Second chance

Chapter 6

Ambers pov

This new forged bond was difficult to navigate, since I marked him, there was this strong pull to complete the bond, yet there was this nagging guilt I felt as a part of me felt like I was betraying Joey and another part realized that this was my sister’s mate that I just marked and because of my obsession I had marked and claimed him as mine. If my parents could see me now they would roll in their graves. This was something Lottie was likely to do, but certainly not me, but I had done it, hadn't I? A mate bond is even more sacred than human marriages because a literal goddess pairs you together, and I had taken my sister’s husband. That alone should be enough to make me feel shamed or disgusted, but it didn’t. The more I thought about him, the more I wanted to jump his bones, the more I wanted to complete this bond. I felt the need to do so just like how I felt when I mated with Joey, though this is a chosen bond, and I’m not supposed to feel this strongly just like I would with a fated bond. Thinking about fated bonds and Joey brought the guilty feeling back that was now becoming a regular thing and the confusion of my emotions felt like a roller-coaster. I had wanted to run when Kai became playful, but part of me wanted to stay, a big part that overshadowed the guilt and the shame wanted to stay and the new, bold me acted again, and I kissed him like it was the last kiss I could ever have. I needed him like I needed my next breath, like I needed a drop of water in a scotching desert, so I tried to reverse our positions as I had been sitting on a couch, and he was bent over towards me, but Kai was an alpha after all, and he wouldn’t easily submit. He carried me from the couch to the bed, he never broke our kiss and my fingers were buried deep into his hair and head. He was now lying on top of me and my body shook from the friction that brought uncontrollable pleasure to our bodies. He let go of my lips and I let out a whimper of refusal.

“We should talk,” he moaned as the friction between our bodies never stopped. I moaned in pleasure and kissed him, but again he stopped me and asked

“Are you sure you want to do this?”

“Stop talking, more kissing,” I hissed.

“At least I gave you a chance to run,” he said as our lips connected again.

When I was with Joey, I was timid. I let him navigate the next step of our intimacy, but now with Kai I was aggressive, both of us fighting for control. I was not shy in letting him know what I wanted with my hands and body as our lips barely parted. Kai was aggressive and rougher, yet I reveled in it. I wanted more. It felt like nothing else was there but just us in that moment, this need, clothes ripped and buttons flew everywhere. I didn’t need foreplay nor did I want time to admire each other’s bodies. I needed him in me hard, fast and rough. He knew exactly what I wanted and the next thing I felt him inside me and, oh, how I felt him. I had never felt something this big inside me. It felt like I was having s*x for the first time again as I felt pain and I almost screamed because of it, and he stopped and I felt fuller, but the pain was quickly replaced by pleasure and I wanted to move again and when he did, I swear he hit my stomach and I couldn’t help the screams of pleasure that tore out of me.

The next morning, I expected to wake up feeling guilty as I did yesterday, as it was becoming a new feeling I would be living with, but I felt none of it. Instead, I felt blessed to have known Joey, appreciated and honored the bond we shared. I felt fulfilled with the new bond between me and Kai, this bond felt just as strong as the one I had with Joey. Last night, being with Kai had been different from when I was with Joey. Where Joey was gentle and soft, Kai had been rough and unrelenting, pushing my limits up to the early hours of the morning to a point where I questioned if he was a man or a beast, but the honest truth is I was happy, the happiness that I never thought I would find again after losing my mate. With a smile, I woke up to go to the bathroom, but my legs failed, and I fell as soon as I tried to walk, and I cursed Kai out loud.

“If I remember correctly, someone kept begging for it yesterday, so being the only one being blamed now seems kind of unfair,” he said with laughter holding a food tray as he came in and heard me curse at him.

“Beast,” I said in a low voice.

“ You bring out the wildness in me,” he said, kissing my forehead and I blushed. “Morning beautiful,” he said and picked me up from the floor.

“Morning,” I said shyly as he kissed my cheek.

“I brought sustenance,” he said as he placed the tray of food on my lap.

“I need a bath first,” I smiled at him, and he picked me up to his en-suit. He placed me on a bath stool in his shower, and we did more than just take a bath. By the time we were done, the food was super cold, and we had to go to the kitchen to look for food as breakfast was already over.