” His eyes open widely and i can tell he is regretting he said anything at all.

He is quiet and seems like he is struggling with his words.. I think about when i have ever seen him without words. Jerry is the type to be so smooth with his words and even more encouraging when he wants something.

He says in the tiniest tone “She is my ONE”

I take a deep breathe of surprise. What the hell? I stand away from the door and say “Come in, I would say we have a lot to talk about.”

When he comes in i can smell a scent on him that i know i have smelt before. We walk to the living area and i ask “Would you like some coffee? I just put some on” He laughs and says in a playful tone “Since when do you drink coffee? I thought you don’t like it?”

I laughed and replied “After working for Jay i kinda need it. My energy in sucked out of me everyday. I think it is best that i am leaving.”

He put his focus on me and replies “You will only give her what she wants. She wants us both, but my instinct that yearns for her doesn’t want to share. She is MINE!”

I raise my hands to calm him down “Jerry i need you to stay calm. I know all to well what happens when you get out of hand with your feelings.” He shakes his head and says “Okay this is from this beginning.”

Jerry Story

“About four years before i met you, i met Justina. I knew she was mine the second i saw her. When i confronted her about it she seemed to act like she didn’t recognize that i belong to her. It broke every feeling I had inside. She didn’t deny me so the connection stayed and I hated it. Being tied to one person that doesn’t even know her priorities.” He pauses and takes a deep breathe as if he knows that what he is about to say will upset me but i keep my mouth shut.

He continues “Four years later after no show and no call just even say I hate your guts or even that she missed me..” He pauses for a moment and after looking off into space for a moment he continues “She comes to me and she says she needs my help with someone.. Her husband. That he was a tough person to live with and she needed to get away but she didn’t know how. He is to controlling and overbearing, and she couldn’t handle his s**t anymore.

I had already fell hard for you and it seemed to keep myself at bay when it came to Justina and i told her i had moved on and i met someone that took my pain away..” He pauses again for a moment and when his eyes touched mine they had tears in them. I have not ever seen this side of this man and maybe if I did I wouldn’t have left him.

He interrupts my thoughts and continues his story “I really loved you Susana but i truly believe she had something to do with the change i had when i started treating you like shit.” He looks out the window and he hold his left big hand in his right and he says “You know i could just leave all of this behind us and run away with you to where no on could find us.”

With my silence he knows my answer we have had these conversations to many times and i honestly i am not interested in continuing that can of worms.

“Okay okay i know we have had this discussion too many times. Okay well after you left me those two years you put up with me, she showed up to my door again and explained she faked her death and she was free of him and available for us to be together. I have to admit you put an imprint in my heart that never completely healed even when i was with my ONE. She could not take the pain away, the dreams i would have that woke me up in distress screaming out for you.

I guess she was tired of me and she left, my heart burned with fire, but vengeful pain and i wanted to get back at her. I figured if i got you back that would be a slap to her face. When i showed up i saw her but she didn’t see me and after our meeting i went to her and i was with her. I don’t understand how i could want someone so bad, but be in love with someone completely different.

But i know that i f****d up what i had with you and i know i wont get it back, but i have come to terms with that all I want is for you to be happy. Even if that means not with me. I promise i will leave you alone, but i also promise i will be there when he f***s up and i will be whatever you need to be happy or get through your break with him.”

I take a deep breathe and i am not sure what i want to do with this information. He comes closer to me and when I don’t move he decides to wrap his strong arms around me. I am five three and he is six foot so i have to get to my tippy toes.

After a minute i push away and go to the kitchen. As i am walking I ask in a small tone “Would you like anything to drink or eat? You honestly look like you haven’t ate in a while.”

He is silent for a moment and i swear i see a hint of shock in his eyes, but he hides it as quickly as it came and replies “Yes please, yes it has been a while since i had a good home cook meal.”

I keep quiet after that comment because even though i worked also i still made it home before him and made sure there was something to eat when he got home, but not before he took a hot shower and change into some pj’s and dinner it was. We didn’t have kiddos so it was just me and him.

I grabbed a Dos Equis along with sand which ingredients and a water for me. I placed the sandwich stuff on the counter by the kitchen sink and took the beer to him.

He asks in a childish tone as if he is in trouble “So you don’t have any type of input or emotion to put into what i just revealed to you?”

I couldn’t help but to laugh and replied “Jerry we aren’t together and you are not my child. I am not going to get upset of the fact that you are my mortal enemys ONE, but even after i told you about what was happening with Jay and Justina you acted as if you didn’t know them. I am not going to put any type of stress into that. It is just not worth it.” I really felt release of any type of anger or betrayal feelings that i would have most definitely felt if we were in love.

He puts in hands in up as if he gives up and i win, he sits on my black suede loveseat and turns on the TV. I turn around and I honestly can say i kinda like having Jerry as a friend but too bad he will never go for that. He will always want something more and I don’t want that, and i am glad he has finally accepted that.

I get done making us both a turkey sandwich with mayo lettuce tomato and pickles, I take a moment and intake a deep breathe of I don’t know what i am going to do with all this information but i have this urging feeling of running away and looking for a different location and scenery.

My thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door. I take the plates and placed them on the wooden coffee table by Jerry. He looks concerned and asks in a surprised tone “Were you expecting anyone tonight?”

I laugh and reply “I never expect anyone, everyone seems just to show up..” I look at him with a playful facial expression. He returns the smile but not the laugh. I turn around and shake my head.

When i open the door I am as surprised as Jerry was just now.. Justina and Jay are standing before me and Justina has this smile to her that makes my blood boil. Jay looks as if he is a lost little boy that has no idea of what is going on.

I put my attention to Justina and i say in the most menacing tone “What are you doing here? I know he is your husband i know to leave him alone now please you leave me alone!”

With that a force i didn’t know i have surged out of me and forced Justina down the hallway with her hair flying everywhere and her hands up in the air I don’t hear a peep our of her mouth. That is very interesting. I try to grab Jay and as if the lights turned on he turned with his mouth wide open at Justina flying down the hallway for a moment.

He turns to me and i see the struggle inside and i try to touch his soft sweet face, but before i could make it to his sexy face he grabs onto my arm and throws me towards Jerry.

My heart drops, i am completely without words and that is the first time in a long time since that has happened to me. I promised myself I wouldn’t let anyone take my voice again after my years with Jerry.

But at this moment all i could do is lay on the man that claims he loves me and die inside for the man that is about to destroy me inside and out. What a freaking day…

Jerry raises me up a little and asks “Are you okay?” I laugh and reply “Sure just another Tuesday.” I ascend off of him and before i could say or do anything Jay picks me up and throws me into my wooden coffee table and it breaks in half… Darkness…