The Betrayal In Mackinac Island

Chapter 12 Jay Johnson

Chapter 12 Jay Johnson

I'm getting on the plane to head for New Hampshire and I get a feeling in my heart that I remember too well... The feeling of dread.. I wanted to go back in my little hole and mope.

But nope, I can't do that because Ms. Perez is there. For some reason I couldn't help myself to bring my thoughts to mind about the young Ms. Perez.. She wouldn't know what to do with someone like me. Something inside me tells me I need to be next to her, but a very big part of me fought with myself when Justina came to mind. I loved her for many years and for some reason I couldn't understand why. There was something there I didn't feel right about Justina, but my love for her blinded any doubt I had and, to be honest, I agree with that saying 'Ignorance is bliss'. After she told me the things she said, I didn't feel like it was the woman I knew and fell in love with. She has completely changed from when we first started out and sometimes I often wonder if some of the pain she carried was on me. I didn't want to cause her pain, all I wanted was to see the happiness in her face, her eyes and her beautiful plump lips.

I get out of that memory as I get through the congestion of people in front and in back of me. I get to my seat on the plane and am thankful. I have had anxiety from my depression and I seem to get agitated quickly when around so many people. I even buy two seats to keep anyone from sitting next to me. I could have taken my personal jet but my pilot is sick with the flu.

I get comfortable in my two seats and wait for the stewardess to start the safety talk. I slipped back to Ms. Perez.. She is just so tempting. That night we spent together comes to mind and I am still in disbelief at how calm and comfortable I was with her. I felt something wanting to come out and I feel it stronger than ever. Especially when I think about Ms. Perez... I get a flash of her beautifully shaped face, I just want to kiss her all over until I hear her laugh out loud because the sound of her laugh drives me wild.

My mind comes to the now and the Pilot is making his announcements and his corny safety talk. I get a flash of Susana and something inside me comes alive. I open my eyes and I feel whatever is growing inside of me becoming something more and more and I have not ever felt this way before. To be honest, I kind of love the strength I am beginning to feel. I feel like I am going to bust with the lust I craved for Susana and my mind shoots me down by reminding me of our missing pronounced dead wife. I get up to go to the bathroom, but the stewardess stops me before I could move from the spot. "Sir, we are about to take off, please return to your seat."

For some reason, I calm down and I do as I am asked. I sat back down and stared out the window absentmindedly. When I see the clouds, I get up and head to the bathroom. The stewardess from earlier stops me again.. Are you F.. "Sir, can I help you with anything?" I moved around her and replied "No thank you". I could sense that this woman was uncomfortable around me, but to be honest, the only two women that have me confused and cause the scorching hot lava of anger that resides in them already have me occupied. I could let them both of them truly go, but I feel a connection to Susana and

I make it to the bathroom and I stare at myself in the mirror. I see my eyes changing to different colors, I put my head under the water in the sink and I feel a little better. I look at myself again and I am back in my blue eyes. I take a deep breath and tell myself "Get your s**t together man."

I walked out of the bathroom and I felt a little faint. I get to my seats fast and get comfortable. I have about two hours before we land. I close my eyes and wonder what kind of dream I will have...

Jay Johnson Dream/Vision

I am in the back seat of my black Chevy SUV staring out of the window. It is a beautiful day, the sun is shining and there are cubelet clouds in the clear blue sky. I stare at the way the sun shines through the clouds, like God himself is shining down onto the earth. Whatever light touches, is one of his angels on this earth...

My thoughts are interrupted by this driver hitting a pot hole. I said in a stern tone "Be more careful." I saw him looking in the mirror and I made eye contact with him and he replied "Yes sir, my apologies." He turned his attention back to the road.

I am cursing under breath and I close the black 20" window and run through my thoughts.. My regular driver called in sick and usually we debate politics or debate the best classics of Led Zeppelin. As I am gazing out the window, I see Susana walking down the sidewalk. There with some mid short blue jean shorts with a white Tshirt. Her hair is swaying with the wind as she walks down the sidewalk.

My manhood gets to attention and I am about to tell the driver to stop, but he has stopped already. What the? I look outside and it is dark and raining, kind of reminds me of that night with Justina. Everyone says it was an accident, but from what I saw, she was a completely different person..

