The Girl I Cheated On

Chapter 17. She was a Drug to Me

Arjun's P. O. V

"Watch?" "Check"

"Wallet?" "Check"

"A pen?" "Check"

Keys? Check

House keys?

"Check sir"

"Car keys? "

"Oh I am so sorry just wait a minute sir. I will get it from the house"

Its been two whole year since I left the college. I never looked back again. I left everything and came to my father to join his company and help him with the business. I work hard and hard everyday to expand my business into many other sector. I am determined to make it a top company in our sector and in these two years I have managed to bring it half the way with my dedication and am planning to achieve more. I am more focused now and have nothing to do with my past anymore. I dont even think about it but its always there at the back of my head. I try to ignore it. I have adopted my father's technique of forgetting things and people. Just work. Busy yourself. Don't give yourself enough time to even think about them. One day, hopefully I will stop pretending and actually forget her for good.

"Sir.?? We are ready to go. "

I snapped back to realty and switched on the engine of my car and drove in peace.

"Sir here is your sandwitch"

My assistant Rahila asmi gave me my breakfast because I cannot waste my time eating. My father insisted on keeping an assistant because it can save my time and some stress. I was against it because I think I can handle my work well but anyway. She cooks for me. She schedules my meetings. She is the head of my personal staffs and makes sure everything is done well according to my choice. She is a single mother. She and her husband got divorced and he got married soon after that. She is a tough lady and handles everything smartly.

I ate my sandwitch and some bottled juice and took some anti depressant.

I have been taking anti depression pills for almost a year now. I still remember what a mess my life was. It was terrible. I wasnt myself. I wouldn't eat, I wouldn't sleep. I Wouldn't even talk to anybody. I was even suicidal. I still remember what a coward I was. Running from my own mistakes made me like this. It started when I left my college two years back. Everything was dark in my life because my light was stolen from me. My breath was stolen. She was my life without her I knew nothing. I will be honest it was not like that before. But only after she was gone that I knew how precious she was and I should have never left her. Watching her every day in college and not being able to talk to her was making me restless. For the first time I saw those eyes with no love for me. She had no feelings left for me. She became indifferent towards me. I cried I begged in front of her she gave no sign of forgiveness. Deep inside I knew I should not be forgiven for what I have done. I cried everyday watching her and regretted what I lost. After a while I stopped attending college. I would drown myself in alcohol. I stopped meeting friends, attending calls, everything.

Finally, my long lost father decided to acknowledge my presence and decided to pull me up from my downfall. I was surprised because he left his major business meeting for me. He would never do that for anybody. He never did that for me. This was the first parental love I was receiving.

"What are you doing here dad?"

"I have lost your mother and I am not willing to lose you too." He said wiping my messy hair off my forehead.

" You have already lost me dad. You cannot save me now. I am a lost cause. I cannot be saved." I said tears rolling down my cheek, neck and alcohol drenched shirt.

" Thats not true my son. I have faith in you. You are capable of good. Its just my fault that I didn't take care of you. I left you on your own. All of it is my fault."

"Why did you leave me dad? Why?" I cried.

He took my head on his lap from my pillow. He wiped my hot tears off my face which made another spill from my eyes. "I am so sorry son I was in grief. I lost the only love of my life. I should have thought you lost your mother too. I am so sorry for everything." He was shaking now remembering my mother made him even more sad. He loved her so much.

"Why does everyone keep leaving me, dad? Why? Mom left. You left and now Riya. Am I so bad?"

"You are not a bad person son you have just lost your path. Thats why I am here. You are going to come with me to kolkata and focus on your life. I will take care of you myself. It will be our own little world."

" I cannot leave her dad. My life depends on her. I am craving for her love. I want her so badly. There is nothing more I want in this world dad. I want her dad please do something." I was not myself I was someone else. I lost my senses. I want to see her. For once. For a moment.

"Listen Arjun beta, you have made some mistakes. If you love her and want her in your life you will have be a better person for her. Thats what I did for your mother. And for that you will have to come with me to bring your life on track"

"But dad leaving this place will be tough for me."

"Trust me bete. Everything will be fine. I will take care of your education and everything else. Get up and pack your bag."

"Can I see her for one last time?"

That was it. Its been two years since I shifted. True to his promise my dad took care of me and with the help of a therapist I recovered in a year but I still get depressed sometimes. Then I take the help of some pills.

I don't know if now I am a better person or not but now I know better. I know I have made mistakes in my life and there is nothing I can do to rectify it. But I am willing to correct my life from now on. I can't change my past but I can definitely change my future. I have stopped behaving like a stupid spoild teenager brat. No I am not that anymore. I am a more responsible person now. My dad helped me through out for this. Now my life is totally different now I wake up early. Shower. Get dressed and rush to my office.

I completed my college here in kolkata in correspondence because I wasn't in the condition to do a regular class. I completed somehow and earned my degree. I joined my father's business and am planning to expand it now. As for my love life I don't know what is written for me...

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