sweet thing

Chapter 5; Is this what I think it is?

Spring was coming. Exam season was starting too but I couldn't bring myself to study under any circumcises. I was in love but I couldn't bring myself to admit it to anyone, not her and not myself.

It was a sunny Friday morning in April. She came to school looking like an angel. She wore a white shirt tucked into black jeans. Her jacket was various colors that usually don't go together but on her it looked fantastic. Her jacket was flying around as she ran into my arms.

"Marc!! the spring is here. Isn't it beautiful?"

"Oh yes. It's beautiful"

"Since it's Friday my mom said I can stay out after school" she looked at me with the brightest smile I ever saw in my life

"That's great, we can go out and just walk around the town"

"I kinda already planned something, there is this beautiful lake near school and I heard the nights at the lake are beautiful" she said excitedly with sparks in her eyes

The whole day I couldn't focus on my work. It was beautiful outside, everything was blooming. I couldn't stop thinking about seeing Alex so happy and excited. I couldn't stop thinking about what all "this" meant. As the day got closer to its ending I only got more excited and a bit more anxious.

"Are YOU READY???" she yelled as we exited the classroom

"YESSSs" I yelled back but I really wasn't ready

I wanted to scream as she held my hand. Her hands were so small and soo cute. Her lips were shiny and her skin glowed in the moonlight.

The lake wasn't far away from our school. We sneaked into one of the lakes "green beaches" We sat there for awhile not saying a word and just indulging in the beauty of everything around us.

"Marcy, you know, I think I'm gonna be a biologist when I grow up. What do you want to be?"

"Well I think I want to be a translator or an artist. I haven't decided yet."

"I just find it interesting how small we actually are. When you look at that, no one is gonna remember us in a 100 years unless we do something really memorable"

"You got an interesting thought process. I'm more about living in the moment, sure it would be nice to be remembered but I want to live now like there is no tomorrow"

"That's nice, you're so laid back and chill. That's cool"

"I guess but you're cooler. You literally know everything and everything goes well for you"

"Yeah, I guess things just go my way" she said and a weird and awkward silence followed

We just sat there for what seemed like eternity but it was just a few short seconds before she kissed my cheek. I felt my cheeks burning up and thank God that its night so she couldn't see me.

"Did that go my way?" she asked me, smirking, and to just think that I used to think she was completely innocent

"Maybe, give me one on the mouth so I can judge properly" I said and she kissed me again

It was like magic. I was soo excited and I could feel the butterflies in my stomach. We broke the kiss and her eyes were glimmering.

"Is this what I think it is?" I asked

"Maybe, if you want us to be more than friends?" she asked me while staring deeply into my soul

"I would love to"

We went home shortly after. We didn't know what exactly to do so we just kissed on the cheek and waved goodbye awkwardly. I went into my room after a short talk with my mom. My brothers were already asleep on the couch.

As soon as I was into my room I grabbed my pillow and screamed as quietly as possible into it. I could not believe this night actually happened. We sparked. We actually kissed. Her lips were soo smooth and her eyes were glimmering as she spoke about how she wanted to become a biologist and how she wanted to save the Earth. Her hands on my cheeks. I could feel the chemistry between us. I wanted to melt on the spot. I felt so magical as if I could actually fly. I didn't know what to do with myself at that moment. I still don't know what to do with myself. My emotions ran wild and I only wished I could tell everything that happened to my mom but I didn't come out to her yet. Alex is the only one who knows for now.