The Weight of Silk
The silk of my gown weighs more than my memories.
That is the first thought I have each morning when my ladies dress me. Five layers of ivory brocade, threaded with gold so fine it catches the light like captured sunlight. A corset that cinches my ribs until breathing becomes a conscious effort. Pearls at my throat, diamonds in my hair, rings on every finger that could possibly hold one.
I am a walking treasury. A living emblem of the kingdom's wealth. A princess on display.
And I am suffocating.
"Your Highness, you must hold still," Muriel chides, her wrinkled fingers deftly pinning a stray curl into place. She has been my handmaiden since I was seven years old, the only mother I have ever known. Her voice is always gentle, always patient, and it makes me want to weep.
"Forgive me, Muriel," I say, forcing a smile that does not reach my eyes. "I am... distracted this morning."
She pauses, her reflection meeting mine in the gilded mirror. "Is it the betrothal announcement, Your Highness? I know it must be weighing heavily on your heart."
I do not answer. I cannot. Because the betrothal is not what weighs on me. It is the news that came with it.
Your father's killer was executed years ago. A nameless traitor. You were just a child, Olivia. You misunderstood what you saw.
The words echo in my skull, spoken in my father's—no, Kael's—voice. Kael Draven. The man who raised me. The man who tucked me into bed and kissed my forehead and told me stories of brave knights and fair maidens. The man who taught me to read, to ride, to wield a sword with precision and grace.
The man who murdered my real father.
I was seven years old when I saw it. I remember the crimson splash against the marble floor. I remember my father's eyes—wide, shocked, full of a betrayal so profound it stole my breath. I remember Kael standing over him, sword dripping, his face a mask of cold resolution.
And I remember what he said to me afterward, when I was sobbing in the corner, my tiny hands pressed over my ears.
"Hush now, little one. Your father was weak. He would have destroyed everything. I did what was necessary. And now... you are my daughter. You will be safe with me. You will be loved."
For fifteen years, I have pushed that memory into the darkest corner of my mind. I have convinced myself it was a nightmare. A child's imagination twisting grief into something monstrous. Because how could a man who loves me so utterly be capable of such horror?
But now he has spoken the lie aloud. He has looked me in the eye and told me that my father's killer was someone else. Someone long dead.
And I know—with a certainty that settles like ice in my stomach—that he is lying.
The question is: why now? Why, after all these years, has he chosen to rewrite the past?
"Your Highness?"
Muriel's voice pulls me back to the present. I blink, realizing I have been staring at my own reflection without truly seeing it. The woman in the mirror is a stranger. A princess with hollow eyes and a painted smile.
"I am fine," I lie. "Please continue."
She does, her fingers working with practiced efficiency. I watch her in silence, my mind racing.
The betrothal. That is why he told me. He is securing an alliance with Vexis, a kingdom ruled by a tyrant king who would sooner burn his own people than negotiate with them. And I am the bargaining chip. By binding me to Prince Darian, Kael ensures that Vexis will not attack. He ensures his borders are safe.
But what does he ensure for me?
A life in a foreign court, surrounded by enemies. A husband who is rumored to have a taste for cruelty. A future that looks more like a prison than a palace.
Unless I can find the truth.
Unless I can prove what Kael did. Unless I can expose him for the usurper he is, rally the nobles who still remember my father, and reclaim the throne that is rightfully mine.
The thought is treasonous. It is dangerous. It is the only thing that feels real.
"Your Highness is ready," Muriel announces, stepping back to admire her work.
I rise from my vanity, the heavy skirts dragging against the floor. I feel like I am wading through water. Like the weight of all that silk is trying to pull me under.
But I will not drown. Not today. Not ever.
I will find the truth. I will uncover what Kael has hidden. And I will make him pay for what he did.
One step at a time.
One breath at a time.
The Great Hall is a sea of gold and crimson, the colors of the Draven dynasty. Banners hang from the vaulted ceiling, each one emblazoned with the snarling wolf that has become Kael's sigil. The nobles have gathered in their finest attire, their faces a mask of polite interest. They do not look at me with pity or suspicion. They look at me as they always have—as the princess, the symbol, the ornament.
I am no threat to them. Not yet.
Kael sits on the dais, the crown glinting on his brow. He is a handsome man, still strong and vital at fifty-three, with silver streaking his dark hair and eyes the color of storm clouds. He looks like a king. He moves like a king.
He is a king.
But he is not my father. And I will never forget that.
