The Girl I Cheated On

Chapter 18. New Start

Riya's pov

Five.

Five. Six. Seven. Eight."

"What kind of dance is it Riya? I don't understand it. Its like we are trying to break our floor into pieces."

"Its called zumba. Its good for your fat and my stress." I explained in high pitch with loud music on our background.

"Are you sure our neighbours aren't gonna complain about all the noise and foot stomping."

"Common, see how cool is the music and we are not THAT loud."

"Not you but... I am not skinny like you are. Look at my chubby legs.."

"And thats why you need this class so much.. don't you want to look perfect on your wedding day?"

"Oh common you said I look cute with all the fat... I will be the teddy bear bride how cool is that and its not about my wedding. I know you have been stress all this week.

Tell me!

Whats wrong?"

"Yaar Abhish is pressurising me to get married. " I dont know if I should start this conversation right now but this zumba is making me to loosen up and its good to share complicated life things with your best friend.

After Natasha announced her wedding with her long time boyfriend Abhish started fantasising about our wedding and I am not thinking about getting married right now. I just completed my graduation and havent started working yet. Now is not the time to get married for me.

"So you don't want to get married or you don't want to get married to him?"

"Natasha, what are you talking about?" I paused the music to give some rest to our feet and our mind.

"I am just asking you do you even love him? You guys have been dating for a year yet I see no love in your eyes."

"What rubbish. I am just saying this because I want to start my career first. I haven't even got a job yet. I have my whole life ahead for marriage."

"When you love somebody you cannot wait to be together just like I can't. The problem is Riya, and you won't admit this but sorry to say you don't love him at all. You are just with him because you pity him. He has been after you for so long that you had to give in. And also because of that promise. That if Arjun betrays again you will have to give Abhish a chance.Right?"

The thought of Arjun made my stomach crunch in pain. I felt heavy. I did not hear his name in two years. I locked his name and his memories in some hidden corner of my mind and pretend that nothing happened. I don't want to remember the last time I saw him. I was devastated..

Two years earlier...

Arjun called like hundred times. I am tired of pretending that I don't care anymore. I cant do this. Please just leave me.

Please.

Go away. Go away.

Oh god.

I hate him I hate him so much. What he did shattered me once again. What does he wants. Does he want to see me suffer.

He follows me everywhere and begs for my forgiveness. But I don't want to forgive him. I just cant. If I keep forgiving him he will keep making the same mistake. But I am tired of pretending that I have no emotion left. I feel it every time he looks into my eyes and begs for forgiveness. Because the truth is no matter how much he hurts me I still have so much love for him that I can't help it anymore. He needs to get out of my life so that I can forgive him.

*this is the last text i am sending you come to your window for once. I promise you I won't bother you anymore.*

At first I debated with myself. Should I see him? Do I want to see him? What if its really the time? What does he mean by that. I hope its not that bad as I imagine. Finally I gave in and decided to have a look..

I saw him. Standing there. Out in the streets with slumped shoulders. Tears pooling in both of our eyes. He gave a faded smile. He looked at me like this is the last time. He had his bag on one of his shoulder and a middle aged man was standing behind him. Beside them was a public taxi with a lot of luggage on top.

Was he leaving?

A strange feeling clouded my mind. My stomach clenched up in knots. Why do I feel so scared? Why do I want to stop him? For the first time in my life I didn't listen to my heart I did what my mind felt was right. I will not repeat my same mistake.

But he stood there. Hoping me to stop him.. but I didn't. I drew the curtin and switched off the light. I couldn't help but sneak a peek outside the window. That man was pulling him inside the cab and they left.

An empty feeling spread in my whole body. Everything felt meaningless. I grew even more angry watching him leave. My eyes were flushing rivers. That whole night I cried silently. I hate him. How dare he.

Now...

"Not everyone is lucky Natasha, the person I loved I cannot trust. And besides Abhish has always been by my side and is a very good friend..so I guess its good that I am dating him. You know they say, choose the person who loves you not those who you love."

"True. But I think you will find someone who you can love and trust unconditionally and so will he, soon."

"I don't think I will trust anybody unconditionally now ever.."

Sensing my emotions Nastha side hugged my and said,"I am sorry that you had to go through all this."

"Its alright. What doesn't kills you makes you stronger. Besides, I am happy for you. You are finally getting married. Yayyyy.. Lets loose some weight.." I exclaimed excitedly switching on the loud music.

"Not zumba again."

"Ha ha ha 5,6,7,8...."