Change in(g) Time

Of course I did it. I felt I had to. Perhaps I was wrong. Perhaps it's all my fault. No justification...yet, I had my reasons. I could hear their laughs. It was really loud. They joyed at the fact that I couldn't go out because they made it so. Mom was there, as usual dancing to their tunes. I knew it would happen. I don't know why I bothered. I sat staring at my screen. I decided already, to continue with my science project rather. I seemed to loose focus though. I couldn't stop remembering all the instances. Like the time when I met with a friend and Blessing, my oldest sister, came out shouting at me, which I felt was just an act to prove superiority. I was never free. To me, having older siblings was like a cage and it wasn't just about that. I felt my mindset was better than theirs but I could never really advice or call them out because I had no authority and they always made that clear. I yearned to loose my position but as destiny would have it my dad died and my mom gave her word to never remarry and except a woman with 3 kids wanna be adopting, yh I'm pretty much the last born forever. They never lost a chance to torment me, I thought. The worse part was that I lived in the condition where everyone at home still sees me as a 13 years old with no knowledge of the world and until my 17th birthday, when my aunt said to me "you're a big girl, so you should get a job" I really didn't realise I had grown beyond that age. Deep down I was really just 13 all those years. I realised, but my family did not. They have this string of control over my life and they believe I should dance to whatever tune they play. I've rebelled a number of times, that has caused a serious ruckus inside my home. I really wished to switch posts and be the oldest. I knew it'll be very easy for me to lay a good example and take up all other responsibilities. This was always my thought. ...There was one comforting factor for me though, he was my peace, my everything. The only problem was, he didn't exist. Well in my life that was. His name is Jeon. Jeon Jeonggukk. He was a terribly famous musician and his fame had significantly risen that year. He was my everything and although I had never met him, I was convinced we'd fall in love if I ever did. There were only two problems tho. The first was trivial, it was that my line of work in relation to his was a total contrast. I was an upcoming scientist, whilst he was a musician. Plus chances that I'd become famous and meet him were very slim, but of course faith works wonders so, I didn't put much thought to that but the other. It was like a dead end. I was 17 while, he was 27. Yh, that was a whole ten year difference. He'd probably see me as a daughter I thought. He was my greatest delusion. One I wasn't ready to let go of without a fight. He was my greatest reason. ...I was science inclined. I always dreamt of being a great scientist. One who's name would surface the whole earth, just like Einstein or Newton. That was my dream. I was very diligent. Very hard working. Dedicated and devoted. I was, in my head, a typical nerd, well to the world, a beautiful damsel. Pretty ironic. I went to class that afternoon and sat in my usual seat, nobody questioned me, it was as though they had all registered the seat as mine. It was a physics class. The lecturer was done with lecturing. As he pulled out his usual assignment note the whole class screamed as though being crushed by a trailer. The lecturer laughed. He asked how many of us wanted to be like Einstein. More than half the class raised their hands, I obviously didn't (my steeze). He called out the assignment and basically, the summary of all that combusted grammar was that, he wanted us to find new undeniable theories explaining science stuff. That looked pretty impossible, I guess that was the point, to show us it's not all about the talks, it takes hard work to be like Einstein. Well, I was obviously determined to do it. That night, I made sure to block all distractions. I was ready to use 100% of my brain. I looked through all of Einstein's work, trying to find theories he either never completed or morden science completely killed. To my horror I couldn't find any. Well except one, but I obviously wasn't ready to go for it, I mean I was pretty sure it didn't exist. Well! it was my only option. Time Travel. Even saying it out sounds like a fantasy. Out of 10 people that preach time travel I'm pretty sure 9 absolutely does not believe in it. So what exact theory was supposed to come from it. I knew it was gonna be a long night. The whole night I studied very deeply. I went over several theories studying them over and over again but they all just didn't make any sense. I felt like I was going crazy. I even had to leave the shores of Einstein to morden theorists but all I got was a bunch of nonsense. I was so annoyed, I tried to find reason out of their nonsense but it seemed my brain was on a complete stop. Well...as expected, I dozed off and from there, into a land of wonder I entered. I had a dream. One of the only human, at that moment, that made me happy. No! of course it's not Einstein. Jeon, my beautiful musician. He was so handsome. His hair was on a low cut, his eyes big and popped out as usual, he was so tall and his skin was glowing. He had on a nice jogger pants and long sleeve t shirt. He looked amazing and smelled so nice. He looked at me as though he was mesmerized by my appearance. I looked around and I noticed something, the place was foreign. It wasn't our usual ground, quite the contrary, it looked as though we were on clay but a very normal sand looking clay and it was particularly red. The place looked like a desert. It was so empty, there were no trees or buildings and it's temperature didn't seem normal. It was almost like we weren't on earth but rather on another planet. I then looked at myself and I was different...but the good different. I was still beautiful me but I had no pimples and spots, all my scars were gone and I was most definitely older, probably around the age of 24. I had on a beautiful long flowing dress and a natural flower in my hair, just like in the movies. It was perfect, we were perfect. Just then, I looked at the sun, the bright shining sun, it looked to have been moving at a much slower rate though and it looked farther than usual. Very farther. Time was definitely different here, everything was different. I then looked straight out of the spaces emptiness and I saw earth. Far far away from us. I was undoubtedly happy. A bit frightened as to what exactly was going on but my happiness definitely overpowered my fright. I looked in Jeon's eyes and I heard him say with a loud voice "Jira! Jira!... come wash the plates" I was like what? I thought I didn't hear right. Well!...that was until my eyes opened to reality and I realised, it was just my sister waking me up to work. I looked at the clock beside me and realised I woke up thirty minutes late. Very soon that once loud voice became a scream and I rushed to go to her. She was so pissed but I was even more pissed. I had to get up early, prepare for school and still do the dishes. It seemed a lot not right, considering the fact that she didn't do anything but scream at me words I already knew. I looked at her with a lot of scorn in my eyes and then again I wished I was the older sister. No! I wouldn't actually be mean but at least I'd be able to give an example of the right thing to do. She kept complaining as I tried to work fastest I could and I just kept ignoring. I was done quickly and I wasted no time and horried off to bathe. I did all I had to very quickly and I rushed out to get a taxi to take me to school. While on my way, I looked at my sister, Blessing and I said to her, "one day, you will get to understand how I feel" and then, I left for school.