"Princess Olivia Valerius," the herald announces, and I make my way down the aisle, my steps measured and deliberate. I keep my chin high, my shoulders back. I do not let them see the storm raging inside me.
Kael rises as I approach, his arms open wide. "My dear girl," he says, his voice warm and full of affection. "Come. Sit beside me."
I obey, taking the seat to his right. He places his hand over mine, and I feel the calluses on his palm, the same calluses that gripped the sword that ended my father's life.
"You look beautiful today," he murmurs, leaning close so only I can hear. "Are you excited for the announcement?"
I force a smile. "I am eager to hear your news, Father."
The word tastes like ash in my mouth. But I have called him Father for fifteen years. To stop now would be to reveal myself. And I am not ready to reveal anything. Not yet.
He pats my hand and turns to address the gathered nobles. He speaks of alliances and prosperity, of a future secured through unity and strength. He speaks of my betrothal to Prince Darian as though it is a gift, a blessing, a testament to my worth.
I listen to the words, but I do not hear them. I am too busy watching the faces in the crowd.
There is Lord Ashford, my father's oldest friend, who looks at me with something akin to sorrow. There is Lady Marchetti, who smiles too widely, her loyalty clearly bought. And there, standing near the back, is a man I do not recognize.
He is tall, broad-shouldered, with dark hair and a face that seems carved from stone. He is not wearing the colors of any noble house. He is wearing the simple black and silver of the Royal Guard.
But he is not looking at Kael. He is looking at me.
His eyes are sharp, assessing. There is a tension in his jaw, a coiled energy that suggests he is ready to spring into action at any moment.
Who is he? Why is he watching me?
And why do I feel, deep in my gut, that he knows something he is not telling?
The announcement ends. The nobles rise to their feet, applauding politely. Kael stands and pulls me into an embrace, his arms crushing against my ribs.
"You will make me proud, Olivia," he whispers. "You will be the queen this kingdom needs."
I do not answer. I cannot.
Because I am not going to be his queen.
I am going to be his reckoning.
Later that evening, I walk alone through the eastern corridor. The servants have retired to their quarters, and the guards are stationed at their posts, leaving the hallways empty and silent. The torches flicker in their brackets, casting dancing shadows against the stone walls.
I am not supposed to be here. This wing of the palace is f*******n to me, sealed off after the coup. But I have never obeyed that rule. Not really. Tonight, I need to see it.
My father's old chambers.
The door is locked, but I have been preparing for this moment. I pull a small iron key from the folds of my gown, one I stole from Kael's study months ago. It fits into the lock with a soft click, and the door swings open.
The room is dusty, untouched for years. The furniture is draped in white cloth, like ghosts frozen in time. I pull the cloth from a desk and run my fingers over the wood, imagining my father sitting here, writing letters, reading reports, dreaming of a future he would never see.
I feel tears prick at my eyes, and I blink them away. I cannot afford to grieve. Not now. I need to find something. Anything.
I search for hours. I look through drawers and cabinets, behind paintings and under rugs. I find nothing but dust and faded memories.
And then, just as I am about to give up, I notice a loose stone in the fireplace.
I cross to it and kneel, my fingers prying at the edges. The stone shifts, revealing a small hollow space. Inside is a leather-bound journal, old and worn, the pages yellowed with age.
My heart pounds as I open it.
It is my father's handwriting. I recognize it from the letters he wrote me as a child, letters I have kept hidden in my own chambers.
"If you are reading this, my darling Olivia, then I am gone. And I need you to know the truth."
I read on, my hands trembling. He writes of Kael's ambition, his cruelty, his plan to seize the throne. He writes of a conspiracy within the court, nobles who will betray him when the time comes.
And he writes of a secret. A vault beneath the palace, hidden behind the old nursery, containing evidence of Kael's crimes. Evidence that could destroy him.
"Find it, my love. Find it and use it. You are stronger than you know. You are braver than you believe. And you are the true heir to this kingdom."
I close the journal and press it against my chest, tears streaming down my face.
I have a mission now. A purpose.
And I will not rest until Kael Draven is brought to justice.
But as I turn to leave, I hear a sound behind me.
A soft footstep.
A whisper of breath.
I spin around, my heart in my throat.
And there, standing in the doorway, is the dark-haired guard from the Great Hall.
His eyes meet mine, and he does not look surprised to see me.
"Your Highness," he says, his voice low and calm. "I think we need to talk."