True Confessions of a Real Life Goddess

They say that a person experiences different levels of love throughout the different periods of their life. These experiences open our eyes to how we are affected by other people and how they are affected by us. The joy and the pain help to show who we are with someone and without. So the question is, how do we know which one was real? My name is Sasha and I've loved five men in my life, and four of them all at the same time. It takes a real life goddess to navigate that. The first man I loved, wasn't even a man at all. He was just a boy, not even 16. I remember thinking how odd he was. How he would watch me from across the room. He was a cousin of my brother's friend so he was always around. No one ever tells you that your first dance with darkness can happen at any time and can come from the most innocent of places. Sweet sixteen. It's a time in every teenage girl's lives when they really start to realize who they are. It's a time when teenage boys really become aware of their existence. Primarily the existence of breasts. True to her form, the universe added that to the list of lessons I had to learn. My boobs pulled a sneak attack when I was twelve. By the time I was 16, they were downright vulgar. This was not a good reason. Makes from so ages notice boobs. You know who else does, when. They typically don't like it when their men notice other boobs.... and now we have a titty stigma. There was one boy who noticed my boobs, and changed my entire life. I remember the first time I saw him sitting in my living room one day after school. He had his hair in a ponytail and was playing with the fuzzy ball sticking out of his tongue. I noticed these things about him, but his eyes went straight to my t**s. At that point I don't think he could have told you the color of my hair, but I could not deny the thrill I got from the attention. That first contact was all it took and I was failing down my first rabbit hole?