sweet thing

Chapter 6; What to do now?

It would be a big fat lie if I said I wasn't nervous to see Alex on Monday. I spent the rest of Friday, Saturday and Sunday trying to figure out how to approach her on Monday without making it weird and uncomfortable. My mom, my brothers and I went out for lunch on Saturday. My brothers Charlie and Lucas won a basketball game so my mom promised them we would go out for lunch. While my mom was talking to my brothers about basketball and their up coming birthday I was daydreaming and coming up with all scenarios I could think of.

"Marcy, how's school?" my mom asked

"It's good. I'm doing better in science and math because of Alex"

"Oh that's great honey. What's bothering you then?"

This was really unexpected. I knew I had to tell my mom. There wasn't a doubt in my mind that my mom would be accepting but I didn't know if this was the right moment or even the right place.

"You know you can tell me everything? I won't look down on you"

I felt as if she already knew she just wasn't sure

"Well mom, you know on Friday when Alex and me were out she asked me to date her and I said yes"

"Are you happy?"

"Yes"

"Great honey"

She hugged me and I felt a huge rock fall of my heart, like it was easier to breathe

"Wait wait so you like girls?" my brother Charlie asked and I panicked

"Yes, I do"

"Okay" he reacted soo calmly and so differently than I expected

"So you can help me with this girl I like?" Lucas asked me

At first I didn't know what to say but then he continued on

"She constantly stares at me and giggles when I'm around. I don't wanna embarrass myself but I want to ask her if she likes me"

gay panic came in flashes but I tried to handle it

"Why don't you pull her aside or invite her somewhere where you're alone and then ask her?"

"I didn't think of that"

my brother can be sweet but he can also be very stupid, both of them can be

We ate our lunch in peace and left quickly afterwards.

My mom and me didn't talk about my coming out too much. I think she already suspected it but wasn't sure. I'm sure we were both feeling easier after today. My confession to my family distracted me from thinking about what will happen on Monday for a few hours.

When the night came and stars were bright I laid in my bed staring at my ceiling the thoughts and the pure nervousness came back.