I was opening the car door and Justina got in... I fall backwards on the floorboard, and she slams the door. She rolls down the window and tells the driver "Drive" then rolls it back up. I wonder if Susan is still in this rain? Justina isn't the woman I remember. I can see the darkness in her and how it controls her.

She smiles and says "What baby, you don't miss me? You would rather go to a skank like that little priss Susana Perez. She isn't your type, either way. It would never work." I can feel her satisfaction with that statement.

I get lost thinking about how I can make things right for her. Just to show her some real love and let her have..." Justina slaps me and says "I will be back.. What is happening can not happen." As if she slaps me out of this weird dream.. I wake up..

Jay Come To

"Please fasten your seatbelts as we are about to land in about ten minutes. Please..." I tone her out and fastened my seat belt. I stare out the window and I love the scenery in front of me, the clouds cover the sky like a blanket. Somewhere deep inside I still feel something growing stronger and stronger every day that passes.

The plane descended to shake as we descended and I couldn't get both Justina and Susana out of my head. Why are my dreams more intense since Susana started working for me? Or maybe the connection we had that one night...

No, I need to stop thinking like that... Justina is right.. She might come back.. They never found her remains... I think that is what held me in a rut of wonder and pain. I always felt she was still alive, but I could never find her. I blamed myself for giving up, but now that I look back, it was more of a long moment of weakness.

We land and everything flies out of my mind as us passengers get our belongings and exit. When I got off the plane, I saw a woman holding a sign with my name on it. She is a short petite woman and she has a gap in between her two front teeth. When I acknowledge her, she turns around and starts walking. Wow, I thought the people here would be nice in New Hampshire.

I followed her to her four-door pick-up truck. I place my belongings in the back and get on the front seat. She gets in and starts this beautiful baby. I thought to myself how such a small woman could drive this truck. But I keep my thoughts to myself, which is kind of new to me. But I learned the hard way with my time in New York. I sold my houses and hotels there. I figured the city was getting out of control and I wouldn't allow anyone to destroy what I built with my blood, sweat and energy.

She turns on some Breaking Benjamin 'I will not back down' and I fall into this song. I can see her looking at me enjoying this song and when it's over a song named 'Diary of Jane', She turns the music down a notch and asks in a dainty voice "Would you like to stop for something to eat?" My stomach grumbles at her question. I nodded my head yes and turned up the music. I will have to look this band up to download for my running music. Whenever I decide to run again..

Soon we pulled up to the house I am interested in. It's two stories, of course, and you can tell someone tried to renovate, but lost faith in their project. I tell myself strike one.. As we walked up the steps to get to the wrap-around deck, one of the wooden steps wasn't hammered correctly and I sensed it before my driver fell onto the staircase.

I grabbed her arm before she rushed and we rushed up the last two steps. I absolutely love the deck. I see a vision with Susana being there and walking toward me with a smile on her lips. The driver nudges me and clears her throat. I came back and I went and followed her to the front door.

She takes the key out of her pocket and opens the door for me. She seemed to be afraid.. "No sir, I will wait in the car. No worries, it takes your time, this is my job." I smiled and asked "I should have asked before but I have a lot running in my mind. What is your name?" She smiles back and I hold back my humor, because she reminds me of a celebrity that also has a gap and I laugh every time I see her on YouTube or Comedy Central. "Angela Sir. You can call me Angie or whatever you prefer."

I saw a slight blush on her cheeks and I save her from her misery. "Okay, no problem disappointing you Angela." I saw the disappointment in her face, but she turned around and left. I thought to myself 'What is her deal?" I disregarded that thought and entered into the most extraordinary home I have had the pleasure of being in. There is a big entrance hall with maroon and golden trimming everywhere you look. I hear the floor cracking as I walk through this home that seems so familiar to me. The feeling I had walking through this wonderful old house with confidence baffled me. I am usually the one to feel like I am not intrigued, but not this time. I wonder why Angela was so eager to leave. She probably would have enjoyed it as much as I am. I came across two big stairways that were on each side of the room I am currently standing in. From what happened outside with Angela, it probably won't be a good idea for me to try them out until my inspector comes in and does his sweep through.

I get an image of Justina down the hallway, and my sain self is telling me she isn't real turn around and leave, but my curiosity always gets the best of me. Especially when anything involves Justina. Little did I know I was walking toward something I never imagined would happen..