Dealing with everything

Depression

Depression is something that shouldn’t be taken lightly. It’s like you want to die and you feel like your suffering, like you are joking in stuff from the past that you will never forget. I always use to say can’t, then my dad told me that can’t stands for Certainly Am Not Trying. And honestly I wasn’t and I’m still not I take meds bc it helps make me smile a little more then I used to. Having friends to be there and support you is probably the best things that you could ever ask for during your hard times. I want to tell my dad I want to get hit by a bus because I felt like I was gonna die I felt like I was going to hurt myself in some kind away but he told me my life is worth living so I started caring but I got into drugs, started vaping, started here with the wrong crowd. And then I found who my real friends and fake friends were, I left my fake friends went for the real ones my best friend is been my best friend for 4 years. Something that made me really depressed was my nanny passing away and I will never let that go and there’s more that make my depression go up one is my ex-boyfriend cheating on me throughout the whole nine months that we were together and I felt deeply in love with him and then I found out he cheated and he broke my heart and that’s when I went into an even bigger depression stage and there’s other things I just don’t want to talk about because it’s personal. But let me just say this I once read a quote that said “ God puts people in your life for a reason, if they don’t stay then it’s not meant to be, if they stay it was meant to be” ever since I’ve read that “I go back to thinking about depression anxiety and everything that makes me feel badly and I think “ wow I didn’t realize how badly I’m depressed” if you do not have the motivation to wake up in the morning or get up in the morning or go to school or work if you don’t have the motivation to eat or sleep or hang out with your friends, then you should go see a doctor. Because honestly the doctor can help you out a whole lot better than your friends can. Most importantly if you have a family that loves you and cares about you and would do anything for you keep them for the rest of your life because they are not going anywhere. They love you too much to let you go they won’t be able to live without you.